Chapter title: Fall into you.
Disclaimer: Once more I do not own any thing other than my wonderful hair and my cell phone and my venessa carlton cd's... And probuly somthing else... Well ok here goes.
A/N: Now as I said in the last chapter we are coming to the end of 'My fallen love'. So I will be
taking votes on wther or not you would like me to write a sequel. So either yes or no and also I
would like your opinion on who in the story it would follow.
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Derek watched as Kyo and Shiho laughed over the show 'genesis of evange'. He stood now with a
towel draped over his shoulders. Kyo had taken his shirt and put it in the dryer and he was waiting
anxiosly to receive it back. He was tapping his foot nervously and Rox looked at him as he did this.
Making him stop. Maybe he under estimated this job. He thought to himself and his eyes caught
sight of Kyo looking over at him. But as soon as she realized he was looking at her she turned her
head and acted as if it had never happened. His eyebrow raised. 'What the hell is she thinking?' He
thought to himself and decided to take a break and go outside. As he turned and went outside the
sun shone bright in his eyes. The grounds arounhd the house were perfectly manacured. The pool
was uncovered and glissened as the sun danced on it's surface. He sat down in one of the chairs
along the pool thinking. All he wanted to do was think. But as he started to drift off into thought he
heard somone come out the door.
Kyo stood on the steps looking out at the grounds. It was a beutiful day and the smell of freshly
mowed grass wafted through the air. That's one thing she always loved about Orb.. The smells. Her
eyes came to the pool and she saw Derek sitting in a chair. 'I hope he's not mad.' She thought to
herself. She slowly walked toward the pool and stood before him. "What's up?" She asked her
words shaky. "Nothing realy except the fact that my first day on duty I get a bucket of water dumped
on my head." He spoke in sarcasm. "Yeah... Sorry about that.. But I just couldn't let you get away
with coming in my room." She replied and he smiled. He stood up and held out his hand. "Even?"
She asked as she took his hand. But instead of just shaking her hand he picked her up and through
her into the pool. As she came back up sputtering and yelling threatening words at him he smiled
once more. "Even." He replied and she gave him a deathe glare. "I only got your shirt wet... You
ruined my whole outfit." She said. Her red t-shirt and jeans were soaked and weghted her
completely down. He laughed and jumped in the pool with a splash. "Now were even." She replied
and he came closer to her. His eyes were so deep a brown. And his hair so blonde. As she looked up
at him her eyes were glazed with some emotion she thought had left her forever... She was happy..
And the laughter that had been torn from her that day as she sat with thier father and held his hand
as he fell into a never-ending sleep slowly was coming back to her.
Shiho laughed as she watched from her place looking out the window. "They're so cute together."
She said and then turned back to the tv. Her ankle was still a little tender and she winced as she tried
to stand. She made her way to the kitchen trying not to get lost. As she found herself in the kitchen
she looked around at it's magnificence. The ceiling was raised and painted gold. The island was
huge on it's own... And somthing was sizzling on the stove. She moved forward and smelled the
concoction. It looked to be some kind of stir fry. She looked around to see if somone else were in
the kitchen but found that she was alone. Tiada watched from the wine room having just went to
retrieve a noce bottle from the back. As she entered Shiho jumped in mild surprise.. "Uh... Hello..."
Shiho said in a timid vioce. "Hi... Dear do you like red or white wine?" The nice lady asked. "Red."
Shiho answered in a confused tone. "Good chioce.. That just happens to be Yzak'ies favorite too.
Tiada said and Shiho laughed heartily... "Y-Yzak'ie?" She asked as she gigled. "It's what i've always
called him, ever since he was a baby." She said and Shiho sat up on the counter. "Tell me more
about Yzak." She said and the two started on a long conversation about what Yzak would've been
greatly embarrased had he heard it.
Cagalli was arguing with her docter 'Dr. Drover'. He didn't seem to think that she was ready to
leave yet. "You haven't fully healed yet." He said and she fumed. "It doesn't hurt anymore!" She
screamed and he looked at her from sadened eyes. "That's because we've given you pain killers." He
answered and Cagalli once again fumed. "Come on my wounds have all mostly healed... Please."
She said as a last resort as he shook his head. "On one condition." He said and Cagalli listened.
"You have to keep Athrun with you at all times... The wounds could reopen at any time. So if there
is any problems head straight back to here and also I want you to take this." He handed her a bottle
of what looked like grape juice. "That'll help the wounds heal faster.." He answered her at her
confused look. She smiled at how she had just won over him. "Thanks!" SHe said and he only
nodded feeling he was going to regret this later.
Athrun Kira and Lacus were at the beach house wich Lacus now called home. Destiny was asleep
in her crib and all seemed peacfull as they sipped thier tea. "So it's going to be a double wedding?"
Kira asked looking at Athrun. "Yes, and I was wondering if you'd be my best man?" He asked and
Kira smiled. "Of cours." He answered and Athrun smiled. "And Lacus, Cagalli wanted me to ask
you if you'd be her maid of honour?" He asked and Lacus smiled as she nodded. As it seemed
everything was coming together.
Milli sat on the couch in her apartment watching Dearka actualy pick up his dirty socks. 'Life is
grand.' She thought to herself and leaned back. "Don't forget to put the soap in!" She shouted from
her spot on the couch as he loaded the washer. He mumbled things under his breath and Milli
looked at him. "What was that?" She asked and he looked down into the washer. "N-nothing." He
answered and Milli smirked. She had been up all night throwing up with some kind of flu. Her dear
boyfriend Dearka had gladly come to the rescue though. He held her hair for her and now he was
even cleaning her apatment, when usualy it was the opisote. She found it funny though how he had
rushed over in the cold just to be with her. Of course he had left once to go visit Cagalli, Lacus,
and Athrun. But he had come right back bearing with him peace offerings of fast food. She had
given him a kiss for this and they had sat together just talking and enjoying each-others company
for hours. Her eyes sparkled now as she watched him. He had become more of a husband to her
overnight it seemed. It was as if he was growing up before her eyes. And although she liked this she
needed the funny laid back Dearka she had so come to depend on. So as she hugged him and as she
told him those words he was looking more confused then ever before. "We need to talk." She
vioced and he looked at her in fear of her next words. "What is it? Is somthing wrong?" He asked
and she looked sadly back at him. "Dearka, I want to ask you a qeustion, and I need an honest
answer..." She paused and he nodded." Why is it that you want to change so desperately?" She put
her hand up to silence him in his attempt to cut in and she continued. "You don't seem at all the
Dearka I used to know." She said and looked up into his soft eyes. "Milli... I love you moe than life.
I'd give anything up for you... I geuss it's just seeing what happened to Athrun and Cagalli... I don't
want to lose you." He looked so distressed she smiled and he leaned down and claimed her lips. In
that moment the two ever so aching souls bonded forming one stronger than both together. They
stayed like that for a long time. Just listening to eachothers heart and breathing and holding each
other so sweetly that there hearts jumped in thier chests. Dearka deepened the kiss sending shivers
down Milli's spine. A soft moan came from her lips and he smiled as he traced her bottom lip with
his toung. She parted her oh so pleading lips and allowed him entry. His arms came to her back and
another moan came from Milli. She felt her whole body shudder as he lifted her up onto the washer.
She leaned her body into him and he traced her jaw-line with his thumb. Each small motion with his
hands sent a surg of electricity coursing through her veighns. Her heart was pounding and Dearka
put his lips to the place of her pulse in her neck. She moaned once more and he smiled a cocky
smile. "I love you." He said and Milli just grunted being that the only type of niose she could
produce. He put his forehead to hers and bent it slightly to whisper in her ear. "You better get some
sleep." He said and walked into the other room carrying with him a basket of unfolded laundry, and
leaving her alone in the coolness of the dark.
Yzak drove slowly through the dirt roads leading to his mansion. As he rounded the corner his
eyes spotted a tiny red car parked next to Shiho's blue one. He vaugely remembered seeing one like
this before but he knew he had. The qeustion was when? He pulled up to the back of the house and
parked in the garage. As he came into the kitchen he was reminded of his childhood. The smell was
intoxicating and as he made his way to the stove he saw that it was indeed his favorite meal, stir fry.
"Oh.. hi Yzak'ie." Shiho said trying hard to contain her laughter. "What did you just call me?" He
said looking on with anger. Shiho stiffened and saluted him. She knew better then to get on his bad-
side after he had a meeting. He walked forward his jaw clenched. Tiada came around the corner and
he actualy smiled. Shiho would've moved had it not been for the other girl standing behind Tiada..
Tiada had already introduced her and Shiho couldn't help but feel jealous. Her eyes burned holes in
the one at the hand of her jelousy. But instead of doing anything she just picked up the already half
empty bottle of wine and went out the back door, leaving the old 'friends' to better reaqaint each
other. Shiho stumbled as she came out of the gardens and out to the nature paths. Her eyes scanned
the woods for any sighn of danger and she just proceeded on. She kept the tears hidden well by her
bangs and she sipped the bottle every time she felt like turning back. 'Why did I have to fall in love
with him?' She asked in her mind and a twig broke under her foot. She fell to her knees and wept in
the silence of the oncoming night. Her head was spinning with reasons to forget.. And yet they fell
on deaf ears for she loved him. And it was only now that she could realize that. She finished the last
of the wine off and found that it helped to dull the heartbreak of him being aranged to marry. Her
eyes once more bimmed with tears and she turned her head up to the sky wishing that it would tell
her some meaning to all this, and yet all it produced was tiny raindrops that fell on her. She cursed
the sky as the lightning crossed it. She tried to turn and leave... Had it not been for that slippery
slope... Had it not been for the rain. She probuly would've never fallen. But as she did she realy had
no reason to hold on. And as she fell hard.. fast.. and as she lost her vision... and as her eyes closed..
Her only regret was that she had waited so long to tell her of the love. The love that she had for
him. In her oh so shallow dream there was a distant vioce calling out to her. Calling her name. And
yet she did not answer, not wanting to be found. Her eyes seemed heavy and there was a pounding
in her head. As she tried to take a breathe in she felt once more sofocated. She didn't want to go on
though. Somthing told her to just give up... Somthing told her to just let go. Her body was freazing
cold form the rain and the memory of the fall flashed in her mind. A tear fell from her still closed
eye. The pain in her body was unbearable. Her ears picked up every sound magnified by fifty. Once
more she heard her name and once again she did not call out, weather it be from not wanting to or
not being able to she couldn't tell. She heard the sound of feet.. in the mud. She wouldn't open her
eyes. Afraid that she'd see... see him. She clenched them tight and tried hard to remain still. "Hey
there's footprints over here." One man said and then another anounced, "It looks as if she fell." And
She heard another, this time a familiar vioce shout out. "Search the whole area." As she saw the
flash of light wich must have been a flashlight pass over her she stiffened. No.. He had found her. "I
think I found her!" Screamed one vioce and then she once more heard the vioce of the one she
loved. "Tie the rope around the tree i'm going down." Yzak said and Saya the girl from earlier came
up to him. "Be careful... Yzak'ie." Tears once more formed in Shiho's closed eyes and she wished
she would just disapear into the ground. Her heart was pounding and she whimpered as she felt the
first wave of pain.
As Yzak came to the narrow ledge his eyes were full of sorrow. He looked at her mangled body
and hoped to god she was still alive. He was relived when he heard a whimper. He didn't want to try
and lift her broken body but no other chioces were to be found. He put one arm under her knees and
the other on her neck. He heard her scream in pain and wondered if she even knew she was doing
this. He held her closer to him as he was slowly lifted up the cliff. She was freazing cold. And he
put his coat more aroun her. As they came to the top Shiho cried out in pain once more. Saya
brought a blanket forth imediatly and Yzak wraped it around Shiho's shaking body. He felt her
forehead and found she was buring with fever. He grimaced as he saw her shallow breathing. He
lifted her once more and she whimpered. They didn't have to go to far but he was running. Running
for not his life, but for somone who was very important to him. As he made it to the house Tiada
met him at the door. "Oh my." She said and imediatly started running around gathering blankets and
other products. "Out." Tiada said as she was taking off Shiho's soaked and muddy clothes. As he
left the room he hoped desperately that she would be ok. He went into the living room and called
the hospital arranging for a docter to come out imediatly. He then called Dearka to let him know
that he wouldn't make it to his party. But as he did this he saw Kyo come around the corner. She
had a smile on her face and was humming. He smiled faintly but continued to dail the number. It
rang once... again... again... "Hello?" Asked Dearka from the other end. "Yeah Dearka there's been
an accident... We're not going to be able to make it..." He said into the phone and he sighed as he
was reminded of earlier. "What happened.. Are you ok?" He qeustioned. And Yzak tried to stay
calm on the other end. "Shiho fell down a cliff is all.. I'm sure she'll be fine." Yzak said and Dearka
had a pained expression. "Ok... Well I have to get ready for the party... See ya." Dearka said and
Yzak hung up the phone. Kyo came over to her brother and put a hand on his shoulder. "She'll be
ok.. She's stronger than you know." Kyo reasured and yet somwhere in the back of his mind there
was a doubt.. A doubt that had she not wanted it to happen, it wouldn't have. A doubt that she
sould've ever been out there... Drunk no less. What he needed right now was to see her face, that
was the only medicine for this oh so hurting pain.
Derek stood watching her comfort her brother. Not a word of fear came out of her mouth and he
envied her for that. That she didn't have to try to be stong... That she was. And that she was the one
he wanted to hold so badly in the darkness of the night. The one he wanted to whake up to in the
morning.. The one he wanted to marry one day. And yet the fact that they still had a long way to go
before all this. That they are to young to make decisions as they are now. Kyo walked back over to
him and knocked his hat off his head. He growled and she scuried off into the kitchen. "I see you've
done a good job of taking care of my sister." Yzak said and Derek smiled. "She's a handful." He
said and Yzak smiled. "She strong willed but she's also got a heart of gold." Yzak said and Derek
nodded. "Don't give up on her... 'Cause you never know when you may lose her." Yzak said and
once more Derek nodded in full understanding.
"The solution is to not get caught!" Said Milli running up to the door and ringing the doorbell.
As the lady came to the door she ducked down into the bushes. The lady looked around and then
after a few moments closed her door. Tole laughed with her as she ran back to him. "Solution
huh?" He asked still skeptical. "Go ahead and try." Milli said and pionted toward another house. He
went up and rang the doorbell just as she had, but as he tried to jump into the bushes he realized his
shoe was caught. The lady came to the door and he smiled. "I'm here from the girl scouts... We're
selling cookies you see and I was wondering if you would like to buy some?" Tole said and the lady
smiled. "Well actualy I already bought two boxes from a little girl but here." She pulled out twenty
bucks and put it in his hand. "Some money for you and your honey... I was watching you when you
were next door." She winked and he smiled. Milli came out from hiding and the lady waved. "Bye
huns." The lady said and they left as soon as she closed the doors laughing all the way down the
sidewalk. As Milli's dream faded away her heart felt no sadness. For she had loved Tole but now
she could and was loving again. She yawned and hung her feet off the side of the bed. As they
touched the floor Dearka came in. "I was just coming to whake you." He said and she smiled.
"Already up." She said stating the obvios. "Well you better get dressed the party starts in an hour."
He said and she smiled. Thinking of how realy different the two were. They were like black and
white. She grabbed her dress and retreated into the bathroom but not until she gave him a kiss on
the cheek.
Cagalli rode in the passenger seat of Athruns Benz and she was singing along to the radio.
Athrun kept looking over at her and she didn't know why. She looked at him curiosly, but he just
smiled. These were the best moments of thier lives.. Any moment when it was just the two of them-
wich happened very rarely-and they could just be normal peaple.Cagalli actualy didn't fight about
the dress tonginght and Athrun found that very unusual. But he wasn't going to ruin a good thing.
She looked absolutely stunning. She had on a geen ball gown and her hair was down as always, but
it was a start. Her eyes had gained back thier sparkle and Athrun couldn't be happier. All the things
that had domehow come between them had seemingly disapeared in the matter of days. And for
them this was their oh so desperately needed biggining.
Shiho felt cold still and her head was pullsating. She couldn't think, the pain was to unbearable.
She felt as if she were falling... That she was suspended in mid-air. Then like a dream it once more
faded away. She once more remembered the accident with the uniform... And the severity on his
face every time she did somthing wrong. But in the end she always excepted this as a form of tough
love. Some type of training for the future. And yet all it ever did was break her down further. She
felt a wave of nausia travel over her body, but it was gone just as fast as it came. The world seemed
so distant. So very far away. Like you were trying desperetly to reach for somthing and yet you
knew that you never could, that it was imposible. And yet life brings more of the imposible every
day. She saw her friends and family all falling in love and getting married, even some having babies.
She tried to hold in all her feelings for him for so long. I suppose it's only fair that the one to tell of
it first shall win him. And yet she couldn't help but love him. No matter what the curcumstances.
He was her security. She thanked the lord that she was able to hold onto him through this hard time.
But she knew that it was time for her to let go. For as far as she knew she was only a friend to him.
What was her piont in life now? It had always been him... There had to be somthing else for her,
some other type of will to her heart. The love that she wanted from Yzak was a fairy tale that you
must grow out of with time, as is most love. She felt as if her throat was on fire every time she
pulled in a breathe though. She wanted so badly to cry out for a drink, if only to qeunch the thirst of
an ailing human being. And as far as she saw herself, she was weak. Weaker than the one who had
stood behind her, weaker then the one who had just recently given birth to a child, weaker thatn the
leader and protecter of orb, weaker than Yzak... She had always leaned and relied on others. Trying
not to get hurt by finding the truth. Although she knew in the end she would, she had just thought it
could've been prolonged for longer. She made a slight whimper and she found that somone heard
her as they were by her side. "Are you ok?" Asked Saya politely. Shiho couldn't move she felt her
whole body protest as she tried to. "Don't try to move... do you want some water?" She asked and
once more Shiho made a soft niose in the back of her throat. As she put the straw to Shiho's lips
Shiho sipped slowly and yet it still hurt. But she lost some of the scratchiness. "You know Yzak
was very worried about you." Saya said smiling and Shiho's eyebrows just knitted together. "The
second he found out you had left he started lookiing for you... He searched the whole grounds..
And when he couldn't find you he went from door to door asking for help. By that time he was
soaked from the storms elements." She paused and looked at a picture hagning on the wall. "It had
been hours before we finally started finding footprints." Saya said in a very low tone. "It must have
been awful falling from that cliff..." Saya added and Shiho's eyes started to gather tears. It wasn't for
she wanted it to end her life then and there... But for some reason unkown to her, her life had been
saved.. Why? So she could go the rest of her life loving somone she could never have? What type
of life is that? Shiho wanted life to fade from her. She wanted to not have to worry about this any
more. She wanted to be able to forget him. And yet for some reason she could not. Tears once more
could not be stopped and they ran down her face. "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to." Shiho tried to speak
the words she needed and yet she fell short this time her body slowly losing consuisness. But as she
did the words she was needing somehow slipped. "Why do I love him?" And Saya knew now what
she had truthfully known all along. Her heart sank as she thought of those tears. This was probuly
all her doing... But she was going to fix this.. She was going to fix this if it killed her. She picked
up the letter she had brought and tore it up. As the pieces fell to the floor she smiled. For she had
never truly wanted to get married... She was in love with somone else. And as she could now see he
was too.
Cagalli, Athrun, Kira, Lacus, Dearka, Milli, Luna and Derek were all sitting in the large hall wich
would soon be filled with geusts at the engagement party. "Hey Derek." Said Dearka calling him
forthe. "Yes sir!" Derek said saluting and smiling. "Where's Kyo... I was told she was coming."
Derek looked at him and knitted his eyebrows together. But as he turned around to where the
attention of the whole room was he saw her. She was in a stunning red dress and her hair was
curled and pullled up on her head. There were whistles and catcalls ringing out throughout the hall
and Derek looked at her with jealousy. She looked so beutiful. He went forward and Dearka had to
stifle his laughter. As Derek came to the bottem of the stairs Kyo looked down at him. The moment
thier eyes met it seemed the world stopped. Everyones attention was on the new couple and Dearka
nodded for the band to play. He had a plan, and he was going to use it. As the waltze started playing
Derek smiled. And he extended his hand. "May I have this dance?" He asked playfully and Kyo
looked to the wall and then back at him. "You may." She said and took his hand. He led her to the
dance floor and they started moving in perfect rthym. "You look beutiful tonight." Derek whispered
in her ear and Kyo blushed. Everyone was in an uproar with talk of another pair. "The engagement
party was a wonderful idea." Luna said to Dearka. "Yes... It was." A few other couples went and
jioned them on the dance floor. Athrun and Cagalli sat at the far end talking about the extravagant
decorations. "They did a great job with only a days notice." Cagalli said and Athrun smiled. "Yes...
They had a lot of work too." Athrun said. He took a goblet of wine and sipped it. Cagalli did the
same but her eyes were caught as well with the new couple on the dance floor. "They look so good
together." She said and Athrun looked out at them to. "It's almost like you and me." Athrun said and
she once more smiled. "I'll punch you if you keep it up with the corny'ness." She threatened and he
smirked. "Of course.. My dear princess." He laughed as she punched him in the arm. "We should be
going soon... You need to rest tonight." He smiled and she glared back at him. "I don't need to rest
at the moment."
Shiho heard somone talking to her. The words seemed to be miles off though. "Hold on." Said
the vioce and she wanted so desperately to reach out to it. TO touch the face of the person. To hold
somthing to ground her to this world to feel as if life was not as fleeting as it is. Her heart pounded
in her chest as she screamed out in her mind "Help me!" She wanted to see the face of the one so
close to her. She wanted to hold him close. She wanted him to love her. Somthing was forced into
her mouth and she moaned gently. "He's just taking your tempature." Yzak told her and she quited
for she trusted him. "104.5" The docter anounced and Yzak sighed. "Why aren't the antibiotics
working?" He asked in frustration slamming his fist on the table. "It's just taking a little while.
She'll be ok.. She's strong. She just has to want to get better." The docter ended in a sad tone and
Shiho realized the truth of this. She didn't want to face reality that it carried with it such heartbreak
that she could not live. She wanted to fight, but for what? What was there left to fight for. Her
words could not change the facts. And niether could the current curumstances. "Saya's going to
need a ride to the air-port... Could you call a cab." Said Yzak sitting in a chair next to Shiho.
"Please wake up." He said and she thought over all these words. 'Where is Saya going?' She
thought to herself. And thought back to his conversation. As her eyes came open she was greeted
with the darkness and coolness of the room she had been in the night before. She looked over at
Yzak, his head in his hands. She wanted to move, to get up from this spot she felt trapped to. Her
eyes looked over his shoulder scanning the entire room. It seemed to be spinning still. Her head
pounding and her body was shaking slightly. She let her feet fall from the side of the bed trying her
hardest to ignore the great deal of pain it caused her. As she shifted Yzak looked up at her. Her legs
were shaking badly and she stumbled as her feet met the cold floor. She fell right into him, his chest
was so warm and welcoming. She blushed and he laughed. "You realy are atracted to me aren't
you?" He asked in a mocking tone but Shiho glared and tried hard to stay steady on her feet. He
held her closer to him and she welcomed the warm embrace. For the first time she noticed what she
was wearing. It was a large t-shirt probuly one of Yzak's. She blushed and he stood up picking her
up in the process. "Stay in bed." He said in a controlling tone. She nodded and put her head back on
the pillows in hopes to stop the room from spinning. "What-?" She cut herself off. She knew why
all this had happened already, and she didn't want to face it, not now. "I'll leave you to get some rest
now." He said a smile on his face. As soon as he left the room Shiho's heart sank. "I love you.." She
whispered into the night. Her words to never be heard. That those words to always be and remain so
hidden. The sound of the words rang out through her world, that now she would have to live with
the fact that she had waited to long.
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To MXC-the show-rocks my socks: I know it's so funny!
To lilplayer: I like your screen name! lol and I will take into acount your idea..
To cloudy mind: Here you go.. lol
A/N: Sorry I know I just keep going on and on. But I hope you all liked this chappie... ttfn.