Guiding Light
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Summary: Shawn Farrell has a gift, but all gifts come at a price. Or maybe this is just a down side to his gift. There's only one way to find out.
A/n: I may loop this into "As Fate Would Have It" or not, I haven't decided yet, since I rewrote this chapter about four times…
Disclaimer: The 4400 belongs to USA… if I owned it… JORDAN WOULDN'T HAVE DIED…
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"Memory Relapse"
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It wasn't much longer later that Diana returned with a doctor. Susan was so happy; you could see her entire facial expression change in an instant from angry and sad to happy and overjoyed. Amazing what a smile could do to a woman like Susan.
Tom was shocked. He had never expected Shawn to wake up, just like that. He hadn't been there right away when Kyle first woke up, and Kyle was out for well over three years, and Shawn, it had barely been a week.
He was just glad that Susan didn't have to go through the same thing that he and Linda had to.
The doctor walked over to Shawn's bed. The boy, who still had a look of fear in his eyes, allowed his eyes to follow the doctor over towards him. He didn't say a word, his voice was weak to begin with.
"Okay," the doctor said. "I am Dr. Kinderwals, you probably don't know me."
Shawn just looked at him.
"Now I'm just going to ask you a few questions, is that all right?"
Shawn nodded.
"What's your name?"
Shawn looked at the doctor as if he was crazy. "Shawn Farrell." he said weakly.
"Good, and how old are you?"
He didn't understand why this doctor was asking him strange questions, or why Uncle Tommy or his mother was there. "Seventeen," he then stated firmly. Tom held his breath slightly. He was older than that.
The doctor just smiled. "When's your birthday?"
"December 12th, 1983," he said, without missing a beat.
"And what's today's date?" The doctor knew that Shawn was going to get this wrong.
"I don't know."
"Well, what is the last thing you remember?" the doctor asked nicely.
"I was… I was at the beach… with Kyle," he said, leaving out the fact that they were drinking. He didn't want to get Uncle Tommy mad, oh no way.
The atmosphere in the room was thick with tension, Shawn could just feel it.
"What's… what's wrong?" he asked, his voiced heavy with confusion.
"Do you know anything about the 4400?" Tom asked, ignoring the angry look he was shot from the doctor.
"The forty-four what?" Shawn asked.
This was bad. This was really bad.
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"I want him moved!" Tom said to the doctor once the two of them left the room, leaving Shawn with his mother.
"We can't do that right now. He seems to have forgotten everything about the past year. Since before the abduction and then some. It would be hazardous to move him," the doctor said.
Tom sighed angrily. Then the thought hit him. Collier. Collier was like a father to Shawn (as much as Tom didn't want to admit it). What was going to happen when he walked in, and not only found Shawn awake, but not remembering anything between being abducted and waking up in a hospital room.
"Well, is there anyway we can keep people from visiting him, except for his close family?" Tom asked, going out on a limb.
The doctor sighed. "Tom, this is serious. Things like this, this can happen to people just getting out of a coma, I've seen it before, but never this severe. If I cut of visitations, I cut them off for everyone, and I don't think that would help Shawn in this case."
Tom was a bit angry, but glanced in at Shawn and Susan talking. It was as like nothing had ever happened. Like he had never completely shut her out of his life, like he had never been taken. Like the past five years had never happened.
"How long until his memory comes back?" Tom asked, not looking at the doctor.
The doctor shrugged. "We don't know. He wasn't down for that long, so it could just be a few hours, but it could be for the rest of his life, we don't know. It is hard to tell."
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Once Tom left the room with the doctor, Diana stayed in a corner, writing down little things in her notebook (not Maia's diary, but her own notebook) and after Susan phoned Danny to come in, she sat down next to Shawn, unable to get the huge smile off her face, not that she wanted it off.
"What's going on?" Shawn asked.
Susan (who didn't want to explain just how horrible he made her feel the past year) decided it would better to just gliss over what had happened. "There was a bit of an accident Shawn, but you're all right, that is all that matters?"
Shawn was confused. "What?" How could there have been an accident? Unless he tried to drive home, and was drunk and… "Kyle? What happened… to Kyle?"
"Kyle's fine honey, just worried about you," she smiled. At least that wasn't a lie. Kyle was worried about Shawn.
Shawn closed his eyes. It felt like he had been hit by a truck. "What's the 4400?" he asked after the silence bit into all three of them in the room.
Susan looked over at Diana, how was she supposed to answer that question? The 4400, the thing that just totally worried Diana and ruined her life. That was what the 4400 was. But maybe, just maybe Shawn not remembering it was a blessing. Maybe it was for the better.
"Don't worry about that Shawn, it'll be explained in time," she smiled ruffling his hair.
Shawn moved his head out of the way. He hated it when she did that. It just caused Susan to laugh. Some things never changed.
Shawn didn't want to wait to find about the 4400, because Uncle Tommy seemed a bit adamant about them and then there was that strange lady sitting in the corner who looked familiar, but he couldn't quite place her.
Everything was so familiar, it sounded familiar, it seemed familiar, he just couldn't understand any of it.
The last thing the boy remembered was being at the beach with Kyle, drinking, then boom he was waking up in a freaking hospital room. It didn't make any sense, it made no sense at all!
"Don't worry Shawn," his mother repeated, sensing the worry and confusion inside of her oldest son as Shawn's eyes closed in an attempt to block everything out and concentrate on what was going on. He just wanted to not be confused, and he wanted to be normal old Shawn.
Little did he know that being normal Shawn was being the Shawn he was right now, remembering nothing of the 4400, or Jordan Collier, but Shawn didn't know that.
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A/n: I promise Jordan in the next chapter!
Saynt Jimmy - I screamed at the TV… and I cried… and I don't think Collier is dead… he got up and walked away! And then the next episode is gonna filler with Tom going crazy… and then it is called "Carrier" and "Rebirth" so Collier ISN'T DEAD! I swear! Besides, Billy Campbell isn't allowed to die!
sarahofearth - OMG! I'd love to hug Shawn! Awwww… thanks. I'm really flattered that you think that! Shawn is gonna have a mental breakdown on that show and it is gonna be JORDAN to the rescue! I would have dedicated it to Jordan, but he's not dead. Seeing as I accurately predicted that Kyle would be the killer I am accurately predicting that Collier isn't dead… So you want lots of Jordan. I can do that… and I am really flattered that this is your dream fic! And think of it this way… at least it wasn't Shawn… But there may not be a lot of Jordan until a later chapter.
PentagonMerlin - Wow. Haha! I personally liked him screwing with Kandy rather than Rebecca because… idk… and I agree! I mean with episode titles like "Rebirth" its like… YES! And Liv… no, I didn't like that idea either, but hey, anything to get Liv and Shawn closer is okay with me. Haha.
Meridan Siler - No my Jordan isn't gay… my sister probably did it. She's currently my beta when I look for things… stupid little brat… and besides… real men wear pink!
Spice9 - Okey dokey!
rach - Who doesn't love Collier?
LostAngel2 - He always has been alive…
4400 - You do? Sorry it took so long, I have so much stuff to do! Susan is kinda hard because we don't see too much of her, so there are a lot of holes in her personality to fill in, which is kinda fun, taking liberties. Thanks for reviewing!