Title: Pushing Forward or Pulling Back

Rating: PG 13

Disclaimer: Wish they were mine… alas they are not

Summary: 1st fic… Just trying things out. Is Sara moving on without Grissom? GSR!

More procrastination More Chapters! I hope you all like it so far. I have no idea where I am going with this. Just writing it as it comes.

"Damn it Grissom!" Sara cried into her pillow as she flung herself on the bed. Stupid Sara she scolded herself. You let him hurt you again. You decided to move on with Mark and now you let him into your heart again. But he never really left did he Sara?

"Shut up!" Sara groaned to herself as she rolled over onto her back. She took the pillow and flung it over her face to block the sunlight that was creeping through the curtains.

She got up off the bed and walked in the kitchen to get a glass of water. She sat down on the couch and turned on the TV to get her mind off the current situation. Slowly she drifted off to sleep.

About an hour later Sara awoke startled by a knock on the door. "What now" she grumbled to herself as she got up off the couch. She opened the door to reveal a tired looking…

"Grissom! I thought I told you to leave me alone!" Sara spat angrily. "Or are you just here to put another knife in my heart?"

"Sara. I…"

"NO Grissom! I don't want to hear whatever you're about to say. Just go home and leave me alone!" Sara shouted as she attempted to slam the door in his face.

Grissom stopped the door with his foot and winced as the door came in contact with his shoe, crushing his foot. "Sara please let me explain. I…"

"No Grissom. This ends here and now. Leave now so I can move on!" Sara shouted louder.

"But…"

"No buts Grissom. I…"

Sara was cut off by Grissom barging into her apartment and pushing her body against the wall as he forcefully put his lips on hers. Her lips tasted like sweet mangoes. Much sweeter and better than he imagined in his dreams.

For Sara she couldn't help but give into her senses. The scent of Grissom overwhelmed her as his body pushed harder against her. His lips were soft and warm against her own as his beard scratched and tickled her face lightly.

For a couple brief seconds, she allowed herself to give in until she was snapped back into reality. She forcefully pushed back on Grissom's chest and stammered angrily "What the hell was that Grissom?"

"I don't want this to be over. I think I know what to do with this" Grissom stated quietly, his face still flushed with passion.

"Grissom, that kiss doesn't solve anything. Did you just think that a kiss would resolve anything? Did you expect me to swoon and fall into your arms? Because if it is, you are mistaken. I told you: you're too late. I warned you when I stupidly asked you out to dinner. I also gave you more chances than I should have. I'm not going to play these games anymore."

"Sara, I never expected that kiss to fix all our problems. I needed to come up with a way to make you be quiet for a second, so I could talk" he admitted sheepishly, a grin creeping up his face. "However, that kiss does prove my point that you still have feelings for me and I have feelings for you whether you realize it or not. I really want to try to work out this with you. Please Sara?" he questioned, his pleading eyes looking into hers.

"Grissom. I don't know. This really is not the right time to be talking about this. I need time to think" Sara replied dropping her gaze to the floor.

"Sara, you waited for me for over 10 years. Take all the time you need to think this out. I will wait for you because I lo… care for you so much". Grissom took her hands in his and she lifted her eyes to meet with his.

"Baby steps Grissom. If we do this, we need to take baby steps. This will take time." Sara stated in a whispered tone, her eyes never leaving his.

"Of course Sara. Thank you" he whispered as he dropped a light kiss on her cheek.

Sara closed her eyes at the sensation. "How about we talk over coffee after shift tomorrow?" she suggested.

"Sounds perfect" Grissom replied looking into her brown eyes again. "I should go."

"Yeah, I'll see you at work tomorrow Griss" Sara replied as she dropped her hands out of his grasp. She planted a light kiss on his cheek and watched as he walked down the stairs to his Tahoe.

As she watched him drive away, she heard someone clear their throat down the hallway.

"Mark!" She exclaimed.

"I see everything turned out alright" Mark stated.

"Mark I'm really sorry but"

"You still care for him deeply" Mark finished for her. "I knew it from the start whenever you talked about him when we went out to dinner. I saw the look in your eyes. You obviously love him a lot".

"I really don't know I'm so confused" Sara sighed shaking her head.

"Well I'm sure you two will figure it out".

"Thanks Mark, you're a really amazing person. I'm sure some woman out there is hunting for an awesome guy like you" Sara said giving Mark a gentle hug.

"Best of luck for the both of you" Mark stated as he turned towards his apartment. He stopped just short of his door and turned around to Sara and said "Hey, for what it is worth. He really does love you. You should milk that pent up guilt he has for all it's worth"

Sara chuckled "I'll keep that in mind". She turned back towards her apartment with a smile on her face. So this is what true happiness feels like, she mused as she shut the door.

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