Summary: Looking at Kagome Higurashi, you'd never know that she carried a secret storm. Her therapist suddenly quits on her, and she must go to find someone else to help her. She struggles to keep her new therapist out of her life. She tells him the best of her is gone. Why won't he believe it? Kagome's POV.
"Talking"
"Sign Language"
Flashbacks
FYI to all my readers: Rather than having 19 chapters, I now have 17. I combined two short chapters into one big one for ya'll. Then I got rid of an un-needed chapter. That should makeyou all happy. If it doesn't, then you need to stop reading my story.
Wait! I was kidding! Don't leave! Keep reading, even if you aren't happy about me making things go along smoother. One of those chapters was a filler chapter. Completely un-needed. And the other two were consecutive, but they were too short on their own. See! I have reasons!
Best of You
Chapter 6: Meet the Family
I'm not even supposed to have these feelings for my therapist. And he's not supposed to care this much for me. Maybe this is the way he does therapy, maybe it's because he's nice, or it could be that he has feeilngs for me. But, there has to be a reason why he's acting this way. There's no way that he's asking me to dance because he likes me.
There's no way it can happen.
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My therapist isn't so bad. He's stratiened up and started acting professional to me, again. Then he started acting more casual.It's been almost eight months that I've been in his therapy. Now, he talks to me like we're friends. And we are. But, he doesn't act professional nowadays.
He's told me a lot about his past. He's had a tough time with being bullied for being a half demon, and I expected as much. Knowing the torment that he went through, I have more respect for him. That's not the only thing that's grown for him.
Over these eight months, I've stared realizing something else. I'm in love with him. I know it sounds stupid, but he's... He's just something else. He knows what it feels like to be left out of the crowd. He knows what it's like to suffer verbal abuse. He understands the pain I've been through, but he's made something useful of it. He's using it to help those of us who can't handle it.
He's really funny, too. He goes through licorice like a child goes through ice cream. He's started slowing down, recently. Maybe his desire for cigarettes is finally dying down. Either that, or our sessions are getting shorter. I can't decide which.
As I brush my hair, I decide one thing. I'm a hideous mess. My brown eyes look like something from the wrong end of a dog. Not only that, but they look boring. I mean, could there be anything else that's interesting on me? No, of course not. My black hair reminds me of my little brother's shaggy hair.
But, mine has lost it's natural shine. It's got a dull look to it that is driving me insane. My body doesn't seem right. Sure, Sango insists that I have the figure every woman wants, but I don't think I do. I only see an ugly woman when I look at myself. I doubt I'm even a woman some days.
I get in the shower, scrubbing my hair until I'm sure it's ready to fall out. I rinse, but not repeat. I'm so sick of repeating things, even if it's as simple as shampooing. I put conditioner in my hair and then wash it out when it's sat for two minutes.
I get out, dripping wet. I wrap a towel around my body as I attempt to get myself to stop my hair from dripping. Within ten minutes, I've gotten mysel dry. I dress in comfortable jeans and a brown shirt. When i walk out, I pull on my black sweater.
I've stopped going to therapy sessions now. Inuyasha actually comes here whenever he has the time. Sometimes I'm not here, and he hang out doing who-knows-what. Most of the time he's here when I'm done with my shower and I talk to him then. I don't know if he'll be here today. He said he had something important to organize.
I go downstairs and greet Miroku. He smiles at me, teasing me about dating Inuaysha. He knows i can't and won't fight back. I think he's being mean if he's picking on someone who's unable to fight back.
"Relax, Kagome. Miroku is just jealous of you because you're dating someone and he's not getting anything from me." Sango says. I smile as she approaches us two.
"My sweet Sango, why do you tell her such things?" Miroku asks pathetically.
"Because I want to torture you and because Kagome wom't tell anyone." Sango replies. Miroku looks at me and I make a motion of zipping my lips.Sango puts her arm around my shoulder, giggling.like it's more funny than it is.
"My sweet Sango, you shouldn't say things like that when you may be with child." Mirou says. Sango screams, in my ear no less, then slaps him.
"You said you wouldn't tell anyone!" She snaps.
"Kagome can't tell. I mean, no offense to her, but she's unable to tell anyone. Besides, I'ms ure she woudln't anyway." Mirou says. I nod my head in agreement then rub Sango's stomach.
"I can't believe you're going to be a mother. You'll have to quit the job whlie you've got a baby..." I signal. She sighs then nods.
"Yeah, I know, but I can't. Mirouk isn't making enough to support us. You pay enough for my bartending skills that we can get by every month." She explains to me. I shake my head, getting a piece of paper out.
"No, you're not working when you have a child. Miroku's going to get paid three times as much as before. I'm not going to see you working here." I say. Miroku and Sango both gasp then Sango hugs me tightly. I'm sure Miroku would have done the same, but he knows that I'm not trusting of his hands.
"Thank you so much, Kagome. This means a lot to me... Well, to us." She says. She hugs me once more then kisses Miroku and leaves. I'm sure she's going to their new home.
I guess I forgot to mention this. Sango and Miroku got married three months ago. Even though they're still shy to admit to it in public, they are officially married. I went to the ceremony and signed as a witness. I doubt I can be a good witness, if I can't speak about it. I guess it doesn't matter, but I keep thinking that it might in some strange way.
I nearly scream when someone hugs me from behind. Miroku starts laughing, which is the one things that's keeping me from losing it. I turn my head to see a cheerful Inuyasha. I want to be mad at him for doing that, but he doesn't know better. No one does.
"Nice to see ya, Miroku." Inuaysha greets. I guess his hugging me was a greeting, although a rather startling one.
"You too... So, what are you here for? I thought that you weren't going to come today." Miroku says. I give him a questioning look, and he's quick to explain. "Inuyasha and I have been friends since he was a little boy. I'm a couple years older than him, so he listened to me when I told him to stay away from the bully demons."
I guess you do learn something new everyday. Somedays I doubt this, but today isn't one of them.
"Yah. I didn't tell you because I was afraid you'd fire Miroku. Now I'm sure you don't have the heart to do it since Sango went on maternity leave." Inuyasha says.
"You knew that she was pregnant?" I ask.
"Not only did I just hear it now, I could smell it on her a few days ago." Inuyasha says. I look at Miroku.
"So, what are you doing with Kagome?" He asks Inuyasha.
"I'm taking her to see her family. She just has to tell me where." He says. My eyes widen and I squirm out of his casual grasp. I shake my head quickly, since my hands seem to be failing me right now.
"What? You don't want to go?" He asks. I shake my head rapidly, trying to deter him from the idea of going to see my family.
"Well, if it's wrong that you don't want to go... Then you want to go. Come on, you just have to point me in the direction of where they are." He says. I try not to cry as I shake my head slowly.
"I don't want to see my family, though. You don't either." I signal to him. He grasps my hands, shaking his head.
"I do. I want to meet your family to see what they have to say. I want to see them, whether you like it or not. You can either tell me, or I'll call in a favor on my half-brother." He says. I know he doesn't want to talk to his half brother, so he must be really serious about this.
"Now, since you've calmed down, come in my car with me and tell me where your family is." He says. I follow him, glancing back at a very confused Miroku. He has no idea what's so bad about seeing my family either. But he understands it, Inuaysha thinks that we aren't getting along.
He opens the door, and I reluctantly get in. "You and your parents not on speaking terms?" He questions. I shake my head as I look out the window.
"No, not really. Hard for me to talk to them nowadays." I reply. He smiles then begins driving. I point in directions whenever we get to a stoplight. Soon enough, we're there. He looks at me, as if I have deceived him on my family's residence.
"You've got to be kidding. Your parents are dead?" He asks. I nod sadly then lead him to my father's and mother's tombstones. I really wish I could tell him everything with my voice, but that'd be breaking rule number two.
"Tell me... What happened to your little brother?" He asks as he looks down on my father's grave.
"He's next to mom. Father left and we received a letter one day that he died. His body was never found, but we had a funeral for him and everything. Mom died last, but we all knew she was going to die soon. So, there was room between by brother and my father for her..." I signal. Inuyasha nods then kneels down to my brother's gravestone.
"You and your brother... Were you close?" He asks. I nod my head rapidly. My brother and I were very close in so many ways.
"Kagome! Stop it! Your brother deserves what's coming!" He yelled. I shook my head and stood in front of my brother. Sure, I valued live quite a bit, but I loved my brother too much to let this monster hurt him anymore.
"No! Leave Souta out of this!" I snapped.
"You want me to leave him out of this? Well, now that I know what hurts you most, he'll suffer more!" He said maniacally.
"No! You're a bastard! Leave my little brother alone!" I yelled at him. Sure, I was hardly even in high school at the time, but I had to get the point across to this man.
"How about your mother?" Inuyasha asks. I nod my head hesitantly.
"We were close in the beginning, but then shit started happening..." I say. I slap my hand for my foul language. I loved my mother a lot, but when crap started happening a lot, she drifted away from me.
"Mommy, why can't we go to the park?" I asked as I pulled on her arm. She cried in pain, and that's when I saw the bruises that the man had left.
"Mommy's really weak, honey." She said. I got in bed next to her and tried to hug her. She cried in pain at that too.
"Mommy's too hurt to love me?" I asked.
"Yes, mommy can't love you right now. Just... Remember this for me, Kagone... I love you a lot, no matter what happens between us. Even if I can't be around anymore."
"Mommy, you'll always be with me!" I said, trying to cheer her up. If only I had known what was really going on. I'd have known that my words only hurt her more.
"I'm sorry, Kagome. I shouldn't have assumed they were alive." Inuaysha tells me. I shrug my shoulders. He didn't know. No one did. That's one of the many things that I made suer was hidden from my friends. That was a part of my past, so I hid it as well as I knew how.
"Come on, I'll take you out for lunch. It'll be my way of making up this mistake to you." He says. I nod my head slowly. Food won't help me feel better entirely, but he knows it'll heal the hurt he just brought to me.
I'm really relieved that he knows this, for some reason. Now that he knows my family is dead, he may stop his therapy. Or he may press forward with it. I can't be too sure. Either way, I'll be happy. If he stops, then life can continue as it is. If he continues, I may be able to live like a real person. He may help me in gettting my voice back.
I just have to overcome this fear...
Next time on The Best of You...
Alright, he's getting closer to me while respecting my wishes to not talk. I'm not sure if this can be related to therapy, but I'm starting to enjoy it.Then, he invites me to walk through the park tonight. I can't say no, since he'll assume that I don't like him or something along those lines... I'm stuck walking in the moonlight with one of the most handsome men I've ever seen. Romance, anyone?
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