This story take place before,during and maybe after the movie!
Nothing's mine, except Amy and Eva, everything's Jonh Singleton!
--I want Garrett Hedlund for myself! Who wants to kidnap him with me:P---
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...and she brake down.
Amy's point of view.
I silently open the back door, for It was now late in the night. I had fall asleep beside Evelyn's grave and woke up a few minutes ago. I silently closed the door, no lights were on in the house,everybody were asleep.I'm sure no one saw me get out of the house, but they surely saw that I was gone. I hope they thought I was out shopping or something like that.
I was cold. I had no coats on and I felt asleep oustide, in winter. I started to cough. Brillant, I just need a cold now. I sigh and try to warm myself. Finally giving up, I sat on the chair, around the table.
I felt guilty, so much guilt was making its way inside of me and I was scared. Scared that, I had lose one of the only chance life gave me to be happy. Scared of losing everyone I love, but hey, if I lose them, it was my problem. You get what you deserve by your choice. I had made a bad choice, bad things would happen.
I started to rub a scar I had on my left arm and trust me it was one hell of a scar. He had given it to me, to remember him, he had said. Tsss. I could have remembered his bloody face without the scars. I sigh again and my eyelid felt heavy. I put my head on my arms, and closed my eyes. I cough again and sniff. A cold, it was already there.
Then, I heard the distant volume of the t.v. Was someone up? I didn't care, I just wanted to sleep, and I hadn't sleep in days. I finally closed my eyes, but I jerk awake immediatly.
Someone had put my chair away from me and I was on the floor. I didn't see my attacker face and I almost scream until I heard:
"Where the bloody hell have you been 'My?"
I plissed my eyes, they must have been two little triangles, but I finally recognise the face.
"Jack? What are you doing up?"
He never answer but grabbed my arms and made me stand on my feet again. He was looking at me everywhere, searching for any injury I guess.
Oho.
I could feel the need to cough but I try to hold it until he was away, 'cause he hate when someone had the cold, never knew why...
"ATCHOUM!"
Failed, the cough had gone out and I started to sniff and cough again. Then I shiver, fully awake now. He was looking at wide eyesand mouth open. Then, he took action after the shock had passed. He took me bridal style and ignore my "I can walk you know!" and went straight to his bed. He put me on it and when I try to get up he pushed me back.
"Stay there, foolish girl, and wait!" then he walk out.
I was fuming, really. Foolish girl? I was not! Okay maybe a little for falling asleep, no coats on in the snow in winter, beside an almost more colder grave but...he still had no right to tell me that!Finally he came back and tossed me some of his clothes.
" Put them on!"
"Why yours? I have some you know, they're in my..."
"Room I know, but Eva's asleep and I don't want to wake her!"
I look at him suspisciouly.
"She ain't sleeping with you?"
He had turned around when I started to unclasp my bra, I wondered why...after all he had seen every part of me. I shrugged the thought away; he was a man after all, never try to understand them.
"No, she claimed her mom in the middle of the afternoon and what a surprise when I couldn't find you anywhere in the house!"
I could tell he had been angry about that little incident. I put my pants and panties off.
" Well, I needed air and you were all having so much fun I didn't think you would see me gone!"
He was almost fuming, I could picture him again, saying things no one understand under his breath with the smoke coming out of his ears, I almost laugh. Some things would never change I guess.
"Yeah well, when I didn't find you in the house, I freak okay? Eva was crying and saying some shit about how some folks had come back for you, man I didn't understand a word she said, then I started to run everywhere and..."
I was not listening to him anymore. I was frozen in place. She had remembered it. She was not supposed to remember it.
A year earlier, they had come at Evelyn's house. They wanted to take me has a hostage, so Jeremiah had no choice but to pay. They broke down the door and went into Eva's room and mine. I had screamed at her to run, but the little devil, she had been brillant. Instead of listening to me, like always, she had called the police. That had saved me, but I had thought she had forgot about that incident, she had been only two! A shake made me came back to reality.
"You're not even listening to me!" said an angry Jack in my face.
"Hum... well I got lost in my thought I guess...sorry."
He sighs and walked in circle. Knowing he could do that hours long I sat down, waiting for him to tell me what he wanted to tell me. Then, as expected he turned toward me.
"Where the hell were you? We search for you everywhere! We almost kill Jerry and we never..."
I frowned.
"You almost kill Jerry? Why?"
" Because stupid, he knew where you were but he only said ''She needs some time alone'', I almost kill him bloody hell!"
So Jerry had saw me walk away. I should have known, since I was in trouble he had always kept an eye on me, for my protection I guess. I started to rub my scar again, a habit I had took when I was nervous. Jack was angry, understandable. I was shaking and he stopped his babbling and took me in.
" Where the hell is your coat? It's not on the floor!"
Oopsie.
"Hum... well, I needed to get out so much that, I didn't take the time to take my coat..."
"WHAT? You're telling me that you were out in winter for about five hours WITHOUT a freaking coat on?"
I simply nod, like if we were talking about food.
"Are you crazy? That's why you catch a cold!"
"No shit, sherlock!"
I was starting to get angry myself. All right I had scared him disapearing like I did, but hell, why make a scene like that? He had not talked to me for... I don't know, a week maybe? I stood up.
"Anyway, I'm going to sleep on the couch now!"
"Like hell you are! You're just going to cacth death in that bloody coach!"
"So? It's my life and none of your bussiness. Must I remind you, you were not talking to me, such a long time ago?"
I went for the door, but his frame stopped me. I try to dash for the door, but hell, he was too tall, too fast and too strong for me! Defeated I sat on the floor. He bent down and was level to level with my face. He was still angry. Great.
"It is my bussiness, you're the mother of my child!"
"Wow! Such touching and persuasive words!"
He took my face in his hands and he look at me without blinking.
"You're my bussiness"
Then he kissed me.
Jack Mercer point of view
I couldn't have stopped myself, even if all the people on earth were trying to stop me, I would have kiss her anyway. I mean, it was not some impulsion, no; I just need to kiss her. Because I remember that when I kiss her, it would relax me. And it work.
I knew she was surprise at first, but she kiss me back. My right hand was in her hair and my other was taking her closer to me. I had need that kiss to know she was safe.
Today when Eva asked for her and I didn't find her, I panicked. I had thought that the one that kill our mom and took her away. Because, my brothers and me discovered something really ugly behind her death, but we still need to figure out what it was. So I kiss her, it was the only way to know she was safe.
Then we stop, out of breath. I look in her eyes and saw longing, love and ...was that fear? I start to rub her face slowly, she was so cold! Her eyes didn't sparkle anymore. She didn't laugh has often has she used to. She always seems on her guard now, and I kept wondering why.
"You're cold."
I had never been good with words, beside in my songs. I didn't show my feeling often too. I close my eyes and I could feel her staring at me.
" Do you hate me?" she murmurs.
I open my eyes. She wasn't looking at me anymore. She was looking at one of my hand, touching my ring. Did I hate her? She took my daughter away from me for three years, she lied to me, and she hurt me...
"No."
But I didn't hate her. At first, yeah I did. But I figure she must have had some reason to act that way, just like I did. She looks at me, surprise I could tell.
"You... you don't?"
I smirked.
"No I don't."
I kiss her again. It became more and more intense, until I took her up and put her on the bed. I need her like the air I breathe. I've never felt this way before for someone else. True, in L.A, I was not a saint, but still, she was all I could think about. Yes, yes she had take away my daughter for three years, she had lied to me, she had hate me, she had make me want to kill, she made me hate her...but she was the light in my life, she took my loneliness away, she was the air I breath, she gave her virginity to me,she had gave me a daughter, she made me laugh, she inspired me for songs, she was the one I wanted to protected, she was the one that took my breath away, she was the one that gave me all those feelings.She was the only one that I ever told my feelings too and she would be the only one.
" I don't hate you, I could never hate you."
I started to gently touch her hair. I could see her eyes watering, then she cludged to me. She started to sob. I hate it when she sobs. All right it was the first time, but still, my heart hurts already. I took her into my arms.
"I'm sorry!" she murmurs, "I'm so sorry Jack! So sorry! You don't hate me, but can you forgive me? I hurt you! I hurt you so bad! Please Jack, forgive me! I need you...I need you so much it's a pity."
I took her chin between my fingers and made her look at me. With my thumbs I erase the trace of her tears and smile kindly at her.
" You've been forgiven a long time ago. I need you too, I just... never really realize it I guess..."
She laughs and then she kissed me. I never wanted to let her go. We made love, slowly, tenderly, taking our time. I engrave her body into my mind, took all of her, to remember. After, I just hold her, happy. Her hand was on my chest and I could hear her silent sigh of happiness. It had been long, too long. She started to sing.
Childhood living is easy to do
The things you wanted I bought them for you
Graceless lady, you know who I am
You know I can't let you slip through my hands
"Amy?"
I had so many questions to ask, and I wanted answer. We were at peace now, so it was the right time to ask.
" Why you never called me?"
She didn't answer immediatly; she just kept rubbing my stomach.
"Because I was angry at first, then ashamed of myself."She had said that in a murmur.
I frown.
"Ashamed of what?"
She kept singing.
Wild horses
Couldn't drag me away
Wild, wild horses
Couldn't drag me away
She sighs.
" Of some things I did."
My hands came to her back, rubbing it. I like her skin, it was soft and strong.
"What things?"
I watched you suffer a dull, aching pain
Now you decide to show me the same
No sweeping exist or offstage line
Can make me feel bitter or treat you unkind.
She sighs again.
"Things."
I look down at her. She seems uncomfortable.
"What things?"
"You'll hate me if I told you."
I just stared at her.
Wild horses
Couldn't drag me away
Wild, wild horses
Couldn't drag me away...
" I won't hate you, you know that. I could never hate you. Tell me."
She shook her head.
"No, you'll be disgusted!"
I felt something cold on my stomach, she was crying. I frowned. What had happen to her? I stood up a bit and took her face in my hands again. I search her eyes, trying to find something, but found nothing.
"Tell me Amy."
She looks away, ashamed. She started to play with my covers.
Faith has been broken, tears must be cried
Let's do some living after we die.
She took a deep breath and started.
"Well, at first I didn't called you because I was angry, but then... something happen." She stops there, fixing my cover, in a memory. I touch her arm, taking her back into reality.
"What happen?"
She bit her lips. She never looks at me.
"I heard some people talking about closing the funds for Jerry's project. They knew who I was, because I live with Evy, so they offered me a job if I said nothing. I didn't want your mom to pay for everything so I said yes...if they didn't shut Jerry's project. He had Daniella and he wanted money for her. They said yes. But then, things started to go wrong.''
She stopped a bit. Singing, to regain some forces.
And wild horses, couldn't drag me away
And wild, wild horses,
We'll ride them someday.
She stopped and continued, closing her eyes this time.
"I saw that Jerry's project was bugging them. But they were man of words so they didn't shut him off. That's when he took control. He shut Jerry's project off and I gave him hell. I told him his man made a promise and that he couldn't do that. After that, I woke up in a...a dark room."
She stopped again. I could feel a feeling coming into my stomach, a feeling of dread. I dread what she was going to say next.
"Then he came to me and show pictures of Eva, Daniella, Camille pregnant with her second child, Jerry and you're mom." Tears were falling from her eyes now and my anger was starting to rise. " He...he told me that if didn't do what he told me to do, I would never see their face again, because he would kill them."
She look at me with her big green eyes, tears in them, she sob.
"They were the only family I had, so I agree."
She stopped there. My heart was beating faster and faster, my anger was rising to the maximum.
"And?"
I knew it hurt her to say it to me, I but wanted to know. I needed to know.
"He...he made me do things to ...to him. I became his bitch. The first time, I cried. He...he liked my ass a lot. He told me not to cry, that he...he would teach me ev...everything...and..And..."
She broke down and I did too. I wanted to kill. I wanted to fire every man in this bloody town until I found the son of a bitch that did this to her. To my girl. I hold her while she cry on my chest. I hold her tight. Like if I let her go, he did come back.
"But...one day Jerry, he found me on the floor, t...trying to get the blood off of myself. I had no choice but to tell him. H..He helped me get out and...and well, since then I barely get out of the house alone."
She had calmed down now. She look at me, fear back in her eyes.
"Are you disgusted? Are you ashamed of me? Do you hate me?"
Tears were back in her eyes now. I look at her, worried, worried for her safety.
"No. I'm not disgusted, not ashamed of you. I don't hate you. You've done what you could to protect your family and I'll do the same. I'll kill the son of a bitch that put his hands on you. I promise, baby, he'll pay. Now, go to sleep."
"Are you going to leave?"
It was asked so low, that I almost didn't hear.
"No.I'm not going to leave. I won't leave you alone anymore. I'm here now. Don't worry. I'll watch over you and Eva until my last breath."
She nodded and went back to sleep on my chest. My jaw was clenched. It took a while for her to fall asleep but she did.
Scared.
She had been scared I'd reject her. She had been scared just like me, but for different reason. I took her closer to me, putting the cover over us. I put my nose in her hair, smelling her and a vision of him doing the same, while she cried, came into my mind. I was going to kill the bastard. Make him suffer, like she suffered. I would made him pleaded, beg. I would break his bone one by one. He was going to pay for touching what belong to me.
Her scent calmed me down a bit. Just a bit. I hug her more tightly. I finished her song:
And wild horses
Couldn't drag me away
Wild,wild horses
We'll ride them someday...
I closed my eyes, laying beside her. I had dreamed of this moment in L.A. And now it was becoming real. I gave a little smile, hiding my fury.
Oh yeah, I must thank Jerry in the morning too.
End of chapter eight!
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there!I hope you enjoy your story!
The song was ''Wild
horses'' from Sarah Mclachlan.It's really good.I'm not really
into slow music,but that one's good!Listen to it while you read
this chapter!(Okay,not really bright to tell you at the end of the
chapter but...anyway!)
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