"How you're doing´, Faith?" Bosco dare to ask, he is some how nervous. First time I see him like that in a long time "how is the..."
"Baby? She is fine" I say
"Is a she?" he smiles
"Yeah, it's a girl...and we are ok, thanks for asking"
"Faith, I didn't..." I raise my hand not letting him finish his sentence
"Don't start, please...the last thing I need is listen how you try to apologize once more"
"But I am"
"Too late...I'm already..." I can't manage to say what I want to say, not with him looking at me like that "I'm seeing someone else" I look down for a second. He stays there, looking puzzled
"You are? Don't you think that's too..."
"Desperate?"
"No! I mean soon...don't you think is too soon?"
"Nope. He is quite aware of my situation"
"You mean he knows you are caring my child?"
"ohhh NOW is YOUR child?" I say rising my voice a little "he knows my baby's father is a jag off, if that makes you happy"
He stays quite for minutes "I'm sorry..."
"Are you done? Cause I have things to do" he nodded and I walk away "sorry honey "I whisper to my unborn child "someday you'll understand"
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Jake is waiting for me outside. He is a nice guy, I thought he would walk away when I told him about my pregnancy, he didn't...he actually said he would love to be my baby's father. I wasn't sure about the dating thing, but I figure I couldn't be alone for so long and then I met Jake. He stood by my side since day one...I can't say I love him cause I would be lying. I like him just that.
We walk home in silence, there's not much to be said...he knows I see Bosco everyday, he knows about our situation and doesn't complain about it. I think he hates him, even if he doesn't know him at all, deep inside he knows someday he will knock at our door and say how sorry he is, that probably would kill him cause he knows our relationship would be over, for good.
"So, I was thinking..." he says "about the baby's name"
"Yeah..."
"I made a list" he shows a peace of paper with several names on it "ok...how about, Cassandra, Katrina, Rosemarie, Linda or Diana?"
"oh that's a lot to think about...but I already have a name" I say smiling at his effort
"You do?" he saves the paper on his pocket "which one?"
"Angela...after her grandmother" I smile, he doesn't look so happy as I thought "you don't like it?"
"Please tell me that's your mother's name?"
"No, its...Bosco´s mom" I see how he reacts. Walking away from me, looking around...it means he is really upset "Jake, you have to understand I can't keep him away from this"
"After all he said to you?"
"Yes, after all he did to me...she needs him" I touch my stomach, he still seems as mad as before
"no, she doesn't" he walks away, leaving me alone in the sidewalk.
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When I wake up the next morning I knew Jake was not here, he was way to upset to come home. At some point I think he right, Bosco doesn't deserve to be my baby's father but again he could be...he has his ups and downs, you know? He is a human being after all. Maybe I'm exaggerating about our situation, he says a few things he didn't want to say, he made a mistake but words are only words. it doesn't mean he doesn't want to be a daddy, right? So, I should give him a second chance. Yes, that's the right decision.
"We need to talk" I say as he opens the door of his apartment
"Sure...come on in" We sat on the couch. He looks at me; I look at him not knowing how to begin. He speaks before I do "I'm sorry...I never should have said that to you, Faith. I was..."
"Drunk?" I joke, he smiles
"No, I was shocked...and I was stupid. I shouldn't have..."
"Stop...I know how you feel because I felt it too. I was way to scared when I knew I was pregnant but I'm not scared anymore"
"Me neither" he smiles for the first time in weeks "so, should we give it another try?"
"Kind of late for that, don't you think?" I joke putting his hand in my stomach just as the baby kicks
"You know I love you, right?" he says, shyly. I kiss him on the lips "I'll take that as a yes" he smiles
"I should go, now...I have to talk to Jake"
"Oh, right." he walks with me towards the door, we kiss once more "have a nice night." he touches my stomach once more "don't kick your mommy too much"
"Night"
TBC!
the last one I swear!