Chapter 6 I didn't mean to

Emma's P.O.V

I was watching some show on Lifetime when there was a knock at the door. I opened it to see Jay.

By the look on his face I could tell he had something to tell me… and it wasn't a good thing. Sure we both made our mistakes in the past, mostly not telling each other important things when the needed to be said…

"Jay what's wrong?"

"Um, I kinda…" he paused, "Are your parents home?"

"No, they left for Hawaii, with Liz, Jess, and Hunter, or something?" I told him.

"Ok, let's go sit down," he said.

"No, you're going to tell me whatever it is right here."

"Emma, just sit down." He commanded,

I could tell he was angry. But at who? Me… or himself…?

I obeyed when I got to the couch I just sat, hoping the news wasn't as bad as he was making it.

"I, I, I kind of slept with Alex." He stuttered. I was silent.

What could one say to this anyway? Oh, it's ok, I don't care that you slept with your ex-girlfriend. I love you.

"Say something; anything, just don't be mad." He pleaded.

"Why, why shouldn't I be mad?" I fired back at him.

"Because, because I love you." I noticed at that moment that he was on the verge of tears.

When I first met him I didn't think he was even capable of the simplest human emotions yet alone crying, and love. I was shocked.

"Just tell why you did it? Why did you have sex with Alex?"

"I was drunk…"

"That's no excuse for it."

"I didn't mean to, I just went to the ravine to think about you when you ran without letting me explain that Amy kissed me, not the other way around.

"Then Alex came with two bottles of vodka and I had one… or maybe both, I don't remember. And I woke up in Alex's bed. I don't remember the sex."

"But Alex does!" I yelled.

'I don't care, I just care about you." He said.

"Just get out,"

"Emma, don't do this…"

"GET OUT!" I screamed. He left, slamming the door behind him. I got up and went to the door, just to see him walk away. He didn't turn back. I slid down the door and cried.

"Emma, what's wrong?" I heard a few minuets later. I looked up to see Jessica.

She looked genuinely concerned. I smiled a crooked smile and I felt a hot tear run down my face. "Emma, tell me what happened." She coaxed softly. I was actually glad that I have a sister to help me with my problems.

"Jay," I told her.

"Does he hate you after the rape?" she asked, "Men, they always want to be first. They can't stand the idea that someone got there first. Boy I tell ya, if that's why, I'm going to kick his ass all the way to Mexico, and let me tell you, I'm more than capable of doing so." She went on; she has… a different view of what men are than most people do.

I smiled at my sister, "No, it's not about the rape, but I'd almost rather it be." I told her.

"Than what is it about?" another voice asked. I looked to my right to see Alyssa.

"Were you spying?" I asked smiling through my tears.

"Sorry sis, but I'm quite nosy." She replied.

"Anyway," a voice said, this time it was Hunter's.

"Is there any such thing as privacy around here?" I asked, though I was happy I had so much support.

"No," all three said in unison.

"No fair." I pouted playfully.

"The point…" Jess and Alyssa said.

I sighed, "Jay got drunk and slept with Alex and now I don't know if he's telling the truth, I don't know if he's lying or if he really was drunk." I said really fast.

"Slower," Hunter said.

"Jay… slept… with… Alex… he… says… he… was… drunk… but… I… don't… know… if… I… should… believe… him. Do… you… get… it… now…?" I said slowly.

"Yes," Hunter said, "I think he's telling the truth because from what I've seen, he really loves you." He told me.

"Agreed," said my sisters.

"Thanks for the help." I said, "But I need to take a relaxing bath and Hunter…" I looked at him.

"Don't worry." He told me. I smiled and went upstairs.

"What is she talking about?" Jessica asked.

"Yeah, what is she talking about?" Alyssa followed.

"It's…" Hunter started, I looked down to see what he would say, "Nothing," he finished. I smiled, for the first time today.