A/N this letter was written before Derek told her about the divorce papers in the last chapter.
Meredith
I've figured the only way I can truly tell you how I feel is through a letter. I'm not taking the cowards way out, it's because you make it impossible for me to talk to you. Please don't rip this up before you read it. I was a foll to choose Addison over you. I guess I couldn't handle divorce. I've always looked up to my parents and they have a perfect marriage. That's what I wanted. I wanted what they have so I decided to stick with my marriage to see if I could fix it. The reason I'm telling you this is because I want you to understand why I made the mistake I did. I fell in love with you Meredith. I am still in love with you and no matter what that will never change. I love you in a really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window way. I miss you.
Love Derek
Meredith sat on her bed clutching the letter to her chest letting her tears roll down her face.
I've been holding on,
To a love gone wrong it's true,
For too long
The hurt it left inside
Has made me wanna hide too much and I do
I'm not afraid to be alone;
The truth is I'm alright
But something has been missing from my life.
So I'll meet you at the harbour at eight?" came the voice at the other end of the line.
"Sure." Meredith replied before hanging up the phone.
Confide in me, tell your story
Are you terrified to fail?
It's your fear that makes you worthy
I am terrified to fail
Confide in me, tell me your story
Are you terrified to fail
It's your fear that makes you worthy
"Hi." Meredith said to the figure on the bench looking over the harbour.
"Hi." he replied turning around.
"So, you want to talk?" she asked unsure if she wanted to.
"Not yet." he said motioning for her to sit next to him. She sat down and leaned into him as he draped an arm around her. They sat in silence for a long time just listening to each others' steady breathing, sharing their body warmth.
"I missed you." he whispered.
"I know." she smiled.
"Meredith?" he asked tentatively.
"Yes?"
"Do you love him?"
"Why?"
"Because I need to know."
"Isn't the only thing that matters is that I love you?"
"You love me?" he asked happily surprised.
"Yes Jason, I love you. I always have."
"There's something I want to ask you." he said pulling her up so she could look into his eyes.
"Okay." she said bracing herself.
"I'm leaving in a couple of days and I'd like you to come with me."
"What?" she asked caught off guard.
"Come back with me, Meredith. Back home where we used to live, together."
"It's all so sudden. I, uh, what about my job? What about my internship? I can't just get up and leave, I've worked so hard to get here." Meredith said trying to comprehend the possibility.
"You can finish it in Boston. You know you'll have far more opportunities if you complete your internship in Boston. Back at Massachusetts General, with me." he said hopefully.
"I need some time to think it over okay?"
"You're seriously going to consider it?" he asked thinking she would've just turned him down straight away.
"Yeah, I am. But that doesn't mean yes...or no. I just...give me some time okay?"
"I leave in a week."
"That's not a lot of time." she laughed nervously.
"I know, I'm sorry. Just think about it." He wrapped his arm around her once more and they sat there in silence, just being. Nothing else.
We live in the shadows
And we had the chance and threw it away
And it's never gonna be the same
Cos the years are falling by like the rain
And it's never gonna be the same
'Till the life I knew comes to my house and says
Hello
I know it's a short one but I think it's better if I leave it there. More effect and all that jazz. Now a little fun – well if it's your type of fun – guess the songs and artists in my chapter. Note: one of the songs probably only Aussies will be able to get because I don't think everyone else has heard it apart from us. Will try to update soon. Love ya
janedoe99