Part XXIX:
"YOU BITCH!" Marissa yelled out causing the student body to turn.
Bianca rolled her eyes knowing pretty well that the brunette was slightly drunk. The way Marissa stood gave away the information.
"Hello to you too..." Bianca greeted with a sarcastic tone.
Tiffany who was beside her just shook her head.
"You don't have to provoke her…" Tiffany whispered to her sister before she walked towards her friends.
"What do you want Cooper?" Bianca asked seemingly pissed off.
She was standing in front of a girl who had broken Alex's heart. It was a heart that once loved her with so much honesty. A heart she gave up because of fear. This girl had the love of an honest person, who was denied any chance of explanation, just because she saw something. Something that wasn't what she thought it was.
"Where's Alex?" Marissa slurred.
The vodka was obviously doing overtime in her system. Bianca could only shake her head.
"Why would you ask? You never did mind her remember?" Bianca replied raising her eyebrow.
Marissa furrowed her brows and was about to slap Bianca when Summer hurriedly wrapped her arms around her. Bianca stood unthreatened by Marissa's outbursts.
"You just couldn't take it that she was with me can't you?" Marissa snapped.
This was what you don't want Bianca to hear.
"One: I was genuinely happy knowing she was happy with you." Bianca pointed out.
"Two: You were so stupid to think she would ever want me that way again. She loves you too much. And I trust her too much to know she won't lead me on." Bianca then pointed her finger at Marissa.
"And three: All she wanted was to learn how to dance. She wanted to learn to dance for you. Not me. You hear? For you!"
Marissa stood stunned and so did Summer.
"After all these years, you couldn't trust her. From the girls who find her cute, to Inna. And even with me. She never cheated on you. Not ever. She tried to talk to you… But… No… You had to blow her off. And to be honest how you did it was sickening. I wanted to shove it to your face but she stopped me. Yeah, she stopped me. She wanted to explain it herself."
Marissa felt the alcohol being sucked out of her as Bianca lashed out on her. Piece by piece she was trying to comprehend it in pain.
"Oh no…" Was all Marissa could mutter.
She stared fearfully at Summer.
"I hope you're happy Marissa. Because you and Alex are definitely over. And no. I'm not picking up the pieces after you." Bianca walked pass Marissa and Summer and smiled at Jodie who was holding a bottle of water for Marissa.
"She…" Marissa stuttered out tears running down her cheeks.
"Jodie did you know?" Summer asked turning to her girlfriend.
Jodie nodded and handed Marissa the bottle of water.
Marissa felt weak and almost sat on the floor.
"Take me to Alex please." Marissa looked up to Summer at the brink of breaking down.
Summer nodded as Jodie ran out. They left the dance onwards to find Alex's empty apartment.
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"Thanks Katie." Alex took her backpack and gave Katie a hug.
"Send pictures of London for me. Been a while since Jessie and I traveled." Katie joked, patting Alex at the back.
"Sure. Promise pictures of your baby ok? Sorry you had to leave her to take me here… Mom couldn't catch an earlier flight."
"It's fine. Jessie's loves you to death tell me to chauffer you. I swear, you blonde's have a thing."
"Yeah maybe. Thanks."
"Be good Alex…" Katie smiled letting go of the younger girl's hand.
"I always have." Alex smiled and walked towards the gate onwards to Europe.
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"Alex? Alex?" Marissa knocked nervously at Alex's door but there was no answer.
"Alex please… I'm… Please answer the door…"
Jessie went out of their house to see who was at Alex's door. She was surprised to see Marissa.
"She's already at the airport Marissa. Didn't you know her flight was early?" Jessie asked.
"Flight?" Marissa's heart began to beat fast.
"She's off to London tonight. Didn't you know?" Jessie tilted her head confused.
Marissa couldn't reply. She called herself stupid in her head. Bonehead. Nitwit. Every word she could ever describe how foolish she was. Summer saw the look in her face. She looked as though life was sucked out of her.
"They haven't been talking." Jodie replied for Marissa.
"You might be able to catch her…" Jessie trailed off.
"No…" Marissa uttered.
"She's gone…" She added and looked up into the stars.
"She's gone…"
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Alex watched Boston from her window seat. She was offered a slot on a London university varsity. Alex took her chance. She wanted to be as far away from Marissa as possible. She felt so much. But she was done trying. It was time to move on. She took out a letter Bianca had left. She had instructed Alex to read it while on the plane. Alex followed her wishes of course.
Alex leaned her head on her chair and read out loud.
"Don't fall in love just because you need to. Fall in love because you want to."
Alex smiled. Bianca did know her well. Because she knew where Alex's heart was when she said that. Probably the only person who would always hold it.
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Marissa stared at the sky. Summer and Jodie took her straight home. Now she was alone near the pool. Silently contemplating on what was happening around her. She slowly walked towards the house then towards her room. She turned on the radio and a song played on. She sat on her bed and took out a flask that was hiding on her drawer. She let herself drown with the alcohol and her sadness. Tears fell when she heard the words of the song.
She's out of my life
She's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for two years she was here
And I took her for granted I was so cavalier
Now the way that it stands
She's out of my hands
So I've learned that love's not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned that love needs expression
But I learned too late
She's out of my life
She's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
When the song ended, Marissa was laying on her bed tears flowing freely. She had lost Alex. And there was no one to blame but herself.