Hello everybody, I'm back with chapter 5. A longer wait for this one...I know, Senior class has been overwhelming since I'm in 2 advanced classes, which I've never been in before, and have a big paper to do for Government, and the hmwk hasn't been helping as well, and also lots of stuff happening in my life, but I've somehow had enough time to finish ch 5. This was such a hard chapter to write, but I hope everyone's satisfied with it.
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Chapter 5-Dismal Confessions
The three available Titans started to search the Tower again to find Beast Boy.
Robin controlled the search in the surveillance room, mainly focusing on the newly positioned camera that pointed towards the hole.
Thinking of any possible way to get Beast Boy out, Cyborg planted his version of mouse traps all around the tower. The traps were blue spherical traps, with a triggered lid with some cheese and other foods that mice eat in each of them. And when a trap is triggered, an alert would be sent to Cyborg, telling him that a trap had been triggered. After he planted the traps all around the tower, he continued his search.
Starfire quickly checked on Raven to see how she's doing. She knocked on the door and heard no answer. "Raven?" she asked softly, but there was still no reply. "Raven? May I come in, please?" She tried to open her door, but only found that the door was locked. "You must be resting. I will come back later to see if you are awake." Starfire walked away from Raven's room and continued to search for Beast Boy.
Back in the surveillance room, Robin kept on looking at the monitors to see if the green mouse would appear anywhere, but haven't yet. Five...ten...twenty...thirty minutes went by and Robin saw no change in the cameras, besides the movement of the Cyborg and Starfire looking in the other rooms around the tower looking for their lost friend.
About fifteen minutes later, Starfire called in, "Robin, Cyborg and I so far have checked the tower inside and outside once, and we have found no signs of Beast Boy. Have you found anything at all, yet?"
Robin looked up at the few monitors to see where they are, and they showed that both Cyborg and Starfire were in the common room, standing, looking at Starfire's communicator, worried. He picked up the communicator from the table and spoke back. "Nothing, Starfire. Search the tower again."
"Okay, Robin." Starfire closed the communicator, and looked at Cyborg.
Cyborg sighed, "Well, you heard him. Let's look again." With that, they started the search again.
Robin continued to look at the monitors. He saw a few of the monitors showing Starfire searching the gym, while other monitors showed Cyborg walking into his room from the hallway. He then looked at all the other viewable monitors, and all showed nothing like before.
Five more...twenty more...thirty more minutes went by, and still nothing. Meanwhile, Robin gave a boring-like sigh and looked at his right and saw a pen on the table. He picked the pen up and dangled it in his right hand where he could see both the pen and the monitors, and looked at it. There was nothing interesting with the pen, just a solid black pen with just the Titans' logo on it, but Robin was looking at it with interest, twisting it back and fourth. While still looking at the monitors, he placed the pen between his fingers on his right hand, brought the hand to the table, and tilted his hand to the right then left quickly making both ends of the pen to make a tapping noise.
He did this for a long time...just playing with the pen, looking at the monitors, and thinking about stuff, all at once. His mind drifted to many different things. Mostly he was thinking about where Beast Boy could possibly be, or what if they can't find him, or if they do find him, what scenarios could possibly happen between Beast Boy and Raven.
And he also thought about how Raven was doing. He, as well as the rest of the Titans, was really worried and concerned about her. Robin thought about what she could be feeling now from this, which then made him think about how her powers were reacting now. But he knew that Raven still needed time to herself to try to calm down.
But during all of those thoughts, he sometimes drifted to what he was doing before the accident, which was trying to find a lead to where Slade could be since his last appearance/sort of alliance with the Titans during the battle against Trigon. Earlier, he found a possible clue of where he could be, and started to look into it. Then, this whole mess started to happen and he had to deal with this now.
Other times, he thought about Starfire. He thought about how beautiful she was, or how her powers were really awesome, or about her happy, energetic, and fun personality that she has. He knew he liked her, he liked her a lot, and a few months ago, they reached a new status in their relationship when the Titans were accidentally stuck and separated on an unknown planet. Robin also thought about that incident and about their relationship now and their relationship in the future several times.
All of these extra thoughts were interrupting what he really needed to be thinking about, but just looking at monitors for a few hours trying to find a mouse can make anyone think about many different things.
All of a sudden, Robin heard Starfire's voice coming from the communicator, "I have a real bad felling about this right now, Robin."
"Yeah. We checked this place inside-out four times already and the rodent still hasn't appeared," said Cyborg. "Plus, none of the traps have been triggered yet."
'Four times already, wow, that went by quickly.' He looked at the clock and saw that almost three hours went by, 'Or not.' Robin thought for a while think of what to do now, "Well...I guess search the tower one more time. If we can't find him this time, then we have to search the entire city."
Meanwhile, Raven came back from her mind, landing on her bed on her back. She slowly sat up and looked around her tsunami-hit-liked room, "Well...that was interesting," she said quietly, smiling due to the fact that she just discovered that she was in love with Beast Boy. Raven kept on thinking about what all of her emotions had said to her, about what they thought and felt about Beast Boy.
Then she realized that she needed to help the other Titans to find Beast Boy, "Guess I gotta help them now." She got up, and started to head to the door. When she got to the door, she heard someone yelling outside her door, it was Cyborg.
"SEARCH THE ENTIRE CITY!" Cyborg shouted, "Man, this is getting ridiculous! He could be anywhere at this rate! He might not even be in the city! For heck sakes, he could be lost somewhere, far away from the city, or maybe he left us forever and might not come back!"
"Cyborg, that won't happen."
"Yes, Robin is right. Beast Boy would not run away from us," Starfire said, reassuring Cyborg.
"Hope not. I'm just-" Cyborg just felt his arm vibrate, telling him that one of his traps was activated. "I think I've foun-" was all what Raven heard though her door as Cyborg's voice was getting weaker as he walked away from her room.
Raven felt her heart sink, hard. The thought of the person that she loved, leaving her because of what she did, hit her badly. She pressed her back to her door and slid down it until she sat by the door, with her knees up, her elbows on her knees, her hands under her elbows, and her head on her arms. "No! Beast Boy! No!" Raven somberly said loudly.
Robin's attention quickly to the two blank monitors that were supposed to show Raven's room, where he heard Raven speaking. 'Wow, can't believe that the audio censors still work. I thought that they were broken from Raven's powers.' He stopped thinking to himself, turned up the volume in Raven's room, and continued to hear what Raven was saying.
"I'm sorry, Beast Boy. I'm sorry that I had over reacted to you." He heard that her voice was all shaken and had a really upset tone to it and sounded that she was starting to sob a little, "I'm sorry that I made you scared, and I'm sorry that the others can't find you now, and now you're probably not going to come back. It's my entire fault for you leaving. Please, Beast Boy! Please don't leave us! The team needs you back, your friends need you back, I...," Raven paused and sniffled a bit, "...I need you back, Beast Boy."
Robin chocked on his own saliva from what Raven had just said and confessed about Beast Boy, "Am I hearing things, or...did I just hear Raven confess that she...and...Beast Boy?"
He became quiet as he heard Raven continuing to speak, still shaken and upset, "I need you! Don't leave, Beast Boy! Please don't leave! I want to see you again. I want to hear your voice again. I want to be with you...You've always been there when things are bad. You've tried to make everyone happy, especially me, and all I've done was throwing sarcastic remarks and anger to you, but I've never been really angry at you, and I'm sorry for all of those things that I've ever said and done to you...
"Please, don't leave me! I want to be near you again. I want to hold you again, Beast Boy! I'm sorry! I want you back with us; with me...Don't leave me, Beast Boy! Don't leave me! And...and if you don't leave, please don't hate me for this. It's my fault that this happened. You didn't do anything wrong, I did. I don't want you to be sacred of me at all. When I saw you as that mouse, when I saw you look at me after what I did, and when I saw you run away from me like the way you did, you have no idea how bad I felt...I felt disgust to myself that one of the best people that I have ever known might not be with me again...
"I'm sorry! I'm not blaming you; I'm blaming myself for this. I just want you back, Beast Boy. I want you back with me. I want you to like me like the way that I like you because...because I love you, Beast Boy! There, I said it! I love you, and now I think you'll hate me so much that you won't love me at all...I'm so sorry, Beast Boy! I love you! Please forgive me! Forgive me."
What Robin heard next were more sobs coming from the busted monitors until he heard the sobs abruptly stop because Raven's powers finally broke the audio sensors.
He sat there in shock, hearing Raven being so emotional, and saying that she loves Beast Boy. Robin just sat there, 'I can't believe what I just heard. Wow. Never saw that one coming.' He then remembered the question that Cyborg asked Robin, the question about Raven having special feelings towards Beast Boy, and then both of them laughed it off, both thinking that it would never happen. "I guess...that we were wrong."
Robin kept on thinking about that until Cyborg shouted through the communicator with excitement, "Hey, Robin, I got him!"
Robin was ecstatic, "Where?"
"Oh yes, where, Cyborg? Where?" Starfire said, pleased that Beast Boy was found.
"One of the traps got him, back in his room."
Robin looked at the few working monitors in the hallway that was near Beast Boy's room, since everything thing in his room was destroyed, and saw one of the monitors that showed that Cyborg was holding one of his spherical trap in front of the corresponding camera. The trap concealed a small green mouse, banging and clawing the trap trying to escape, with some bait in it. "Guess Mouse Boy, here, finally got hungry."
"Well at least he didn't leave that tower," said Robin.
"Yes. This is most wonderful news. May I tell Raven the good news?" Starfire eagerly asked.
"I think you better, Star. After what I heard, she'll be really glad to hear this."
"Why? What happened?"
"I'll tell you later, Star."
"Okay, I will tell Raven this news, and then I will go to the kitchen and make some pudding of happiness for our victory of finding our lost friend."
"Uhhh...you go do that, Starfire. I'll go talk to Beast Boy in his room to see if he's alright."
"K, Cyborg. I'll be there in a minute to help you."
"Got it." Cyborg, Starfire, and Robin turned their communicators off.
Cyborg brought the trap into Beast Boy's room and closed the busted door the best he can. He opened the trap cover, takes the green mouse out, and puts him on the floor. All of a sudden the green mouse turns back into Beast Boy, sitting on his knees, with a sad and unhappy look on his face.
"Dude...so uncalled for," Beast Boy said in a not so happy tone.
"Hey, we're lucky that we got you here and we didn't have to search the entire city."
Beast Boy still seemed depressed, "Yeah...but still-"
"Hey, Beast Boy," Robin said happily, interrupted Beast Boy as he opened Beast Boy's door and tried to close it, but the door fell towards the hallway.
"Hey, Robin," Beast Boy said, still with his sad tone.
"Err...Sorry about that." Robin said rubbing the back of his head, laughing a little bit nervously.
Robin stopped laughing and everyone became silent, and an uncomfortable pause came in the room.
Beast Boy looked around his room, actually having time to take in the destruction that Raven did to it. He gave big sigh, "Great."
The room went silent again.
"So...umm...what happened?" Robin asked, trying to start something.
Beast Boy didn't listen, still giving his room that uncomfortable silence.
"What happened, man?" Cyborg tried to break through Beast Boy's trance-like state.
Beast Boy still didn't listen. He just kept on looking at his room in disbelief, looking at how much damage Raven did to his room for about a minute. "I can't believe it," Beast Boy finally said sadly and quietly.
"I know," Robin said, "Raven sure did a-"
"Why?" Beast Boy asked with a choked-up voice as a tear came trickling down his left eye and sniffled a little.
"Well, Ra-"
"Why me?" Beast Boy interrupted with his voice getting louder. "Why does my life have to suck so badly?" His voice was getting louder and angrier as he clenched both of his fists. "Why does every big thing in my life have to end up so crappy and things always go the wrong way for me? Why can't anything go the right way for me for a change? WHY?" Beast Boy slammed his fists to the ground as more tears came out of him and he leaned forward, bringing both of his hands to his face, trying to stop the tears from coming out of his eyes.
Both Robin and Cyborg were surprised with the sudden change in Beast Boy's mood and tone. Then Robin tried to step in carefully. "Beast Boy, what do you mean that your life sucks badly and that every big thing in your life always goes the wrong way for you? You have a great life now. You're a Titan, a hero; you save lives and protect people, and-"
"But those are little things to me, Robin! You don't get it! It's more than that! Much more!" Beast Boy shouted back taking his hand away from his face revealing that his angry and sad face was wet with tears, and more were coming out.
"Then tell us why you think that your life is that horrible, Beast Boy," Cyborg said.
Beast Boy stood up and pointed a finger at Robin and Cyborg, "You wanna know? Fine!" Beast Boy snapped, "First, I become green as an infant as a side effect of my parents creating a cure for a rarely and deadly disease that I got! Try living your life as a green person when you're that young. Everyone looking and staring at you and walking away from you 'cause you're green! Second, I lose my mom and dad, the only two people who ever loved me, in a freak accident when I was really young! Third, I get treated unfairly and looked down upon by my faux father because he thought that I was never good enough! Later in life, I fall in love with some girl and later find out that she was a traitor, and then, she dies! And now, the girl that I've had a crush on, way before the first girl, and now have fallen in love with, will never love me due to some STUPID ACCIDENT!"
Robin and Cyborg remained silent from what they just heard as Beast Boy breathed heavily for a while until his hard breathing had turned back into sobs, looking at the ground, and started to talk down to himself again quietly, "Why do you even try, Garfield? Why?" He blinked hard as another tear came out of his right eye, slowly going down his face until it dropped off his face and hit the ground, where all the other tears have been.
There it is... Ch 5. Okay, it might have been a bit too emotional, but understand the situations that they're in right now in the story.
And also if anyone doesn't know about people snapping, let me tell you, when you snap like they way they both did, its like taking some truth serum, maybe in a negative way since snapping is the cause of a lot of stress and low self-esteem, but you'll tell the truth. Also, when someone snaps, you don't think, you only say the first thing that come comes to your mind. Just wanted to get that out of the way.
Anyways, I hope that I got the parts of BB's history right, and can someone give me any more information about BB's past and any about Raven's past, cuz I think I have something going with using it. Thanks.
Ch 6...might take a while...but stay tuned.