I don't own the yuyu gang though I wish I did, but wishing doesn't mean they'll be mine...Dang only if it did.

Chapter five

...It was Kurama. "What would you like Kurama?" I asked emotionlessly never looking at him. "I wanted to say sorry for bugging you last night...or so you say that's what I was doing." I opened my eyes, and looked at him. "Say what ever makes you feel better, but if you expect me to say sorry about throwing your food at you...then mine you can forget it." I stated getting up, and standing in front of him. He was like a foot taller then me as well. "I didn't expect anything from you...but next time it would be nice if you just say that I'm bothering you instead of throwing things." I nodded, "Okay you're bothering me...did it work?" He smiled and left. I shut my bedroom door, and went back to the bed to mediate.

By the time I quit it was an hour later. I walked out of my room with daggers around my waist. I entered the living room. The girls were there talking with the idiots. Paine wasn't really interested in the stories they were telling, but she still was there as if there was nothing better to do. "Bored Paine?" I asked her. She looked at me, "Good some real fun." I smirked at her comment. "Yes well...I could use some training right now myself. Shall we go?" She stood her sister not exactly wanting to come. "If you don't want to train right now you can be after your sister." She nodded, and went back to talking.

I walked Paine into an area behind the palace. "So why are you here?" She asked me. I looked at her for a moment; I then went to remove my daggers from around my waist. "I was supposed to kill the boys...but didn't." I didn't want to give out more then she needed to hear at the moment. "Why not?" She asked grinning. "Because...My boss had been planning something behind my back; not telling me what he wanted them to die for. But Koenma seemed worried about something so I checked it out." She nodded as I paused. "When I found out I killed him instead for tricking me." She nodded understanding. "These people are giving me a place to stay as long as I help them." I stated looking her in the eyes.

"You remind me of myself when I was your age." I said looking away to see Shadow feeding. "Maybe...What are you goin' to teach me?" She asked getting my attention. "I'm guessing your powers work only with your emotion.If you feel angry then you might conjure fire. Or that's one way for me." She nodded, "So you want me to get angry?" I nodded. "Think of something that makes you furious." She nodded, and began to think.

About three seconds later black flames crawled over her skin as her hair blew away from her face. "I'm goin' to stand over there," I said pointing about thirty feet away from her, "I want you to hit me." She looked at me like I was crazy. "You're mad! I'm not goin' to hit you!" She said. "Yes you are, and no weak shit either. I'm more then capable of blocking it." She nodded. I then ran to where I said I would be, and waited for her to throw a fire ball at me. A fire ball came flying at me. I caught it as another came. I sent that one flying off somewhere as I destroyed the one in my hand. "Is that all you got?" I asked screaming. She started to get a little bit more upset. She began just throwing fire balls at me. I blocked them all, and sent one of my own at her. It hit her dead making her go flying into a tree.

I walked over to her to see if she was alright, really not caring if she lived or died. She was fine. "Get up...time to learn how to block." She nodded, and did as I said.

By the time we finished she knew how to block on coming fire balls, conjure fire, make fire balls, and she hit me once. I hadn't seen that one coming. "Go get your sister." She nodded, and ran inside. "You trained her well today." I looked back to see Shadow. "I'm guessing that's good right?" He smiled at me, and nodded. "I would have to say yes. It took you a week just to block someone's fire ball when you were training. But then again they didn't take it easy on you." I nodded, and turned to see Paine running back to me. "They're eating." I wasn't really happy Paige was eating before training, but she would have to see what comes from it. "Tell her to come out as soon as she's done." Paine nodded, and ran off again.

"Though she does remind me of you." I looked at Shadow then rolled my eyes. "She looks somewhat like me, but she has a soul...she can feel more then I can. She cares." I said walking towards the woods with Shadow following me. I claimed up a tree, and sat on the highest branch. Shadow stayed on the ground.

"So...if you want Koenma could take the curse off you." I lend against the trunk of the tree resting from the training. "I told you who knows how many times now...I don't see it as a curse! It's my gift." Shadow looked at me and shook his head. "Fine he can take this 'gift' away for you so you can feel." I looked at him, "Why would you want to feel? I've seen how people with souls are...they get hurt easily, and they get broken hearts...whatever that is. Who wants to feel sad? Or cry because someone close to them died?" I asked Shadow deciding to lie on my stomach.

"Some people like to feel such things." I rolled my eyes. I wasn't going to be able to rest if Shadow was here. I jumped down to the ground, and stood there in front of him. "You don't get it. If I let Koenma take my gift away I might just go crazy from these what you call emotions. I don't want to feel anything...I don't even want to feel what I do. So can ya give it a rest?" I asked him. "It's just I don't want a friend of mine to always feel anger and resentment. Everyone deserves to feel happy." I rolled my eyes. "Here we go again with you wanting me to feel 'happy'! Except the way I am, and be done with this!" I shouted at him.

"Trust me you won't go crazy from emotions, maybe feel a little bad for what you've done, but what's so bad about that?" I walked away from Shadow, "You always do this! You never leave me alone about the way I am!"

Shadow got in front of me. "Feeling things is what makes a life worth living." I slapped Shadow in the face making him look away from me, "Not for me! I accepted you for the way you are...I thought you accepted me, but I guess I was wrong wasn't I?" I then stormed off in the other direction.

I climbed up a tree thinking that would be the last I hear about it, but I found out later on that it wouldn't be.

I went back to where I was training the girls to find Paige waiting for me. "How long have you been here?" I asked her. "Just a couple of minutes. Shall we get started?" She asked me in a perky way. "Yeah like your sister we'll start with conjuring fire." She nodded. It took her five minutes. "Try hating something...your powers are linked to your emotions." She nodded and tried hating things, but that still didn't work. I sighed, "Try it the other way around then...try to be happy." She did that, and this time it worked. "You finally got it after half an hour...okay..." She cut me off, "Hey be happy! I mean at least I did it!" I looked at her like where have you been. "Girl...where were you when I said I don't have a soul?" I asked her cruelly. "Well you need one. Having fun, and being happy makes living a lot better then being bitter."

I sighed slowly, "Oh well...get over it! Try to form a fire ball." I told her. She didn't listen. "Look little girl, if you don't work with me you can find someone else to help you! I don't care if this world explodes out from under me or not; all that means to me is my life is done with, and trust me that just helps me out a bit. Now do as I say or go talk to Koenma to find you a different trainer." She didn't really like that. She stormed off to talk to Koenma that is after she called me heartless. "Thanks." I whispered after she was far enough to where she couldn't hear it.

I walked into the palace, and into my room. I went out on to the balcony, and watched as the sun set. The colors spread across the sky reminding me how cold I was. I didn't care...I was like the night cold and distant to any thing. You could feel the chill of the night, and fear it; but you could never bring warmth to it.

There was a knock at my door. "Who is it?" I asked emotionlessly. "It's me Paige." I turned to find her in my door way. "What do you want little girl? To tell me things I already knew?" I asked her harshly. "I probably deserve that. Look I'm sorry...I know you don't feel anything but what you do...but...never mind, but I'm sorry." I turned back to the sky. "I don't need your pathetic excuses, or pity. Koenma told you what happened to me...who cares the past is the past you can't turn back time, and you sure as hell can't fix anything." Paige came up to my left side. "You left these out there." She said holding my blades. I took them from her, "Get away from me." She nodded, and walked out of my room.

I walked into my room, and over to a dark corner as soon as dusk came. "Another day of being hounded." I said yawning. I lend into the corner, and fell a sleep.

The next morning I found myself in the bed with Shadow beside me. His arm was around my waist holding me to him. I was facing him lying on my side. I didn't like this. "Shadow." I tried to wake him up that didn't work. So I was laying there for five more minutes when I heard a knock at the door. "Phoenix, you up?" I sighed, "Yeah I'm up." I said calming myself before I tried burning the hell out of Shadow. "When do you plan on training us today?" It was Paige. "Be ready about noon." She said okay. That gave me at least a hour to get Shadow up, get dressed, and eat.

Well Shadow soon after that decided to join the world of the living. "Hey do you think you can let go of me now?" I asked him. "Yeah sorry about that. You were lying in the floor, and you were very cold. I mean icy cold." I nodded, "Well I didn't sleep with a blanket."

He let go of me, and I went to take a shower after I told him 'not to come in'. Once done cleaning myself I got dressed, and walked into the living room. Shadow was blushing when I came into the room. I rolled my eyes, and looked at the time. "Okay guess I won't get to eat...come on Paige...Paine." They nodded, and walked out the door me following behind them.

WE went where we went yesterday, and began to train.

(Yusuke's pov)

Shadow just went red when Phoenix came into the room. Once she left I actually asked what was up with him. "Last night I found Phoenix in the floor in a dark corner where she would usually be, but she was icy cold..." I cut him off, "So what does this have to do with you blushing when she walks into the room?" I asked. "Because I put her in the bed with me to make sure she would get warm. She isn't usually that cold unless she's sick, or she might die. I woke up to find I had wrapped my arm around her pretty much making sure she wouldn't get out of the bed." I looked at him like way to go.

"So what's wrong with that...doesn't she like you?" He rolled his eyes, "We're only friends...and she was trying to get out of my grip." I nodded understanding now why that would be embarrassing. "Ouch...so she actually has a friend...dang." Shadow looked at me cruelly, "I wouldn't say things like that around me or her." I nodded. "It's just she doesn't open up...she doesn't even know how to be happy." Shadow nodded, "Hey as long as she doesn't hate you you're clear." He stated standing up, and leaving the room.

(My pov)

I finished training the girls two hours later. Paige caught up with her sister, and the found out how to surround their enemy in fire. Yusuke came running up to us. "Could they take a break?" Yusuke asked out of breathe. The girls looked at me, and I nodded. "Have fun, or what ever you do." I said. The girls ran off to the palace. Yusuke walked back with me. "So you a Shadow aren't goin' out?"

I shook my head, "No one can love one with out a soul." I stated. "Whatever...I heard about what happened this morning." I looked at him weird, "You mean Shadow told you what I woke up to find?" He nodded. "He should've never even taken me out of my corner." I said as my head began to spin. "Why? I mean he said you were icy cold...you could be sick." I shrugged, "And what if I am...who cares? You guys only see me as a killer...if I die that's one less killer you have to worry about." I stated. Yusuke shrugged, "Still...you're the one training them...and from what I hear the only one who knows how, so you are important." I shrugged.

I walked into the living room, and found Shadow and Kurama talking. Paine and Paige were playing a game. "Hey Phoenix want to play?" I shook my head. A girl then walked in, and screamed. She had light blue hair and pink eyes. She was wearing a pink t-shirt, and blue jeans; she was the type of girl who would be scared of my appearance...

Cliffhanger...if you don't know who it is you're goin' to kick your own ass when you find out...oh well I really would like some more reviews. I'm goin' to wait till I get at least five before I put up the next chapter. Hope you enjoyed it. Pixie