Part XX
Marissa frantically dialed Alex's number. Her mind was racing. She wanted to apologize. She wanted Alex back. She was getting worried.
She waited for Alex to answer her phone as she paced around her room. The voice mail picked up, and Marissa decided to leave a message.
"Hey… It's me… I know you're upset… I'm sorry… I didn't mean to… I was just scared… We were getting…"
"Serious?" Alex appeared in her doorway.
"We've been together for almost two years Marissa."
"Forever scares me." Marissa's eyes dropped to the floor.
She flipped her phone and watched her feet nervously.
Alex leaned against the doorway. She breathed in heavily. She watched Marissa who was moving uneasily. She sighed.
"What are you doing with me?" Alex asked not staring away from Marissa.
"I mean… I've been honest with you. I've been faithful. And yet the thought of spending our lives together scares you?"
Marissa looked up to Alex sadly. She was confused and she knew Alex was getting frustrated. She couldn't say anything to soothe her.
Alex stood up straight.
If she doesn't she see herself spending the rest of our lives together then what's the point of this relationship?
"I don't want to do this anymore." Alex suddenly spoke.
The words pierced Marissa's heart.
"I know why forever scares you." Alex said softly.
"Because we can't have kids, like probably Ryan and Lindsay could." Alex held back her tears.
"Growing old wouldn't be NORMAL…" Alex emphasized the word normal.
"Alex…" Marissa walked closer tried to hug Alex but the blonde pulled away.
"Don't. I don't need it. I don't need you to feel sorry for me."
"But I…" Marissa wanted to explain but the blonde cut her off.
"I'll just get my things then I'll go." Alex walked pass Marissa and began clearing her clothes from the brunette's room.
"Alex, don't do this. I love you…" Marissa pleaded.
Alex didn't pay any attention and put the last set of garments in her bag.
"Don't leave." Marissa was now in the verge of tears.
Alex stood in front of Marissa and dried her tears. She cupped Marissa's cheeks and leaned in to give her a soft peck on the lips. The brunette closed her eyes buried her head into Alex's chest.
"I love you…" Marissa mumbled.
"Goodbye Marissa." Alex whispered.
She gently pushed Marissa away. Taking her bag she went out of the Cooper Household., and out of Marissa Cooper's life.
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It had been two weeks since they have broken up. Marissa spent her time with Summer who was still going strong with Jodie. Alex spent her time with her other friends.
One day, the duo was in the library and Marissa saw Alex checking one of the books in the history section. She missed the blonde. But she knew the blonde was still upset with her. She tried to be discrete with the glances but Summer caught them anyway.
"Go talk to her…" Summer whispered.
"She hates me…"
"She doesn't. She loves you Coop…"
"She doesn't anymore…" Marissa replied sadly.
Her eyes dropped into the book that she was supposed to be reading.
"Be as hard headed as you can be. But don't come crying to me when Inna or some posse comes to sweep her off her feet before you realize that she still loves you."
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Alex sat at the kiosk in front of the library to study. She ran her fingers through her hair.
"Hey there!" Bianca greeted and sat down beside her.
"Hi." Alex smiled and looked back into her notes.
"So there's a party in Ching's house tonight. Are you coming?"
"Nope. I have homework and stuff…"
"Oh come on… It's a Friday night…"
"I can't… Maybe next time..." Alex turned and smiled at Bianca who beamed.
"Ok." Bianca turned and looked down at the stuff Alex was working on.
Marissa passed by and saw them from a distance. She felt her heart break. Alex was sweet, friendly. No wonder girls find her attractive. Marissa bit her lip. It would only be a matter of time before Alex finds a new girlfriend.
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"When will this end?" Tiffany asked from a seat behind Alex.
"Marketing is alright." Dianne spoke making them all grin.
"That's because you're a genius." Bianca quipped and they giggled some more.
"You girls can stop giggling now." The professor turned and spoke.
"You'll be doing a marketing strategy option for a particular company of your choice. I'll be assigning you into groups of two."
"SIR!" A boy raised his hand.
"Can we just group ourselves? I mean I think we're old enough…"
"Mr. Gunther… You forgot I'm the professor. So sit down."
The class erupted into murmurs and sighs.
"Ok. Now that's been cleared. Please take note of the groupings."
Marissa turned her gaze to Alex who was a few seats in front of her. The blonde was busy reading her book.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do… I know I was scared… But I love her… I really do... I'm not going to ask… I'll let you decide if I still deserve her… I promise I'll make it up to her if you give me the chance…
"COHEN! COOPER! You go together!" The professor yelled.