Tropical Nightmare- Chapter 16: Nowhere (Kate´s POV)
Disclaimer: I don´t own any characters or anything!
Summary: Tony and Kate are sent to Argentina for an undercover mission, but they have to take a detour.They are bound to find out that atropical island can be a real nightmare -at least if you´re on your own out there...
Additional note: I usually don´t write 1st-person narrator, but it seemed to fit rather well for this little story as the POV changes with each chapter.Also, the use of present-tense is wanted here, eventhough it may seem a bit odd. I hope it´s still readable.
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The silence is so complete. I feel myself floating in the middle of nowhere, but I can´t see anything. It´s not dark, actually everything is bright white. I have no feeling for time or space and it feels wonderful. Once in a while, the silence is disturbed by a sound. It´s nothing I have heard before. Just a sound. Some of the sounds seem to remind me of something, but my mind is empty. There is a short moment where I ask myself who I am and where, but there is no answer.
Another sound is breaking through the silence and the white surroundings are shimmering for a moment. There are shadows, like a picture behind shattered glass. I should know what that shadow is, but again, my mind is empty. Even when I close my eyes, I still see my surroundings. It´s a strange feeling, like something that can´t be, but I can´t say why it can´t be. I don´t know anything else beside this after all.
There´s a blurr in my vision, like something invading my space. I hear different sounds now, not only one like before. The picture looks like a person, but how do I know? Suddenly, there are pictures in my mind, names and sounds, but I don´t know where they come from. The silence is gone now and the noise is everywhere. I want to hide from it, go back to that white nowhere I have felt so safe in, but I can´t find it.
"Kate." A single word comes through, but what does it mean? My mind tries to process the word or sound or whatever it is. It has some meaning, I can feel that, but I´m not sure what it is. I feel myself more clearly now. A head, two arms, two legs and a body. I haven´t felt that before, but somehow, I know this is real. "Kate!" That word again, but what does it mean? I try to remember, I really do. For a moment, I feel like something is pulling on me. My surroundings become clearer, but I can´t move at all. My eyes are still shut and yet I can see shadows around me and hear voices talking. The sounds suddenly make sense to me. It´s people talking, many people, well I can´t really say that for sure, but it´s more than one voice.
Those voices are telling stories. Stories I don´t know, but I like to listen to them. Their voices are so real, I feel like I just have to reach out a bit to touch them. I try once, but it hurts so much. The surroundings change to a darker color, maybe not another color, just less light perhaps. My mind is racing, trying to process all the information it is getting now. There´s this one voice again. I´m so sure it´s familiar. I´m so sure it reminds me of something. I want to reach out for it, touch it, but there´s the pain again. The words become so clear when I try to reach out.
"We miss you, Kate...I miss you." The voice says and suddenly, there´s a face to that voice. Grey hair, a strict face and an incredible smile. I don´t know where the picture comes from, but I know it´s familiar. I wish I had a voice that could reach out to the other one. My mind tells me, I have one, but I don´t know where it is. My mind tells me all I have to do is reach out, but I´m afraid of more pain.
It´s getting cold, so very cold here. I can still hear the voice and I feel like it´s so much warmer there. I have no idea where this place is that the voice comes from, but I know I can reach it. It will be nicer there, not so cold, even if it hurts. I pull my strength together and reach out. The pain is cutting through me like a hot knife, but this time I´m not pulling back. I keep reaching and find the name to that voice. "Gibbs..." I hear a different voice saying and realize that it´s mine. The pictures have changed and I notice that my eyes are open now.
It feels like I´m falling through ice, cold and hot alternating. Everything seems to spin around me and for a moment, I can see that bright nowhere again. I could go back within a breath and I know the pain would end, but somehow, there is a pair of blue eyes that keep pulling me away from that nowhere. I hurt everywhere, I want to cry, but I can´t. I want to get away, but I can´t move. There is something warm on my head that keeps me here. It´s this warmth that is forcing me to get over the pain and reach out.