Chapter 11 (Don't own yuyu gang...and thanks to all the people who reviewed. Hope you like the chapter. Pixie)
When I woke up I tried to sit up, but a wave of pain ran through me making me cry out causing the gang to run in. "Are you okay?" I was breathing heavily. "No...I'm stupid I should have killed the bastrad first hand!" I hollered looking down at my stomach to see bandages. "Why didn't you let me help?" Kurama asked sitting next to me. "Because I wished something bad to happen to the whore...so it was my place to help her out!" I stated looking up to the ceiling. "You're lucky you got here when you did any longer and you could've died." I sighed at Shadows cheering up technique. "Well I would've died helping a whore then...now how long was I out?" I asked not hearing any rain. "A week."
"That's not that...A WEEK!" I tried to get up again but Kurama placed his hand on my shoulder keeping me down. "It's okay...you had to rest we all knew it." Paige said stepping out from behind Shadow. I sighed heavily calming down. "Good nothing bad happened." I said softly, Kurama was the only one who heard it. "Amaya showed up once, but didn't leave with out a scratch. I have to say the girls put up a great fight. Paige and Paine gave her quite a few scratches." I closed my eyes, and stayed still. "Okay...so she has came back...can I be alone for a little while?" I asked them softly. "Of course Phoenix...just holler if you need us." I gave a small nod and waited till they left. I heard the door shut, and I instantly looked around to make sure everyone was gone. When I was sure I tried to get up again, and succeeded but not with out pain. I swung my legs gently over the side of the bed, and stood up. I walked over to my cd player, and turned it on. I put a cd I choose in. (Please don't laugh.) I put M2M in and played don't say you love me.
"Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there you said you love me
What's that about?
You're moving too fast I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time
Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time
oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na, na, na, na
oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me baby...
Baby don't say love me, baby
Give me some time...
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time" The Cd sang loudly. I listened to it as I walked over to my window and looked out. It was night already. Out till night...reminds me of a poem I wrote. I thought to myself. Though the poem was not exactly like me...it still held part of me when I was a child.
In the light everything's bright,
A world that used to be mine,
But now all I see is shadows,
And Darkness,
A place I now call home.
I look to the light,
But only become blind.
For being consumed by darkness for so long,
Not one word from me can ever be neat, and pure, and clean,
For darkness taints every part of me.
To become light again seems so impossible from here,
But impossible is no such thing for God,
He will help and led the way,
Then maybe...
Just maybe on day...
The shadows will be behind me in the past,
And I will never be in them again, and pure again...
Just maybe one day I will live in the light for all eternity.
I shook my head, and listened to the music trying to remain calm and collected, but really I felt so sad and hurt on the inside for some reason. The world in some ways...it was against me, and I was butting heads against nature. The world hated me, and I somewhat hated it. This world...every world I hated...it didn't help from what happened when I was younger, but I knew the world wasn't fair. I sat down on the window sill, and leaned my head against it. I sighed, and watched the stars dance in the night sky. "To only be free and at peace with myself, and the world." I mumbled. I heard a knock on my door as the song changed to another one I hadn't heard. I ignored the person, and just watched the stars perform for me. My world began to spin, and I soon fell off my perch on the window sill to the floor. I heard my door open, but the darkness consumed me, and harbored me to my perfect home...in the shadows of thoughts. Into the shadows past the consciousness.
I know it's short, but I promise the next one will be longer. please review and tell me what you think. Pixie