Disclaimer: (haven't done one in a while) I do not own Grey's Anatomy or anything affiliated with it.

"Meredith, there's someone here to see you." Izzy called to her friend from the front door.

"Who is it?" Meredith asked not really caring. As soon as Meredith had arrived home she sat in front of the TV and put on one of her mother's surgery tapes. Although she wasn't really watching it at all, she was thinking about how screwed up her life was at the moment.

"Maybe you should come and see." Izzy urged.

"If you want me to go to the door so badly Izzy then it's a person I obviously don't want to see. So, no."

"Uh, sorry about this. Just, come in." Izzy told Meredith's guest.

"Thank you Izzy." he said walking into the lounge to Meredith.

"Jason? What are you doing here?" Meredith asked wiping chip crumbs off her shirt.

"I wanted to tell you I'm sorry about the other day. I also wanted to see if you were all right." He said, looking down at her, concerned.

"You don't have to say sorry, Jason. You did nothing wrong."

"No, I acted like a jerk. I didn't even let you explain to me what happened."

"I'm so sorry." she whispered.

"It's okay Meredith. Can we maybe talk somewhere a little more private?" he asked turning to see Izzy and George sitting in the kitchen hanging on their every word.

"Sure. My room's just upstairs. It also has a lock on it." she said turning towards Izzy and George who quickly tried to look busy studying an Oreo box. Meredith lead Jason upstairs into her room. She locked the door behind her then sat on her bed motioning Jason to do the same.

"I know we should talk about what happened but, I don't know where to begin, or what to say." Meredith said as Jason sat next to her. He took her hand in his.

"Did it mean anything?" he asked her.

"Did what mean anything?" she asked, although she was pretty sure she already knew.

"The kiss. You and Derek. In the lift."

"I...I don't think so. I don't know, Jason. Everything is so confusing at the moment, I don't know what to think anymore." she says, tears swelling in her eyes. He sees her try to fight them and pulls her into him, holding her, comforting her.

"Hey, hey. It's okay, Mer. I'm here, you can talk to me." he consoles.

"Really?" she asks looking up into his brown eyes. She's always loved his eyes. When he was at work they were serious and assessing, when he was in the bedroom they melted to liquid chocolate. "Why did we have to end it?" she asked him.

"You know why Meredith. You can't have a long-distance relationship let alone a long-distance marriage. It wasn't the right time for us. Though I always regret it, everyday. I think, what would've happened if I had turned down attending and moved to Seattle with you? I tell myself it was for the best and we obviously weren't meant to be. But, I've never forgiven myself for choosing my job over you. And I never will." he said and then leant in and kissed her lightly on the lips.

She kissed him back and pulled his body on top of her. She undid the buttons of his shirt, rubbing her hands over his hard, lean stomach, groaning at the memory of his body. She pulled her shirt over her head as he undid her bra, slowly running his hands down the length of her body. They both slowly undressed each other and sat on the bed facing each other, looking into each other's eyes. "I missed you." she whispered into his ear before kissing him on the neck.

"I missed you too." he replied pulling her against him.

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"Hey George. Where have you been all day? You disappeared after lunch." Izzy said as George entered the kitchen.

"I was, busy." he explained.

"I was wondering if you wanted to Joe's with me an Mer tonight?"

"No. No I don't think so." he said looking in the fridge.

"What's wrong with you lately? You never pass down a booze fest."

"Nothing! Okay? Nothing is wrong with me." he snapped.

"Woah! Sorry for asking George! But next time you want to convince me 'nothing's wrong' try not to be such a jackass and I might believe you!" she said turning to storm out.

"Izzy! I'm sorry Iz. I didn't mean, I just, I told her Izzy. I told her everything." George said stopping her.

"Told who what?" she asked, still annoyed at his reaction when she was only trying to help but still her curiosity getting the better of her.

"Meredith. I told Meredith." he sighed, his chest hurting with every heart beat.

"You told her you like her?" she asked incredulous.

"No." he said not looking at Izzy.

"Then what did you tell her?" she asked lost.

"I told her, I told her I loved her." he said looking up to see Izzy's reaction.

"Oh my god." she gasped raising her hand to her mouth. "I had no idea George. I thought, I thought"

"That it was just some stupid schoolyard crush?" he said cutting her off.

"How did she take it?" she asked carefully.

"We didn't really have a chance to say anything else. You called us down to dinner as soon as I said it."

"Oh, I'm so sorry George. I didn't mean...I didn't know." she stuttered.

"It wasn't your fault, Izzy. Anyway, she didn't want to hear it. You should've seen the look in her eyes."

"I'm sure that's not true George." Izzy said trying to comfort him. "She's been through a lot lately. She just wasn't expecting it. You kinda chose a bad time to tell her."

"I know. It just slipped out. I couldn't help it. Anyway, I was a fool to think she'd feel the same way."

"No, George, you weren't. You can't help falling in love, no matter how hard you try you can't stop it. And even when you think they don't love you back your heart breaks, but you end up loving them more. Love is a painful thing. You've just got to wait and hope that one day your love will be returned." Izzy said eyes glistening at the look on George's face. Her chest tightening at the loss and hurt that had taken hold of his body. He was a beautiful person. He didn't deserve to feel the way he did. She just hoped that someday soon he would find someone who felt the same way about him.