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"Dr Shepherd shall we proceed?" asked a nurse. He didn't respond. "Dr Shepherd? Are you alright doctor?"

"What, oh yeah, prep for surgery everyone, we have to stop the blood clot before it grows any bigger." Derek ordered coming out of his daze.

"Dr Shepherd, are you sure you can do this surgery?" asked the nurse.

"I'm the best neurosurgeon we have aren't I? Izzie, George up here with me." Izzie and George walked speechlessly to Derek.

"Listen," Derek whispered to them, "if you don't want to do this I'll understand. I can clear you both."

"No, we can do it. Can't we George?" Izzie replied turning to George.

"Um, sure, we're staying."

"Good, then I'll need you, Izzie to locate the clot and you George to help me remove it." Derek knew he sounded composed on the outside but in the inside he was shaking like hell, not wanting to think of what would happen if she didn't pull through. You've done this type of procedure a hundred times, pull yourself together and do it. He thought to himself.

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"Has anyone seen Grey yet?" Bailey yelled over the commotion. "Boy, when I get my hands on her..."

"Dr. Bailey..." Alex started but she cut him off.

"What is it now Karev? If Dr Burke doesn't want you for surgery that's your problem not mine. Now shoo!"

"Doctor this isn't about that, It's about Meredith, she was in the middle of the crash, she's in the operating room." As Alex told Bailey this Christina had just walked by and heard the whole thing. She stood motionless, not knowing what to do. She needed to see Meredith, see if she was alright.

"Dr Bailey, I need to see Meredith." Christina asked

"Yang, if you go anywhere near that surgery I will personally make sure you will not see the inside of an OR for a month."

"But..."

"No. No buts. I'm not doing this to be cruel, I'm doing this for Meredith's sake. No go back to Burke for the last time!"

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Derek Shepherd tried to think about a life without Meredith as he washed up. He couldn't,no he wouldn't because she was going to be alright, she was going to wake up and when she does he'll be there holding her hand.

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