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Chapter nine

As I slept things I had written in my past fluttered through my mind. I had written poems, and stories of my killings, and pain. One attacked my mind the most. I remember sitting in my cell in the dungeon with the piece of paper in my hands reading it over and over. But then one the back side of that one I wrote a whole another one. One that showed in away of how I thought about things.

You never see her cry,

You never see her scars in which she bares.

The ones above her eye,

Or around her knee.

She looks to the sky,

Asking God, "Why is this done to me?"

Someone close to her has died,

But she only let's out a sigh.

Her outlet from this world,

From this Hell she is in,

Has left her to be alone again.

Heaven won't take her,

Hell hates her,

So she remains alone at the end.

The road she travel down did nothing,

But lead her deeper into the wrong, and sinful ways.

The road she took was Darkness,

But the turn was Paine!

I had went down the dark road of hate, and made my turn in pain, but some things just never change. Even since they gave me a soul things may have changed, and I may like them; but my hate has not. My hate just turned to someone else; Amaya!

I woke up and looked around my room. It was still storming, and a clock said it was three in the morning. I smiled and got up. I changed in to a sports bra, and a pair of shorts. This time all of it was black. I walked out of the room and down the hall to the living room. I looked around at the mess the idiots made. Popcorn every where, soda cans sprawled around everywhere.

The idiots lied face down on the floor snoring like there was no tomorrow. I walked into the kitchen, and grabbed me a soda from the fridge. "Nice to see you up Phoenix." I jumped and turned to face who it was. It was Kurama. I sighed opening the drink, and taking a sip. "What are you doing up?" I asked him calmly. He was sitting at the kitchen table reading a book.

"Honestly I don't know I just woke up." I gave a slight nod drinking the rest of my drink. "Well...if the girls wake up I'm outside." I stated walking towards the back door. "You can't be serious it's worse then it was yesterday...not training one day won't kill you!" I rolled my eyes turning to face him yet again as my blood boiled. "No it won't kill me I can fight Amaya off...maybe. No but it will kill you, your friends, the girls and the humans. We have to be ready...for anything and every thing." Kurama stood up from his place at the table, and slowly made his way to me.

With every footstep he took the warmer I felt. "Phoenix don't go out there." I looked from his eyes to the ground. "I can and I will...I need to get away from you before Hiei gets too pissed at me anyways. I will be back before four thirty...at least give me that long." I took a step away from him. He then took a step towards me knowing what was going on.

"You don't need to go out there." I closed my eyes and took a shaky breathe trying to calm down, but I felt Kurama take hold of my hand. "Kurama you know what's going on and I know what's going on...stop it!" I kept my eyes closed my head hanging towards the ground. "Youko was right though...you need to get a mate other wise others will come and try to take you." I opened my eyes as anger took over half of me.

"There is a keyword in there...try! Doesn't mean they will! And who are you to tell me to get a mate!" I said jerking my hand out of his soft loose grip. "I...I can't tell you...I can only warn you. I don't want to lose you to someone else." I looked in to his soft green eyes. They held some sort of calm sadness. "I'm not yours and I'm not his...or anyone else's!" I said pointing at Shadow!

"Why do you people act like I'm your pet!" I then stormed out into the raging storm. I went to the arena and started doing what I did last night just a bit faster. Wait what am I saying I didn't just go a bit faster I went as fast as I could with out loosing my balance. I mumbled things like "I'm no bodies!"

I didn't go in at four thirty, or five. Not even nine, and the storm picked up and wind gust tried to pick me up and throw me every which way, but failed. The rain was ice cold, and was making my skin paler then usual. My hair was being slung every which way as I moved. It was heavy and soaked of course. Then out of no where my demon form came out, and I couldn't change back.

Right then I didn't care. I was still pissed. I felt like ice and my blood ran cold making the feeling worse. "Phoenix!" I turned to see who it was to find it was again Kurama. I turned from him, and continued my suicide training. "Come on...please come inside!" I turned to him as he gazed at me. I glared at the way he was looking at me. I couldn't tell if it was lust or love but what was the difference.

I stopped what I was doing as he walked over to me. "GO away!" He had a coat in his hands, and was trying to put it over my shoulders, but I kicked him away. "I said go away!" He shook his head and tried again. Again I kicked him away. "Stop it!"

"No! I won't just turn my back on you!" I rolled my eyes as he tried again. This time I punched him knocking him down. "I need no one's help!" I stated coldly. I heard a growl in the distance. "Come on out Hiei...I know you're out there!" I screamed. Hiei walked up towards us. "I would stop fighting onna...you might just pick one you can't finish." I rolled my eyes, and turned my back to him. "When I pick one I can't finish I'll tell you. Until then I think I'll do just fine."

"Hiei back off she's angry at me. Let me handle it!" I turned just to be able to side glance them. Kurama stood to his feet, Hiei glaring at the both of us. "I will be in few minutes...just let us talk Hiei." Hiei gave hn and ran back to the palace. I turned and looked at Kurama. "What's there to talk about? How you acted? Why you acted that way?" Kurama looked at me with calm eyes that said nothing. "I think you took what I said the wrong way. But of course you would you don't understand a lot right now. Phoenix I want you to be my mate...I love you." I shook my head, "What did you just say?"

"I love you." I looked Kurama in the eyes confused as my hair was blown by the wind behind me. "You can't mean that...you barely know me!"

"But I do mean it...and nothing you do can stop the way I feel." I closed my eyes, and looked at the ground. I tried again to change back into my human form, but it didn't work again. "I'm not ready for a mate...and nothing you say will change my mind about that. Don't you see...I have things more important then my own needs? I have to worry about the girls, and to train them correctly. I just...I can't!" I looked up to see Kurama in front of me. "But you have to have time for yourself as well. Yes show them things, but then give them breaks, and take one yourself." I looked into Kurama's eyes as he put the coat over my shoulders to shield my body from the rain.

"You have a life too...and just because you have to show them the way with their powers doesn't mean you can't live your life." I looked away from him. "I just want them ready for anything Amaya can throw at them. You saw how close we could've lost the girls last night, and I wasn't ready for what she threw at me."

"No but you caught her lie, and became ready with her standing in front of you." I looked back up at Kurama. "you always have something positive to counter the negative don't you?" He smiled and nodded. He pulled me into a hug which made me go tense, and made my blood boil creating a heat that formed in the pit of my stomach. I body demanded things that I wouldn't let it have. I could only stand there and let Kurama hug me for a moment. "Kurama please let go." I heard him sigh as he let me go reluctantly. "Let's get back to the palace now." I nodded, and we walked back to the palace.

Please ask me if you want to use my poem! And the date will be in the next chapter I'm sorry I wanted to post this now. Please reiview...thanks Pixie