A/N: It just keeps surprising me how intuitive some reviewers are. Shakes head Anywho, I hope you all enjoy this chapter. There probably won't be another post until after the holidays, gonna be busy the next few days. :D Hope you all enjoy, and for those of you who celebrate: Happy Christmas and for those of you who don't…well, sorry for the delay in the postings. :(

Chapter 1

Jude drove to the hospital in a daze. She didn't get much more information besides that there was an accident and she had to get to the hospital. She drove Tommy's Viper as fast as she could. She knew he'd be pissed that she took the viper, but it was faster than her Honda and she didn't care…she could take his anger if he was alright.

She parked the viper, in the back of the parking lot as to avoid having anyone accidentally bang their car door into the side or something, and ran through the automatic doors to the ER. Jude stopped and gazed around at the hustle and bustle. She'd never be in the hospital before. Nothing like this had ever happened to anyone in her family. She stared, lost and confussed. She gazed around for a familiar face and saw none. Just strangers crying and waiting for information, Nurses and doctors running about and Patients occasionally being rolled out on stretchers.

A group of people moved and Jude saw the reception desk. Jude jumped into the line, hoping she could get some information.

"Jude" A voice said. Jude turned to see the familiar look of Georgia rushing towards her. Jude jumped out of line and walked over to her manager, her eyes questioning. "Jude, I'm so sorry. Jude, there was an accident and" Georgia said, and Jude noticed her worried face and her red eyes, she took in the tear stained cheeks and she felt weak. Her head began to pound with white noise and she couldn't feel anything. Her legs began to feel weak and she collapsed to the floor. Georgia put a hand on her shoulder.

Jude looked into Georgia's eyes.

"No." She choked out, and the older woman ran a hand through her red hair, and said with a shaky voice

"They were in an accident Jude…hit by a drunk driver."

"I know that!" Jude yelled, not caring everyone was now looking at her. Her eyes pleaded with Georgia. "Is he…?" her voice pleading, her mind already knowing already connecting the dots and working over time to process what was going on before her.

"We don't know yet Jude." Georgia said, hugging the teenager. "Kwest and Tommy are both in surgery…honey, I haven't been able to get word as to how they are." Georgia whispered, running her hands comfortingly down Jude's back.

"He has to be ok." Jude said, feeling tears stinging her eyes. She let out a sob as the realization hit her like a ton of bricks. He might not be ok…he could…She couldn't bring herself to think it and let out a sob. Georgia just held her as she cried, trying to comfort the girl whose world had just been shattered.

March 22, 2008

1:05 am

Dear Diary,

I'm sitting in the lobby right now, writing down all that's happened. My therapist told me to write everything down and it should help me…but I can't think straight, I can't feel anything. All I feel is numb.

I made it to the hospital in record speed, but I was in a daze. I still don't remember getting to my car and driving there. I was on autopilot and somehow, made it there with no incident. I thank god that I made it ok. The whole way, my heart pounded in my ears and my mind drew up the worst case scenarios.

After Georgia had told me what happened, I felt tears well up in my eyes. I closed them and my legs turned to jelly. I collapsed onto the cold linoleum floor of the hospital, a sob escaping my throat. All I could think was not Tommy, I can't loose him. I had buried my face in my hands and cried. I felt like my heart was ripped out of my body and was being stomped to crumbs before me. The pain was unbearable and I didn't know what I would do if I lost him. Georgia's arms pulled me into a hug, and my sobs quieted. The numbness set in, and I haven't been able to feel since. My eyes are filled with unshed tears. My body is numb; numb to the pain, the heartache, the looks of sympathy from everyone.

I'm sitting in the uncomfortable hospital chair, been sitting here for probably an hour, not feeling anything. I feel empty inside, hollow. Like a shell of a person and I hate it. I just want to feel something. The anger, resentment, pain, whatever it was I was feeling earlier. I hate this numb feeling.

The doors to the ER have just opened again; Kat and Jamie are here, I guess Georgia must have called them, thinking I need a friend. I guess I have to go and talk to them. I guess I'll hafta write more later.