Chapter 8(I don't own any of the yuyu gang, but all the others like Phoenix and Paine. I thank all the people who reviewed my story and I hope you continue. Ummm...sorry it took so long the dreaded writer's block got me, but it's gone now of course. Hope you like the chapter.)
I opened the door to see Botan. "I heard you have a date with Kurama tomorrow." I shrugged, "Word gets around fast here doesn't it?" She smiled and nodded. Her smile became wider when I realized what she was here to do. "I'm not going..." She wouldn't let me finish as she jerked me out of my room. She dragged me out in to the living room area where two other girls were standing. "Keiko, Yukina." I greeted them. They said hi of course. "We all heard that you got a date." I nodded blushing a bit. "Okay so we all know...you need some nice clothes to wear." I glared at her. "Okay nice girl clothes...does that help?" I glared at her even more. "Let's just get this over with, or I'm going to get really pissed." They nodded as a portal appeared. Today was Wednesday so I was happy about one thing.
When we got to the Mall the girls dragged me into a store called Jcpennys. I was dragged into a dressing room, and guarded so I wouldn't run off. Soon they brought fifteen different dresses in. "Try them all on even the pink one." I rolled my eyes.
Well by the end of me trying on the dresses I liked the white, black, and red one. The white one came up mid thigh. The red one went right above my knees, and the black one went to my ankles. I didn't try the pink one on. I opened the door to see the girls. "So which ones do you like?" They all had seen me in most of the dresses.
I handed them the ones I did like, and looked at them. "Are we done?" Keiko shook her head. "You need some more clothing do you not?" I nodded, "But I don't like your bright bright clothing." I stated trying not to run from them. "Okay but you have to at least have a few bright colors then you can pick dark colored clothing." I agreed to that. Well we went to some other stores, and I got a bag full. I had picked out a silver shirt, a dark blue shirt that had a care bear on it saying I needed a hug (Keiko's idea.). I got a light forest green shirt with a dark red broken heart on it that said "You break it you buy it." Which said enough for me. I had found a bright red tee that said "I hate you." Which there was a lot of people I hated at the moment. And the last tee I bought was another bright red tee that said "heart breaker.", and had a heart in chains with a dagger through it. The girls had found a couple of skirts that I liked. Nothing special just black, white, silver, and blue jean skirts.
"Now can we go to a store with dark colors?" Keiko nodded with Botan. Yukina was standing beside me. I carried the bag from the last store while Botan carried the bag that held the dresses thinking I would just throw them a way if she let me carry them. I didn't like dresses. Anyways I took them into Hot Topic, and started looking around. I found three skirts I could deal with. One that was called a Lip Service Mesh and Lace Pleated Layer Skirt, another one called Tripp Rubber Trim Zip off Skirt. They were cool. Of course they were black. Another was called Morbid Threads Jagged Hem Skirt. I just couldn't help but like that skirt. It came just slightly above my knees where I could still fight, but was dark and elegant in another way.
I was wondering how we were going to pay for the stuff in here. I had already spent my money on the other stuff.
Botan told me to get a few dresses from here which I could really deal with. So I grabbed a burgundy dress with black bows on it. It came above my knees, and had short sleeves, so of course I liked that. I grabbed a black dress that had pink seams which I didn't mind all that much. Now if it was just all pink like that one dress Botan wanted me to wear I would've torn it to pieces.
I grabbed me a few chokers, and a few studded belts. A couple of bracelets...some intimates (Such as underwear.) It wasn't for anyone at all. I just need some new clothing in that department as well. Botan was asking me questions about that which made me blush when she started saying things like it's for Kurama, and other nonsense. "I just need new clothing in this department as well okay!" After I exploded she got a little quiet. I had always liked corsets so I got a couple of those. I got three other shirts, but ended there. One shirt said "I'm bad with names so can I just call you dumb$$." Another said "You laugh now but will you be laughing when I crawl out from under you bed?" I thought that one would get the idiot scared. The last one said "Do you hear that? That's the sound of no one caring."
Once I finished picking things out I walked over to Botan. "How are we going to pay for this?" I asked her looking at my new clothes. "You paid for your other clothing...but now..." She pulled out a credit card, "Koenma is going to pay." I giggled at that. "How do you have his credit card?" I asked her. "He let's me carry it around for when I need it, and right now I need it." We laughed at that as Yukina and Keiko came up to us. "Done?" I nodded.
We paid for the stuff, and decided to go to one more store to buy me a cd player, and a radio. They also let me pick out a couple of cds after that we decided to head back. But before we did I realized something. "How do you make it up to Hiei? I don't need him trying to kill me in my sleep." Botan looked at me a little weird. "Okay...what did you do make him angry?" I nodded. "Okay then let's go get some ice cream." I nodded, and followed the girls. We bought ten different kinds of ice cream. Chocolate...one for me and one for Hiei, rocky road for Botan. Keiko got vanilla; Yukina got bubble gum flavored ice cream. I got Kurama vanilla chocolate swirl, Yusuke cookie dough, and cream. I let Yukina pick the last few so I don't know what else we got.
By the time we got back it was dark. "We brought gifts for each one of you." I stated smiling taking the ice cream to the kitchen, and placing mine in the freezer. "We kind of gifts?" I heard Yusuke ask. "Ice cream." Keiko stated happily getting hers, and Yusuke's. She took his to him, and sat down with two spoons one for him, and one for her. I grabbed Hiei's and a spoon. I took it to him, and loved the look I got. He wanted to glare, but he didn't want to make me angry because I would take his ice cream away. I held it away from him, "Can I have a thank you?" I asked him amused. He went to grab it, but I smacked his hand with the spoon. "I'm not like others...I want a thank you, or I could just take it away." I heard a giggle come from Botan, but kept my eyes on Hiei.
He growled at me. "Fine I'll just make sure you don't get any at all." I was about to turn and walk away, but he stopped me by mumbling something. "What did you say?" I asked slyly looking over my shoulder. "I said thank you Baka!" I turned smirking. "Here you can have it now." I handed it to Hiei.
I gave him the spoon, and he soon started digging away at it. I went back into the kitchen, and got Kurama's ice cream, and spoon. I went back, and gave it to him. "Thank you Phoenix." I bowed my head, and walked out the door. Tonight was the last night of the blood harvest, and I wanted to at least be in it. I ran into the woods, and hid in a tree. I heard a few howls in the distance.
I howled back getting its attention. I heard footsteps coming my way, and waited. Kurama then came into my site. He howled in a way. I smiled. Is he trying to find me, or hunt? I quickly started crawling a long the branch to get on another tree. "Phoenix is that you?" He seemed calm, but I wondered if he was acting. I gave another howl, and hid in the shadows. "Phoenix come out." I smiled to my self. I howled again, but heard more foot steps coming my way; one of a foxes. A fox...sly, but not to sly for me...meal time! I looked at the ground in front of me, and didn't see a fox. I looked around, but only saw a man with silver hair, and ears. Fox ears, and a bushy fox tail. I noticed everything was silver; besides his clothing which was white. His eyes were a golden looking hazel color.
"Come out, come out where ever you are." I smirked at this guy. But I wondered where Kurama went. In the past few days I just forgot about the file on the gang. I decided to just forget it. I wasn't going to kill them, so why try and know everything about them. I gave off an owl call. I noticed he looked around trying to see where it came from. He held a smirk on his face. He was very calm. "I guess I'm the seeker then." I smirked; He's trying to beat me at my own game...what a fool. I climbed up the tree quietly, and sat on another branch, and made the owl call again. "I guess a girl with wings would hide in the trees." I heard, and felt him jump on to the tree I was on. I jumped to another tree stealth like. I stayed quiet this time. "Where did the little birdie go?" I smirked happy with this little game, but I really wanted to know who this guy was.
"Could she be hiding in another tree?" I felt the cold of the wind hit my body. Damn tank top...I should have put a black one on. I heard leaves rustling over head, so of course I looked up. "Hi down there." I started to feel really cold. "You okay Phoenix?" I got a weird look on my face, "How do you know my name?" He smiled, "You don't remember the files...I'm Youko Kurama...I share the body with Kurama." I gave a signal nod. "Oh and thanks for the little game it was fun." I smiled saying that.
I jumped out of the tree, and walked around with my hands in my pockets. I heard him behind me. "So why are you out here?" I smirked at his question. "I would ask you the same thing...but if you must know I'm hunting." He walked up beside me, "May I join you?" I nodded, "But don't get in my way." He nodded. I jumped back into a tree after hearing a wolf howl. He followed me. I howled back, and soon heard footsteps. I examined the wolf beneath us. Silverish-white fir, looked like he was most likely about a year old, seemed to be an alpha male. I howled at him again. He looked around confused, but stayed steady. I jumped down at him, and looked it in the eyes. He started growling at me, but switched to a different form; one that looked half wolf half human. "Ah, a wolf demon...care to play?" I heard Youko land behind me. "What are you doing...this is a hunting season." I looked from the wolf demon in front of me to Youko.
"This may be a hunting season, but if you haven't noticed I'm not really an animal like you. If I have to I'll feed off animals. Not unless I need to though. Usually I just play around with them during the hunting season...weird isn't it?" He nodded smirking. "I'll explain fully later...if you want to find someone to play with go find someone." I looked back at the demon in front of me. He was angry because I called him here for this. But my playing didn't consist of child's play, but of games assassins played. It consisted of playing with your victims mind, and killing it. "I'll give you to the count of...fifteen to run before the game begins." I said smiling evilly.
I turned from him, and looked at Youko. He saw my smile and started to wonder what I was up to. "One...two..." I heard him running. "Three...four...five...I'm bored fifteen." I whispered. I then turned around, and show him about thirty yards from me. "Killer." I raised my hands, and let a ball of fire come out. It went after him, and let's just say he was well done.
I turned and looked at Youko who nodded in approval. "I'm going back now...you coming, or just going to stand there?" I asked him coldly. He walked over to me, and wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me to him. "What is with you?" I asked him calmly. "I and Kurama have been wanting to do this for a while." He whispered to me. After that as confusion took over me he leaned down, and gave me a soft kiss. I was so shocked I couldn't do anything, and my blood began to boil. When he pulled away from me I was breathless and so confused as to way he did that. I searched his eyes but found nothing but calmness. An eerie calmness that made a shiver work its way down my spine. I pushed myself away from him growling. "Stay away from me." I said backing away from him. "And if I say no?" I glared at him, but ended up tripping up over an uncovered root. I landed on my back, but sat up on my elbows to see a Youko kneeling beside me. "Are you okay?" My eyes were wide at how close I had just made our faces by sitting up.
We were so close I could feel his breathe. "I'm fine." I whispered weakly. "You're in heat...no wonder you've been acting weird. Kurama said you were just upset, but this explains it." I looked away from Youko, "Just leave me alone."
"No...You need a mate or other demons will soon be chasing you around." I rolled my eyes, "Good I can kill them then. I don't need a..." I couldn't finish what I was going because Youko kissed me roughly. He climbed on top of me exciting the both of us, but I soon snapped out of it. I punched him, and threw him off me.
I flipped back wards to where I was standing. I wiped my mouth with the back of my fist. I glared at Youko as I spit on the ground, and walked past him. "DO that again, and both you and Kurama will be dead." I stated. I then let my wings out, and flew back to the palace. I walked in, and grabbed my shopping bags (there were only three bags. Which Botan and the other girls had more then she did.)
"Hey you want to watch a movie with us?" I glared at Yusuke, "Not now!" I then stormed to my room. I laid my things on the bed. I walked over to my window and looked out. The moon was absolutely beautiful, and I couldn't help but look up at it and smile. I then turned from it, and began to put my things away. I hadn't even noticed my room until Shadow came up behind me, and hugged me. "Have you even noticed what I've done?" I looked at him from over my shoulder. I then turned my attention to my room.
The walls were painted a deep blood red, and the ceiling was painted black with silver swirls dancing around. "Swirls?" He laughed, "Dancing comets...I now how you like shooting stars, and comet showers. So I brought the crying heavens to you." I then realized there was a full moon in the middle of the ceiling. "Of course now I see. To make me remember sleeping out doors, and the blood red to show me what my life consisted of." I looked at the floor, and noticed he even changed the color of the carpeting.
I took my shoes, and socks off. I put them in a corner, and noticed how soft the carpeting was. Starry night black carpeting in a shaggy material. Everything was painted blood red, black, or silver. I loved it. I turned to Shadow, and gave him a big hug. "Thank you so much!" I said happily. He seemed shocked, and was tense so I let go of him. But he just pulled me into another hug. "I'm glad you like it." He whispered to me.
He soon left so I could unpack my things. I could only look around the room for a couple of minutes awed. I then snapped out of it, and began to unpack my things. Amazing what some people will do for others. I thought. I put my radio one my dresser along with my some collection of ten cds. I unwrapped one, and popped it into the radio/cd player. Keiko had insisted for me to get the cd from T.A.T.U. She said it was really good so I did.
I put on this one song Clowns (Can you see me now?). I liked the beat, and began to sing with it. "Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Can you see
All this weeping in the air
Who can tell where it will fall?
Through floating forests in the air
'Cross the rolling open sea
Blow a kiss, I run through air
Leave the past, find nowhere
Floating forests in the air
Clowns all around you
Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear
All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Floating forests in the air
Clowns all around you
Can you see
Can you see
Can you see
Can you see me now?
See me here in the air
Not holding on to anywhere
But holding on so beware
I have secrets I won't share
See me here wishing you
If I then deny I do
Contemplate or wish away
If I ask you not to stay
Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear
All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now
Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Clowns all around you
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?
Can you see?
Can you see?
Can you see me now?" I reached every high note with ease as I put my clothes away even the ones I brought with me. I loved the song, and as the others came I sang them as well. I thought it was good enough to listen to for a while so I could chill for a little bit. The next song came up and was called 30 minutes, and I first listened to it. I felt a couple of tears roll from my eyes wondering about everything. I had never been in love, or felt sadness and already after giving it a chance like Shadow told me I loved it. But I was sad...my parents abandoned me, and they are all I've ever wanted. I wanted my family...I wanted them with me ever since I was little, but of course I never showed it. And here I was done unpacking my things into my dresser at the window looking up at the stars, and moon wondering if they were looking up at the same night sky at the same moment wanting to see me just as much I wanted to see them. I walked back over to my dresser and replayed the song, and sang with it this time. "Mama, Papa,
Forgive me.
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of time
To decide
Do we run?
Should I hide?
For the rest
Of my life?
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose,
We could fail.
In the moment
It takes,
To make plans
Or mistakes
30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes to alter our lives
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide
30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shoulder the blame
30 minutes of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes to finally decide...
Carousels
In the sky
That we shape
With our eyes
Under shade
Silhouettes
Casting shame
Crying rain
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose,
We could fail.
Either way
Options change
Chances fail,
Trains derail.
30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes to alter our lives
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide
30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shoulder the blame
30 minutes of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes to finally decide." I couldn't help but stop after that. I had walked over to the window while the song had started, and watched the night sky again. My voice never showed a hint of sadness, but my face betrayed me. Little did I know someone was standing at my door listening. I sat down on the window sill and leaned my head against the window letting the tears follow as dry sobs escaped from me. I heard footsteps coming towards me so I looked up to see Paige there. She came over to me, and knelt in front of me looking into my eyes the whole time.
She wiped my tears away kindly giving me a weak smile. "Are you okay Phoenix?" I looked back to the sky to see the moon behind clouds. I looked down at the ground to see Youko looking up at me with hurt in his eyes. He then changed back into Kurama, and walked into the back door. I looked back at Paige, "I'll be fine...I'm just a little upset." She nodded, "Why are you upset?" I looked back to the sky. I didn't look at her as I said it. "Ever since I found out that my Parents abandoned me I've wanted know who they were...and why they abandoned me. I could never understand why. I've just wanted to find them, and know their names at the least. The song...it reminded me of my questions that I wanted to know for so long. It just hurts so bad to know they left me...to know they didn't care." Tears trailed down my face more, and I could feel a knot form in my throat. I wanted to scream, and bang on something it hurt so bad to know things like this.
This is the reason I didn't want a soul. This is why I hate them. They didn't need to mess with the way I was. My lack of a soul held this in, and helped me over the years. I thought as I balled up my fist, and just barely hit it. I wasn't punching the window, but kinda slapping it with the bottom of my fist.
"Could you leave us Paige?" I didn't look to see who it was, but I heard Paige say yes. Use this! Harvest the anger and hurt, and put it to good use. I thought to myself trying to calm down. I felt a hand on my shoulder, but I never looked at the person; just staying in my thoughts. "I'm sorry if...Youko caused this." I waved a hand at that. "I don't hear such non-sense...I was just thinking." I looked up at him to see worry on his face. "I'm fine...just sudden wonderment..." I was going to say more, but Kurama put a finger to my lips. "I'm still sorry about what happened." I looked away from him back to the window as rain started to pour down.
"I had just wondered ever since I was little if my parents ever thought about me...ever loved me...ya know? It hurts because I never had any...hearing stories about them just leaving me in the snow on Yuki's steps." I stated as more tears trailed down my face. "It must have been hard." I nodded, "You would never know...I've often wondered if I was even loved before it all happened, or was I hated. I just want to see them for once in my life."
Kurama sat down beside of me, but I got up going to a corner. I wrapped my arms around myself leaning into the corner for comfort. "I often wondered why...why I had to be this way...why everything some how turned against me. Why I was abandoned, but no answer comes to me. I'm alone...and even with people around I will always be alone. It doesn't matter if I have a soul, or not! It matters if I...if I can control them. So many emotions crowd me, and it's like I'm in over my head." I stated looking at the floor. "You're never alone. There is always a person worse off then you." I looked up at Kurama. "Oh really? Oh because they don't have a soul? Because they think they've been beaten up pretty bad? No...No one has been through worse then I have...I was Yuki's favorite assassin! Only the most powerful were, but the thing is I was special...SO I had to be tamed like an animal, but as you could see it only lasted for so long." I stated angrily.
"Well you can't really say there is no one who has worse then you unless you interview every person on the planet." I smirked at his comment. "How bad was your past sir? Did you get beat to a bloody pulp almost three times a month for almost three years?" He gave me a look that made me grinned. "No...I have Youko Kurama in me...and a couple hundred years ago he died, and became part of me." I nodded, "Ah, of course...the thief." I walked over to my radio, and switched cds. I put an Avril Lavigne cd in. Nobody's home came on right away. "Okay...I guess I get to tell you a little story don't I?" I asked not really wanting an answer. "I guess you will." I gave a signal nod, "Yeah...okay close your eyes and imagine." He did as I said. "The first thing I can remember is when I was seven I met Shadow, and he stayed close by me no matter Yuki's orders. But one day when I was ten he had to stay back in chains with Yuki. Shadow was a bit over protective of me, and didn't want me to carry out my mission on stealing something...kill anything in the way type of thing. Okay so I go there and do that...but the thing was it was my birthday, and I wasn't supposed to be out on my birthday. Shadow had warned Yuki, but hadn't cared. I remember a new power one I couldn't control right then. Every one of my thoughts made the power go to the extreme so I ended up killing an entire village. Children called me a monster, and that's how Hell's Phoenix started." I said sadly.
"SO no one would come around me...unless they were cocky, or stupid enough to try. I've ended up almost dying at least four times already. I've put humans in commas just by barely blasting them so I could get away to please the one man who took me in." The memories of such torture went my mind. "But it was never good enough till I was sixteen when things like this started happening. He bugged me about me being his...and wanting me in other ways. One time I had told him that I would take him to hell and back, but he had my mouth tamed somewhat till I turned twenty where I told him if he tried anything I would make sure he never could have children...let's just say it worked more then the hell and back comment did." Kurama smiled at that as I smirked at the memory of Yuki's face. "I so wished I had a camera then...it would have been the best picture. I wonder when that Amaya person is going to send another attack." I said thinking off. I then turned and walked out of my room.
I was supposed to be training not talking with some guy. "Where are you going?" Kurama called after me. "Training." Short simple to the point. I ran down the hallway, and to the back door. I opened it and saw how bad of a rain this was. It was like a monsoon lighting every where, and the gusts of wind enough to knock someone down. "Perfect." I walked out into the storm with some screaming are you crazy! It was the perfect way to train with balance, and it could help when I need it most.
The rain was ice cold, but I fought it. I got in the arena they had, and got in my fighting stance. I went through all my fighting 'moves' in a nice slow pace to keep balance. Life is for the strong...I am strong. I am the hunter not a huntee. Life is for the strong I am the predator, and my enemy is the prey. I repeated this in my mind every time I trained, and it helped keep me wanting to do better. To show I wasn't someone you could predict.
The rain fell harder, and I heard soft footsteps on the wet grass. I stopped and turned to see Kurama. "What do you need?" I asked him calmly as I resumed training myself. "You shouldn't be out here in this!" He said trying to make sure I could hear him over the rain. "Actually all of you should. It teaches you how to stay balanced." I stated not making eye contact with him.
"Please come inside...we don't need you sick." I looked at him so abruptly I fell. I got up, and rubbed the back of my head which hit the ground. "Thanks for that...and I don't really get sick." I stated standing in front of him looking into his emerald green eyes. "Still we all would like you inside." I shook my head causing my hair to slap me in the face. "I'm training right now...when I'm done I'll come in." I said and backed away from him. "Life isn't all about fighting...and blood, or killing! You need to do different things!" I got a shocked look on my face.
"Killing is the only thing I really know, but the thing is...is I'm just training for the one who wants the girls." I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I let this woman, Amaya just take them. I have to be ready for anything and everything...what am I thinking! I can't get attached to them; I'm nothing but a trainer to them.
"You're not the only one who wants to protect them, but you must come inside." "Who said I wanted to protect them...I'm just doing it to save the worlds." I said as cold as the rain was on my bare skin. "I have a feeling there's more to it then that...but please they're worried about you." I sighed defeated, "There's no shaking you is there?" He shook his head smiling. "Okay...I'll come in." I then began to walk towards the palace slowly. Kurama walked beside me. It seemed like every few minutes before we got to the palace I could feel his eyes on me, but when I looked at him he was just looking ahead of us.
I must be cracking now...of all the times to crack. I thought to my self as we reached the door. I opened it and walked in Kurama behind me. "God you're so crazy!" I looked at the twins smirked giving them a signal nodded. "I know I am...but storms like this test your balance." I stated, "Now I'll get changed then join you guys." I said walking to my room.
When I walked in to my dark you I saw a pair of red eyes staring at me. A flash of lighting showed me in a split second what she looked like. She had high cheek bones, a small slender nose, and a pale tan skin color. Black onyx hair that fell to the middle of her back, pale pink lips, and her ears came to a point like elves ears. Her ears were pierced about three times on, besides on piercing at the top of her left ear. She seemed pissed, and was wearing black tight leather jeans with a blood red corset.
When the light left us all I could see was her eyes again. "May I help you?" I asked coldly. "Hand over the girls." I shook my head, "No way...who are you?" I asked. "My name is Amaya." My eyes got wide and she began to laugh softly. "DO you know when you're calm your eyes are red like mine, but when you show emotion it all changes?" I collected myself, "Of course I would know...Amaya...uh...I would've thought you to look very different the way Koenma went on about it." She nodded, "Well I don't have to be white to be an ice demon." I nodded at that. I didn't know what to really do next besides end the fight, and one hadn't even started.
"So Phoenix how have you been?" She asked sweetly. "Fine, but why would you like to know?" I asked a bit shocked. "I am your Mother can't I ask if I want?" My eyes got really wide at this. "You can't be my Mother." I said softly looking at the ground. I heard her take a step towards me. "I am your Mother..." I looked up at her snarling. "You can't be my Mother because my Mother isn't a pure demon. I have four parts to me two from each parent." I stated about to scream. "Damn I actually thought that would work. You're to smart for your own good kid...hand over the girls, and no one will get hurt." I smirked, "You can try to take them, but I swear you will fail." I stated. She nodded and ran out of the room in a second. I ran after her and eventually beat her to the twins. I skid to a stop right in front of the twins with my arms out, "I told you...you can't have them!" Everyone looked at Amaya, and instantly Hiei had out his sword, Kurama his whip. Yusuke and Kuwabara were ready to fight.
"I'll be back soon...you can't stop me from getting the twins phoenixes." She said, and a black portal appeared behind her. She bowed her head, and jumped in. After she left I got upset with myself, and began to take in deep breathes to stay calm. "Phoenix are you okay?" I looked at Yusuke while growling. My hands were balled into fists, and my anger and hatred were boiling to the point I couldn't take it anymore. I walked over to a wall beside the back door. "Let me be!" I growled punching through the wall. I walked out the back door, and into the woods. I know I was confusing them ever so badly, but this wasn't any of their business! She had used part of my longing desire to see someone of my family's blood, and turned it against me. I was getting soft...a little too soft. Things were so wrong, and I was trying to find a right. I'm weak to have let her just go with out a scratch on her. Now I have to wait for her to come back to rip her head off her shoulders! My thoughts ran around finding different ways to kill her. I was in a clearing in the woods. I looked up to only see the clouds of the storm. Not one star was able to be seen.
I need something to comfort me, something wild and free. I was an animal at heart, and I knew the only thing to do was hunt. But that would be hard seeing as to how the rain was coming down; most likely the animals, and such would be in their homes. So I didn't know what to do, but I couldn't go back to the palace yet. I needed to be alone to blow some of this steam of. "That's it!" I said to myself. My anger wouldn't come out unless I released it, and the only way for that was by letting the power surge through me and find an outlet.
I let my powers come to the surface. Ice formed on the ground around where I stood, and fire came to my body only to become steam as the rain hit it. I started to feel good...calm something I really hadn't felt in a while. I walked back to the palace after staying out for thirty minutes. I opened the door, and everyone looked at me concerned. "You feelin' okay now?" I looked at Shadow and nodded. "I feel a lot better after letting off some steam." I said smiling as the steam rising off me failed to let up yet. "Literally I've never seen some one get so hot under the collar." I looked at Yusuke a glared at his laughing from. "That's not funny Yusuke!" Keiko slapped him in the back of the head as I passed them to go to my room. "Are you sure you're okay?" I looked at Kurama who looked concerned, "I'm fine...just let me get changed." I tried to smile, but one wouldn't come.
I walked into my room, and shut the door turning on the light. I walked over to my dresser, and got out a red tank, and a pair of black shorts. I walked into the bathroom, and grabbed a towel to dry my hair with.
As I walked out of my room turning the light off I dumped into someone. I looked behind me to see Hiei there. "Can I help you?" He gave his famous hn, and glared at me. "What did I do this time? I kinda saved the girls if you hadn't noticed." Hiei rolled his eyes. "Hn isn't it obvious, or are you that dense?" I looked at him questioningly, "What the hell are you talking about?"
"You are the worst baka onna I've ever seen! You are driving people crazy...If you haven't noticed Kurama is having a hard time controlling Youko because of you!" MY eyes got wide. That's the most he had ever said to me so far. "Are you saying this is my fault?" Hiei rolled his eyes, "Hn you at least got that I'm surprised baka." I glared at him.
"If it was my choice...if I didn't care about honor and if I hadn't seen fear in Koenma's eyes that one day this world would be gone. You and your friends would be dead, and I would have enough money to escape from anything. It just so happens oh great and powerful Hiei I can't control what my body does. I can barely control my emotions right now as it is." I stated a little pissed. "If you weren't here none of this would be happening!" Hiei snapped. I punched him in the jaw so that he fell on his ass.
"Look like boy it isn't my fault I'm a female...so sue me. I'm going through something every girl goes through. Do you know how much control it takes a woman to say no? I guess you can't understand that because you're a male so much more superior right? Well if you want to trade lives one day I'll be glad to do that." I then walked away from a stunned Hiei while drying my hair. When I walked into the room I realized Kurama's eyes went from green to gold then back again. Shadow didn't have a problem really he was kinda use to it.
The girls were sitting in the floor giving each other a make over. Botan looked up at me, and smiled. "Would you like a make over?" I shook my head getting slapped in the face with my damp hair. "Ah, come on Phoenix...either that or let your true form out." I glared at Paige, "No way in hell either way. Hell would have to freeze over before any of it happens." I stated sitting down on a window sill away from them all in a dark corner. I looked out the window at the rain. "You sure are quiet tonight." I looked at Kuwabara, "I have a few reasons to be." I then looked sadly back out the window. "Would you like to talk about it?" Shadow asked softly. "No thanks I think I'll just keep it to myself now."
"Okay." It then fell quiet besides the soft giggles from the girls as they did each others make up. Hiei had came in glaring at me really hard, but he took his window sill. "What happened to you?" Yusuke asked Hiei. "The onna has a good right hook...but the bad thing is she won't live through the night if she keeps it up." Hiei stated, but all I did was stare out the window thinking on other things. Amaya knows about my past...but how? Does everyone know about my past...or was it just a lucky guess? Does everyone know about me? Why did she have to use family...Damn that bitch to hell! "Phoenix you okay?" I looked over at Paine, "I'll be okay...it's just something just came to mind." She gave a signal nod looking at me worried. "You would tell us if something was bothering you right?" Paige asked with the same look. "Of course." Yeah right.
Botan, Yukina, and Keiko had finished Paine, and Paige's make up. Paine had red eye shadow on with black eyeliner on the top of her lid as well as under her eyes. She wore a sheer peach blush, and silver lipstick. Her sister Paige had blue eye shadow with black eyeliner on top of her lid as well as under her eyes. She had a little bit dark blush on, but not much difference between the two blushes. She wore light blue lipstick with lip liner of a little darker then the lipstick. I smirked; it looked just like them to wear something so a like but yet so different. "Okay...then tell us what's bothering you." Paine said knowing I was lying.
I sighed, there's no way out of telling them. "Amaya said she was my Mother, and used it as a tool for a moment. But I know she was lying about it, and it bothers me because I've always wanted to know who and what my families are. Let's just say it's been a longing." They nodded understanding how hard it would be in away. I looked over at Kurama to see him giving a sad smile. "You guys wanted me in here for something...what was it again?" Yusuke rolled his eyes, "We were going to watch a movie, would you like to now?" I nodded, "Sure...it might take my mind off things." I got up and walked over and sat down on the couch away from Kurama. I was sitting beside Shadow during in the movie. About the middle of it Shadow stood up, "I'll see you guys in the morning." I smiled and said good night.
After he went to his new and own room Kurama decided to sit next to me. As someone was getting murdered Kurama whispered to me. "I'm sorry about what Amaya did." I shrugged, "She's an enemy, and enemies use their foe's weakness; I should've known she would do something like that." I stated sitting up straight as a board. My blood had begun to boil because of him whispering, and I felt a need but I pushed that into the back of my mind and kept my eyes on the TV. "You shouldn't be so hard on yourself...everyone makes mistakes." I then turned and looked him in the eyes, "Not me when it comes to something like that." I then stood up, and looked at them all needing to get out of the room. "I shall see you all in the morning. Good night." Most of them called good night to me as I walked away. Kurama seemed a little sad as I left, and Hiei just glared at me I know because I could feel his eyes on me.
I entered my room, and got in bed. Tomorrow I have the date with Kurama, and I'm in heat...not a good thing! Oh well I can't do anything about it...oh well. I got under the covers, and went to sleep.