The mind of Severus Snape was traveling along the same lines. He had hated
James, and his hatred was part of the way he had acted the way he had. But the whole
situation was so much more complicated than that. He had more reason to hate Harry
than Harry knew, than even Dumbledore knew. And that wasn't all. He had secrets,
secrets he did not trust Harry with, things that just knowing one part of would be
dangerous. It was absolutely vital that the Dark Lord not find out, lest he put the pieces
he had together.
Nonetheless, Severus was not comforted. "Well," he thought savagely to himself
"Your precious secrets have cost a boy the closest thing to a father he ever knew!" He got
up of the bed he had been sitting on in the dark, and began to pace the bedroom,
frustrated. He said aloud, "What am I supposed to do?" On impulse he strode across the
room and opened the top drawer in chest of drawers. From inside he took out a
marvelous, beautiful box. It was made of different colored metals, engraved and inlaid
with interlocking patterns of trees, birds, plants, and stars, and depictions of as many of
the so-called mythical creatures of Faery as fit. The center of the lid was inlaid with a
silver oroborous, a single emerald set between the heads and tails of the serpents that met
each other in a diamond.
He lifted the lid of the box. Inside it were his most treasured possessions. A
photograph of his mother smiling up at him, timid and sad. A ring that matched the motif
on the box lid. A wand that would never have fit in the box if it hadn't been enchanted to
fit anything inside it. He pulled it out to get at the last thing in the box. It was nearly two
feet long. The last thing was a framed muggle photograph. The serpent theme was
repeated on the frame, as it was on many things in this house. With a small moan Severus
put the photo into the light of the nearly full moon that came through the nearest window.
He seldom looked at this photo, for much the same reason he hated looking at Potter. It
was painful. Despite that fact that the picture was still, the camera had managed to catch
the subject in a way that suggested she was never still, and showed her temperament. Her
eyes seemed to be laughing at him teasing. He could almost hear her teasing him.
"Severus is afraid!" "I can't" he groaned "it would be disastrous!" He knew what she
would say. "So?" He kicked the wall in annoyance and heard something crunch. It
certainly wasn't the wall.
