Chapter 6:
"I'm the monster of doom…and I'm going to kill you!" a roar echoed through the room. There were sounds of scuffling and pants. "I sentence you to life long imprisonment in the dungeons of wrath monster of doom! I am Tatsumaki Wan keeper of peace…best super hero in the world. I have saved the damsel Ayaka –chan from you. Imagine music Yuki!" Wan yelled. "Oh and you're supposed to be wailing cause you're stuck in the dungeons of wrath." Wailing sounds emanated from the room as well.
Shuichi smiled as he stirred the soup. The things Wan made Yuki do…it was funny really…never in his life had he expected to here the cold novelist proclaim himself a monster of doom. He checked on the fish to see if it was grilled. He wondered still if it had been a good idea calling Yuki over for dinner. Of course Hiro was there with Ayaka…but it felt awkward after their last meeting. Hiro walked in grinning.
"Shuichi tell me I'm dreaming…tell me its really not the cold sarcastic Yuki Eiri out there, who capture my Ayaka and calls himself the monster of doom!" he looked at Shuichi quizzically. "Who knew Wan could be such a charmer? We should really keep an eye on him in his teens, or he'll have a fan following bigger than Ryuichi's!"
Shuichi laughed. "Yeah well…everyone says he's just like me." Hiro laughed out loud. "Like you…Shuichi the only thing you ever did that was charming was offer that girl a rose when you were four. She tore it up and threw it at you!"
"HIRO! DON'T BE LIKE THAT! I CAN BE CHARMING!" Shuichi stopped abruptly when he saw Yuki, Wan and Ayaka staring at him. Yuki grinned. "Wow! That was louder than Hikari's scream neh Wan?" Wan nodded looking at his father awed. "Can you teach me to scream that loud daddy?"
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Yuki sniffed and took a tiny sip of the soup. He knew that with Shuichi's cooking you usually had to be careful…he realized that had changed. "Wow…you have started to cook better. This soup is edible."
Shuichi frowned. "YUKI! Don't say that. I was always a good cook…" he stopped when he saw Hiro raise his eyebrows. "Well…not always…I mean. I uh" he stuttered. Fortunately Yuki didn't make anymore of his sarcastic remarks.
Hiro and Ayaka left soon after dinner, claiming they were driving down to Kyoto early the next day to dine with Ayaka's family. Yuki stayed a while longer only because Wan wanted both of the adults to read him a story together…however that was possible. When he dropped of to sleep, they left the room.
Shuichi offered to make some coffee. And they sat down on opposite armchairs drinking it in relative silence. Shuichi sneaked a glance over at the blonde. Yuki was sipping his coffee nonchalantly, but the disappearance of his cheerful side was as evident as a white door in a black painted room. He glanced up meeting Shuichi's eye. "What's the problem?"
"N…nothing." Shuichi wanted to make him smile…he wanted to see that happy gleam in Yuki's eyes again. "Yuki…is everything alright?" the question was so lame.
Yuki looked up again. "Yes. Everything is all right Shuichi. And I know what you want to ask. No I haven't cut myself since that last time alright. Plus it's none of your business."
"It is my business." Shuichi caught himself too late. "I mean your Wan's best friend and well…I'm just worried for him."
Yuki laughed bitterly. "What…first it was your business because you slept with me and now it's your business because I'm Wan's best friend? Or is it really because I slept with you again? Don't set too much store by it…it was a spur of the moment thing."
"Why have you been cutting yourself? And since when?" Shuichi stared at Yuki…stared him down in fact forcing the blonde to look away. "I want to know Yuki…and I'm not the Shuichi I used to be earlier. You're cutting answers when you're trying to avoid a subject wont stop me now."
Yuki looked at him for a while. "You want to know? Alright I'll tell you. I started a month after you left. I didn't do it everyday…just when the pain got too much to bear. Then I got news you were getting married. I'd stopped by then…but I started again. I deal with physical pain better alright."
"Pain?" Shuichi looked at Yuki uncomprehendingly. "Pain, Yuki? You were the one who hurt me! You were the one who said all those hateful thing. You said it was all for the sex! Did you really think that I wouldn't leave you then? Did you really think I'd mope about you after that? I moved on. You should have moved on too!"
"Moved on? I know I shouldn't have said it…this is a lame excuse but I had had a crappy day. I was scared of going bankrupt and you kept on and on nagging me. I was more worried about how I was going to care for the both of us if I went bankrupt…I wouldn't take your money. I wanted you out of my house that day…and you weren't getting out or giving me any peace. I just resorted to the only way I could have chucked you out." Yuki had stood up and gone to a window.
"It wasn't the only way. Why didn't you tell me? We could have sorted it out! No you had to throw that line at me you damn bastard! No one in the world hurt me as much as you did Eiri! What did you think would happen? Did you think I'd go whining to Hiro's house and wait for you to come for me? You pushed me too far!"
"So I did. As for why I cut myself Shuichi…I wanted to make up, you left. I could say the same for you Shuichi…you hurt me more than Kitazawa ever did. Back then you were the only thing that ever mattered to me. I loved you. I screwed up, I hurt and I hurt myself. That's all there is to it. Now with your permission I'm leaving." Yuki picked up his coat and walked out the room. Stopping for a minute he turned around. "Tell Wan, I'm going to be busy for a while. But he can visit me after three days or so, and then I'll have finished work. I've been neglecting it too much."
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Shuichi stared at the closed door. He felt like curling up and crying…just hearing Yuki say that he loved him, made him want to cry. He wondered why for a while, because he didn't regret Nina or Wan. He went into Wan's room and sat down by the bed in the dark. Silent tears coursed down his cheek. Suddenly he felt to small hands holding his. Wan climbed onto his lap. "Don't cry daddy…what happened? Did you get hurt?"
Shuichi looked down at his son and frowned. "Did I wake you?" Wan nodded. "Yeah I woke up when you sat down. What's wrong? Has Yuki gone?" Shuichi nodded. "Nothing Wan. I'm tired." Wan smiled. "Then come sleep next to me daddy. I feel better sleeping next to you when I cry."
Shuichi smiled. No he definitely didn't regret Wan though it had cost him and Yuki a lot of pain. He hugged his son and cuddled up, before dropping of to sleep.
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A/N: I hope this was better. Oh and everyone the cutting will take care of itself now. Yuki only did it when he wasn't happy…and now he is kinda thanks to baby Wan! This fic isn't solely based on cutting. Call me insane if you will, but I don't want to keep focusing on it which is why all explanations are out now. Oh and how many of you approve of Wan?
Taka.
Chapter 7:
Yuki lay on the couch sleeping fitfully.