I am revisiting Lisa Hayes' diary once more. This time, I am planning to add other points of view in subsequent chapters. I am guessing on dates here since I have no idea what's "canon" anymore. Any suggestions are welcome!
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April 16, 2010
Alaska
I finally made it to Alaska Base. I made it back to my home planet and to my father. I've missed my father, but is it horrible of me to feel homesick for the SDF-1 and my surrogate family onboard? Father and I have always had a special bond. As his only child, I'm his pride and joy. All that pride was further multiplied as I excelled up the ranks. I come from a long line of military leaders dating as far back as the American Civil War. He used to always say I had the drive and determination from his side of the family, but the heart of my mother. Our bond had been strained these past few years. My decision to volunteer to serve on the SDF-1 did not sit well with him. I think Father had always imagined that he and I would serve side-by-side. I don't think he particularly blames me in my decision. I believe he accuses Gloval for influencing me. I wish he'd see that I made my decision on my own. I'm sure he also thinks approaching the Zentraedi with diplomacy is all of Gloval's influence as well. Despite the report I submitted detailing my time in captivity on Dolza's ship as well as the breakthroughs we've had with the three Zentraedi spies, Father is still backing the Grand Cannon project. It hurts him to see that we don't see eye to eye on our approach to the Zentraedi. But I think it hurts him more that I am fully opposed to a project that is close to his heart. I am sorry for the hurt feelings, but it's not right of him to blame Gloval for our rift. I am hoping my mission here would convince my father that the Grand Cannon project will ultimately bring more harm than good. Maybe if we spend some time together, and he hears the reasons from me personally, he'll realize that I'm not supporting Gloval blindly. Part of Gloval's decision came from my own experience with the Zentraedi. I can't fail my friends on the SDF-1. We all have to stand together in order to bring peace.
Of course, I wouldn't have made it here without Rick. I've never considered myself the damsel-in-distress, but I honestly don't mind him being my knight in shining armor. It's amazing how far we've come since we first met. He has matured greatly since enlisting. Rick's no longer the hotheaded, loudmouth pilot, but someone both emotionally and physically strong and capable. A year ago, I wouldn't have trusted Rick with my life. Now… I wouldn't trust anyone else with it. He and I have been through so much together. I don't know when I came to admire him so much, but I consider him one among the people I hold dear. He has such a strong commitment to do what's right – even at the cost of disobeying my orders! I can't forget the incident on Mars Base Sara. I don't even think Rick liked me much at that point, but he still disregarded my orders and risked his own life to save mine. For that, I am grateful. If he left me on that base to die, I would have never gotten to know the kind and generous man underneath the cocky bravado. I never thought I'd care so much for someone after Riber, but I find my attachment to Rick growing with each passing day. There was also that time when we were trapped on Dolza's ship. And that kiss... Even though it was for "demonstration purposes" only, and we didn't feel anything for each other at the time, it was a good kiss. Sometimes I wonder what his kiss would feel like with feeling behind it? Oh, stop it Lisa! Rick is still in love with Minmei. And why wouldn't he be? Minmei's beautiful and lumninous and has half of Macross' male population eating out of her hand. Rick probably hasn't given our kiss a second thought since that mission. Minmei's a fool to not realize she's got a wonderful man who loves her. Rick is someone not to be taken for granted. But then again, isn't it the case that the good ones are always taken by ones who don't deserve them? I keep thinking of the message he coded to me moments before we parted. Knowing he believes in me means a lot. More to me than he probably realizes. I am committed more than ever to fulfill this mission. Not only to bring us closer to peace, but I promised him I would return to the ship.