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After that great Halloween, all the other events had to get up onto a ladder to be as good as that. Nothing seemed as interesting anymore.

November started off the best way it could. People were talking about the Halloween prank between, during, before and after classes, for the whole week. The four boys served their detentions as planned, but earned their points back easily. Remus answered five questions that Tuesday, making him earn his twenty-five points back. Peter did 'good deeds' at every opportunity that week and got his points back. James did something good during Quidditch practice that earned him fifty points to gain his and Sirius's points back.

So far, no false rumors about Sirius and Raine had started spreading yet, which was great news for Raine. She didn't have to worry about that as much as she thought she would have to.

That Saturday, she woke up late and went down into the common room, as usual. Since none of her friends were there, she walked right out, and started heading toward the Great Hall for lunch but there was something that caught her attention. Most people wouldn't have been able to notice it, but caught in constant paranoia, she did.

A group of four Slytherins was standing by a statue and talking, and occasionally looking over at Raine and pointing to her, then looking back at the other people in the group. She instantly knew that they were talking about her, but didn't know whether or not it would be good to go over and do something about it…. A small voice suddenly came into her head. It was saying 'Come on, Raine! You're going to have to kill somebody in less than two months, and you can't even stand up for yourself! These are the kind of people that start rumors! Go devour them into a billion pieces… Not literally of course.'

Raine's small delicate hands clenched into fists and she stomped over to them. When she was close enough to them, she instantly recognized one of the girls and one of the guys. Regulus Black and Narcissa… Well, she didn't really know her last name. She wasn't that good with names.

Then, it was like there was somebody inside of her, talking for her, because what she said next wasn't anything that she would normally say (Well, maybe Raine would but definitely not Lorraine.). "Listen, you bloody idiots, I don't really care what you think about me, as long as you don't say it, because I think it's pretty pathetic that you have to be all up in other people's lives, because you don't have one yourself. So just go get one!"

She started to head toward the Great Hall again, but Regulus grabbed her arm to stop her. "Er… Blondie, I gotta tell you something." He pulled her away from the other three.

Don't you ever call me that again. I am not blonde… Well, technically I am, but… It's not my fault. And so what if I am blonde? What's wrong with blondes? Grrr! "What?"

"So I heard you're with my brother now."

"Yes. Yes I am." She said impatiently.

"And he just happens to be the same person who you're supposed to kill."

Raine wasn't sure if she was breathing now. He knew… Sirius's own brother knew. "Yes. Yes he is."

"Now, you may not be the brightest one in the school, but you are surely smart enough to find a problem somewhere in there."

"But going out with him will help me gain his trust, therefore letting me be able to… kill him."

Regulus smirked. "That's not the way it's going to sound when I explain it to the Dark Lord."

And then she realized it. Sirius's brother was a Death eater. Did he know it? "Don't you dare tell him or…"

"You know what you have to do to save yourself." He turned on his heels, then walked away.

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"S-Sirius, c-c-come over h-here." Raine stuttered.

She was lying on the floor of his dormitory, staring up at the ceiling. Sirius and James were on the other side of the room, discussing some new prank ideas. They normally wouldn't discuss pranks in front of others, but they could tell that she wasn't paying any attention to them.

She heard him stand up and walk across the room. He lay down next to her. "Whatcha want?"

She could feel him looking at her, so she just rolled over so she was facing the other way. "I can't be with you anymore." She said in such a quiet voice, that she didn't even know if she was saying it.

"What was that?"

"I cannot… be… with Mr. Sirius Black anymore." She said in a slightly louder voice.

"W-what?"

She rolled over and kissed his lips, then rolled back over. "You heard me Sirius."

"No I didn't…"

"This is the last time I'll say it…. I, Raine DeAmico can no longer be with Sirius Black anymore. I, Raine DeAmico am breaking up with Mr. Sirius Black." She said loudly.

The words seemed to echo though the dormitory. Raine suddenly realized that she was crying. Why was she crying? STUPID TEARS! Go away!

"W-why?"

"I… I can't say, but if it were up to me… We would be together forever." She hugged him tightly, for the last time in weeks.

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I thought that it would be easy,
That it would be like one, two, three.
But as the words came out of my mouth,
Tears came out of my eyes,
And not only did I hear those horrible words,
But I also heard my cries.

Raine was in the shower, fully clothed. She was lying in the tub, letting the shower water fill it and cover her body.

She slid back so her head was just above the water. Great. A few more inches of water and she would be able to drown herself.

It wasn't supposed to hurt so much. She had thought that she didn't like Sirius, but after breaking up with him, she realized how much she really did like him. She had never felt that way about anybody before… But she couldn't say it was love, because it probably wasn't.

"I hate you, Raine." She said to herself as the water raised higher and covered her chin. Just one more inch.…

A few knocks came from the door but she didn't answer. No, she wasn't going to let one of her idiotic roommates ruin the best moment of her life- The moment that she was going to die.

"Open the door, Lorraine. It's Lily."

Raine shut the water off. "Come in. It's open. And I'm decent."

The door opened and Lily walked in. "James told me what happened."

She didn't answer. She couldn't answer. The water was covering her mouth and she was breathing through her nose.

"Sirius was pretty sad. You were one of the only girls that he actually liked. Why'd you break up with him?"

Oh, great, Lily. Make me feel even worse. Raine sat up and unplugged the drain so the water could come out of the tub. "Because I had to. And I had no choice. It was… A life or death situation."

"Did somebody threaten you?"

"No." She said with no emotion in her voice.

"I'm really, really sorry, Lorraine. Do you still wanna be his friend?"

Raine thought about it. Still being his friend would help her with her mission but… "M-maybe."

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