Title: Pushing Forward or Pulling Back

Rating: PG 13

Disclaimer: Wish they were mine… alas they are not

Summary: 1st fic… Just trying things out. Is Sara moving on without Grissom? GSR!

Sara's phone vibrated at her hip. She smiled when she read the caller id and flipped the phone open. "Sidle" she spoke into the phone.

"Hey it's me" the low baritone voice of Grissom replied on the other end of the line.

"What's up?" Sara spoke lightly into the phone.

"I have some bad news" Grissom sighed.

"I really don't like where this is going" Sara replied worriedly as thoughts of Grissom backing out raced through her head.

"No, it's not like that" Grissom tried to ease her fears "I'm afraid I do have to cancel our plans after shift. Conrad cornered me and passed along a message from the Sheriff that I have an important meeting with him this morning to discuss the McLaren case"

"Oh" Sara replied quietly into the phone. Even though his reasoning did sound sincere, Sara could not get rid of the feeling that he was pushing her away yet again.

"However" Grissom continued, his voice becoming more elated "I did some rearranging and since you have been working so much overtime, I gave you next shift off. And since I also have the next shift off, I was wondering if we could change that breakfast into a nice dinner?"

"Sure" Sara breathed a sigh of relief. "Dinner would be great"

"I want you to know that I'm very serious about this. I want to make this work because I care so much about you. I can't back out now"

"You can if you want" Sara replied "Because if you are not in this 'relationship' fully, I won't be able to handle the rejection again"

"The thing is Sara, I don't want to back out. I want to have dinner and see what happens, and hopefully I won't be too late" Grissom spoke gently into the phone.

"You could never be too late"

"So, I have to go to that meeting. See you tonight at 7?"

"7 would be great. Bye"

"Bye" Grissom replied and waited for the phone to click shut before he shut his own. 7 o'clock tonight he thought I need to show her just how much she means to me.

7:00

"Shit!" Sara exclaimed as she heard the knock on the door At 7:00 on the dot. She overslept a little bit after getting home at noon from a long shift of dead bodies and paperwork. The little red dress finally came out of the back of her closet and hugged her small frame as she hopped towards the door trying to buckle the tiny straps of her high heeled sandals. After successfully buckling the straps, she checked her hair and makeup in the mirror and opened the door to reveal her date.

"Hey Griss" she stammered when the door opened. He looked amazing in a dark grey suit with a deep blue shirt on underneath. His tie that was a slightly lighter shade of blue was almost the exact color of his eyes, and Sara felt like she could never tire of looking at his eyes. She also noticed that his eyes looked happy, not tired, like the way they looked at work. When she finally tore her eyes away from him she realized that he was holding out the most beautiful and colorful bouquet of wildflowers.

Grissom on the other hand was too memorized to even move. The minute she opened the door, he was blown away. Sara looked so beautiful in the red dress. The straps wrapped around the top of her arms leaving her shoulders and collar bones bare. The dress hugged her every curve stopping just above her knees. The sandals that she wore made her legs seem like they went on forever. Grissom was lost in her beauty until he heard Sara say:

"Are those for me?"

"Oh!" Grissom stammered breaking out of his trance "Yes they are. You look amazing Sara, really beautiful"

"Thank you" Sara blushed as she accepted the flowers from his grasp. "You clean up really well Grissom"

"Shall we?" Grissom asked as he offered her his arm.

"Yup, I'm ready"

The date went wonderful. A nice quiet dinner together at a restaurant that had many vegetarian options, which warmed Sara's heart because she loved the fact that Grissom did remember. She loved how he blushed when she asked him how he knew about this place, and he replied he did "a little research".

After dinner they took a little walk in the gardens that were in the back of the restaurant. Conversation came easy for them. They discussed some cases and bonded over their favorite painters and writers.

They arrived back at Sara's apartment and Grissom walked her to the door. Their light conversation stopped as they reached her apartment, and the tension level got much higher.

"So, would you like to come in for coffee?" Sara asked timidly.

"I don't know" Grissom blurted out before his mind could stop him.

"You don't know?" Sara questioned furrowing her brow.

"What I mean is" Grissom stammered "If I come in, I might not be able to control myself"

When he saw her questioning gaze he continued: "You are amazing Sara. You look so beautiful tonight and everyday that I have laid my eyes on you. You are the one person in this world that I want to share my whole world with. I… I love you and care about you so much and if I come in, and if I kiss you I won't be able to… stop showing you how much I love you" Grissom finished looking into her watering eyes as he finally pulled her into a hug.

Sara laid her head onto his chest and heard his heartbeat. Grissom heard her murmur something into his chest, but he couldn't make it out.

Sara pulled back from his embrace and repeated "Show me"

When she saw his confused expression she repeated "I love you too. Show me how much you love me. I want to show you how much I love you…Gil"

With that she took his hand and led him inside her apartment. As she closed the door and both of their eyes locked. A silent commitment was made that the mystery about what to do about this would finally be resolved.

Fin

Hope you guys liked it… I'm thinking about writing a new story soon!

Please review… any helpful tips or criticisms would be great for this first time writer!