Hey everyone...I'm back with a fresh chapter 6 ready for everyone. This was another difficult chapter to write, but I think it came out good.
Also, I'm sorry that I can't put my replies to your reviews on the chapters anymore. But I'll still reply to everyone with this new feature that this site has given us. So, as everyone probably knows by now, you'll all get a reply from me sooner than having to wait for the up coming chapters to be posted, which is so much better anyways.
Anyhow...enough talking and more reading...hope everyone likes it.
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Chapter 6- Leading Events
Raven sat by her door, still sobbing at the fact that there might be a good chance that Beast Boy will be gone from her, forever. This was a hard thing for Raven to accept, but how could she. One minute, she finds out that she not just likes Beast Boy, but in fact she loves him...and the next...Cyborg unintentionally said that Beast Boy might have left the tower for good. She had finally got herself another chance at love, but her chance was mercifully ripped out of her grasp.
All of that started to change when she heard someone banging on her door.
"Raven? Have you awakened from your rest, yet? Raven?" it was Starfire.
The sudden hard and rapid banging made Raven jump out of her crying spell.
"What is it?" Raven asked, still sitting by her door and moping.
"Oh wonderful. You have awoken. I have come here to deliver you some news about Beast Boy."
Raven started to sniffle, "What, that he had left the tower and he's never coming back?" Raven hated to hear those words come out of her mouth which made her feel even worse than before.
"Well-"
"And the fact that this is my whole fault that he's gone forever?"
"Well n-"
"And also that-"
"No, Raven." Starfire said loud enough so that Raven can stop interrupting her, "None of that has happened."
Raven did stop interrupting Starfire, sniffled loudly, and waited to hear what Starfire was going to say.
Starfire waited a few seconds to make sure that Raven didn't say anything else, and then spoke, "I have come here to tell to you, Raven, is that we were able to find Beast Boy and-"
Raven's door immediately flew right into the hallway, crashing and got stuck in the opposite wall, missing Starfire by only inches. Starfire looked at the blown door for a second, with relief, and turned back to Raven's room.
She saw Raven slowly standing up, with her hood down and had her back facing Starfire, and then turned to Starfire.
Raven was in complete shock. Her body shook slightly, her breathing was faster and heavier than normal, and her face was wet but now had a happy-like look on it.
"You...you found him?" Raven asked nervously.
"Yes, we have found Beast Boy, Raven. You are happy to hear that we have found him, yes?"
Raven didn't say anything. She could only think about the word 'found'...
'Found'...was the only word that Raven needed to hear to make everything change.
'Found'...was the word that made every thought that Raven was previously thinking of go away in an instant.
'Found'...made her heart change from a sinking feeling to a rising one.
'Found'...meant that Beast Boy didn't leave.
The word 'found'...meant that she got her chance back.
"Raven?" Starfire asked, nudging Raven lightly, waiting for a reply.
Raven got out of her thought and slightly smiled at Starfire as her eyes started to tear again, "Starfire," Raven sniffled, "you have no idea how happy I am to hear that."
Starfire smiled back at Raven.
"For a moment there...I thought that I would lose him forever." Raven then gasped, as she realized that she told Starfire that. She immediately sighed and looked down, while blushing furiously.
Starfire picked it up right away, "So, does that mean that you love...?"
Raven's eyes looked at Starfire, gave another slight smile, and sighed again "Yes, Starfire. I...love Beast Boy."
Starfire gave out a loud gasp, "Oh, Raven," Starfire then gave Raven the death-grip hug, "this is such wonderful news. I cannot believe it."
Raven tried to speak as she was quickly losing air, "I know...Star...fire,...but...can you...get...off...of..."
Realized what she was doing, Starfire let go of Raven from her vice-griped hug. Raven bent over, resting her hands on her knees and took in a few deep breaths, trying to get some air back in her lungs, "Sorry," Starfire laughed embarrassedly.
Raven kept on catching her breath, raising a hand to Starfire, "It's ok, Starfire. I'll be fine."
A few seconds went by, and Raven finally caught her breath. She stood up straight, and then Starfire started to speak again, "So does Beast Boy know of this yet?"
"No."
"Are you going to tell Beast Boy about you loving him?"
"I...I don't know," Raven said sadly. "I don't think that-"
"Well, why not tell him now?"
"N...Now?"
"Yes, Raven. Tell him now." Starfire took Raven's left wrist and started to take her to Beast Boy's room, "We will just go to his room and-"
"I can't!" Raven freed her hand from Starfire who looked back at Raven, "I mean...I can't tell him because...well since...what has happened today...I don't think that he would...I just can't."
Starfire kept on looking at Raven with a confused look.
Raven gave a big sigh, "Look, I can't tell Beast Boy because...you know...after what had happened today...I don't think that he likes me, okay?"
"Well, how abo-"
"Starfire, I can't."
"But-"
"Why don't you try to tell Robin how you feel about him, huh?" Raven asked immediately.
Starfire was taken at back by what Raven had asked as some redness was growing on her cheeks," Well...ummm...I think that you still need to apologize to him though, okay?" Starfire was still blushing.
"Fine," Raven accepted, "Guess I gotta," she starting to head towards Beast Boy's room with her head slightly down. Then, Starfire followed.
While they were heading to Beast Boy's room, Raven kept on looking down at the floor. She was really nervous about seeing Beast Boy for the first time since their confrontation. This felt like the-walk-of-death to Raven. Every step she took, she felt her heart beating faster and faster, and felt an uncomfortable feeling in her stomach. She tried to think of what might happen next.
'Okay, Raven, just stay calm. You're just going to see Beast Boy and apologize. That's it. Don't panic, Raven. Just apologize, and hopefully he won't be mad at you to accept the apology. Yeah. He'll accept, and we'll still be friends. Then...,' Raven gave a small smile, '...then the others will leave, which would just leave me and Beast Boy in his room...alone...,' her small smile grew slightly, 'and then...I'll tell him that I love him...' Raven's smile grew to a full one, 'then he'll tell me that he loves me...and then we'll kiss for a really long time and then...,' Raven's big smile turned back to a frown and sighed, 'damn it, Raven! He won't do that. He doesn't like me like that... Just wish he did though.'
Meanwhile, Robin and Cyborg just watched in silence after what had just happened to Beast Boy.
No one in that room had said a word after Beast Boy's explosion. He was just standing there, near the middle of his destroyed room, sobbing and sniffling as a few more tears came out of his eyes and fell to the ground.
Cyborg tired to step in and say something, but Robin looked at Cyborg and slightly waved his hand while mouthing out the words "Not now," telling Cyborg that now isn't the time for them to talk, giving Beast Boy time to let go of his angst without anyone interrupting him.
While they were waiting, they were soaking in what they had just heard from Beast Boy. About how Beast Boy really thinks about himself and that he thinks that the whole world is against him. Also, about how someone that he really cherishes and loves, always seemed to end in a dramatic and/or awful way. This then lead to the last thing that he said when he snapped; about how he had fallen in love with another girl but now thinks that she won't ever love him because of an accident.
Robin knew who Beast Boy was talking about right away, but Cyborg had to think it through for a while until he realized who Beast Boy meant when Beast Boy said "accident."
Cyborg tapped Robin on the shoulder and Robin looked back. He saw Cyborg making him a gesture that showed that Cyborg wanted to talk to him outside Beast Boy's room. Robin nodded and turned back to Beast Boy, "Uh...Beast Boy? We'll be right back, okay?"
"Whatever," Beast Boy said depressed with his back still facing them, not even acknowledging what Robin had said. Robin and Cyborg both shrugged their shoulders and they went outside Beast Boy's room, leaving Beast Boy alone in his room without Beast Boy noticing it.
Once they were outside of Beast Boy's room, they both started to talk quietly so that Beast Boy couldn't hear what they were saying.
Cyborg started, "Man, I can't believe that Beast Boy could be so wound like this."
"Yeah," Robin agreed.
"He's always seems to be the happy one here. Always joking and laughing and looking things on the bright side and cheerin' everyone up with their problems with his humor. But, now he's the one with the problem. Didn't know that he held in so much."
"I know, Cyborg. I guess after what Raven did...it hit him really hard."
"Yeah. It's sad to see him like this."
"I'm just worried about what might happen when Beast Boy and Raven finally see each other since after what happened."
"I didn't know that he even felt that way about her."
"Well, he does."
There was a silence for a few seconds.
"Do you think that Raven also-"
"She does, Cyborg." Robin said sadly, but still quiet enough so Beast Boy still couldn't hear what he was saying.
Cyborg looked stunned, "And how did you know about that? You haven't even talked to her yet."
Robin sighed, "Long story short. When I was in the surveillance room, trying to help you two find Beast Boy, I all of a sudden hear Raven crying about how much she loves him, and how she thought that it was her fault that she made Beast Boy leave the tower when she heard someone yelling in front of her door. Yelling that Beast Boy might have ran away for good." He looked at Cyborg angrily.
"Hey, I didn't know at that time that Beast Boy was still here. So don't blame that on me."
"Yeah, well you still shouldn't have screamed that out right in front of Raven's room."
"You think I was aware that I was in front of her room?"
"Well, you should've-"
"Ummm...Robin?" Both guys stopped arguing and turned their heads when they heard Starfire interrupting their quiet argument.
They saw Starfire and Raven, walking down the hallway, coming towards their direction. Starfire had the normal worried and concerned look that has been on the three Titans' faces for the past few hours, while Raven didn't look at anyone with her head still looking at the ground.
"Oh...uh...hey Starfire and...um...Raven," said Robin, blushing a little bit.
"Yeah...ummm...what are you two doing here?" asked Cyborg, who was also surprised, as well as Robin was when Starfire had interrupted them.
"We were coming here to see how Beast Boy was doing," Starfire said.
"Well, you're not gonna find a happy Beast Boy in there, for sure," Cyborg said while pointing his thumb to Beast Boy's room.
"Why? What has happened when you talked to him?" Starfire asked
Cyborg continued, "Ever since we found him, he has been pretty upset. And then when we tried to talk to him, he snapped at us, saying that his entire life has been awful and all that kind of stuff."
"Yeah, and now he's just crying in there, not saying anything else," Robin said sadly.
All of the four Titans went to Beast Boy's room and looked into the room. Cyborg and Robin were looking in from their right side of the open door, as Starfire and Raven were looking in from their left side of the door frame. What they saw was what Robin had just said, Beast Boy was still standing away from the door, still sniffling and sobbing while more tears fell from his face.
Starfire opened her mouth a little bit as she saw her friend being this sad. "Poor Beast Boy," Starfire said silently.
Raven felt a bad feeling inside her as she saw Beast Boy moping in his room. She desperately wanted to run into his room and give Beast Boy a big hug and hold him so that he can stop crying and try to make everything better, but she couldn't. What was holding her back was the fear of what Beast Boy's reaction might be. She was too nervous to go in because she thought that Beast Boy might snap and yell at her also.
Raven couldn't look in and see him like that anymore. She went to one of the walls that was dividing the hallway and Beast Boy's room, and leaned against it. Her eyes were getting wet again when she pictured the image of Beast Boy crying, 'What have I done?'
Starfire, Robin, and Cyborg kept on looking inside Beast Boy's room, where Beast Boy sniffled hard and sniffled again. He felt real terrible about himself and he wanted this longing pain to go away. 'Why me?' he always asked himself, 'Why do I have to suffer like this? What did I do to deserve this, huh? What did I do? It's always my fault.' Beast Boy sobbed as he tried to wipe his tears away. 'I always mess things up and can't get anything right. Or I mess things up and always get in the way of things,' Beast Boy sighed, 'in front of Robin, in front of Cyborg, in front of Starfire,...'
He started to walk to his broken bunk bed, stepping all over the debris in his room. When he got to his supposed to be bunk bed, he looked at it for a while. The bunk bed was collapsed and split in half, the mattresses were severely bent and some of the spring coils were coming out of it, his sheets were ripped into many places, and the feathers in his pillows were thrown all around the floor and bed. He then sat down and then looked around his room again to see what Raven did to it.
Robin, Cyborg, and Starfire quickly hid behind the walls for a few seconds, and looked back in to see Beast Boy looking down at the debris by his feet.
He wiped away more tears that were falling from his face, '...and especially in front of Raven. But...I can't help it. Every time that I'm around Raven, I always get that warm-funny feeling inside me. That feeling that makes me wants to be with her at all times. The feeling that I've never felt since my parents were alive. I mean...I love her. I love everything about her. She smart, has an awesome personality, and has awesomely creepy powers. Her face is so beautiful, especially when she smiles, which makes her face look ten times more beautiful. She has such a good looking body that goes perfectly with her face. And her eyes, dude, I can't stop looking at them. They look like that they hold everything that Raven tries to hide and then some, and I want to find out what that is, but I can't because I always mess up and act like an idiot. I want to tell her that I love her, but now, after what I did, I don't think that I can ever say that to her.'
Beast Boy felt tense when he kept on thinking about it, "Why does this have to happen to me?" Beast Boy asked quietly. But, he heard another voice ask the exact same question from outside his room. His ears and head shot straight up when he heard the voice. The voice sounded very familiar to him... it sounded like...
"Raven?" Beast Boy called out with confusion. He knew that that voice was Raven's, he just knew it. He could pick up her voice from anywhere, in any place, in any crowd, anywhere. Beast Boy looked at his door, where he saw the other three holding onto his door frame, looking into the hallway, on Beast Boy's right side, where they saw Raven leaning against the wall, who looked shocked.
Raven's eyes widen when she heard Beast Boy say her name, 'Fuck! He heard me!' She was nervous and her heart beating faster and faster didn't help also as she was trying to think of what to do next. 'Maybe if I stay quiet, then maybe he won-' was all that Raven had time to say as she heard her powers blow up one of the hallway surveillance cameras in the background, making it obvious to Beast Boy that Raven was near by.
Beast Boy got up from his broken bed and took a slow step towards his door. He was still surprised that he heard Raven's voice, "R...Raven?" Beast Boy called out again. "Is...is that you? Raven?"
Knowing that she was caught, Raven stepped away from the wall and nervously walked towards Beast Boy's room. 'Well,' Raven gulped, 'this is it...I guess.'
Beast Boy kept on looking at the doorway where he still saw Cyborg, Robin, and Starfire looking at their left, which indicated where Raven was hiding. Beast Boy was still confused, 'Why was she near by? How long has she been there? Wh-' his thought was interrupted when he saw Raven slowly walking into Beast Boy's view, from the hallway and then nervously walked into his room.
There was pin drop silence in his room. Beast Boy and Raven were both really nervous and both felt their heart beating like crazy. They thought that they were on death row. No one knew what to do next. Both Raven and Beast Boy stared at each other, then quickly looked away, then looked back at each other, then back away again, and then back at each other again. They tried to look away from one another, but they couldn't keep their eyes away from each other.
Raven tried to start to say something, "Errr...-"
Starfire quickly interrupted, "Um...Raven came here to...uhhh...apologize to you, Beast Boy."
"Yeah...," said Cyborg, "...umm...we'll be right back to...umm...-"
"Go and get some new furniture for both of your rooms," said Robin.
Robin grabbed Starfire's arm, "Come on guys. Let's go." Robin pulled Starfire and she followed Robin and Cyborg to the garage. "We'll be right back!" Robin shouted as his voice was getting quieter and quieter.
Now here they were, Beast Boy and Raven...in Beast Boy's room...together...alone...
Now before anyone starts to think...let me just say this...there's probably going to be 2 chapters left. There was supposed to be1 chapter left because my initial idea for this chapter was supposed to be much longer than it is now. But, I thought that splitting that really long idea into 2 normal size chapters instead of 1 super long chapter is a better idea (even though that this is the longest chapter in the story so far).
And I'm also thinking of making a Bonus Chapter for this story when it ends, but I'm not sure yet.
Oh...and I'm still looking for information on BB's and Raven's pasts. I've gotten so much information so far and I would like to thank everyone who did (you'll all be credited when that chapter is posted), but the more information that I get, the much easier it is to decide what to put in and what not to. Thanks a lot.
Keep on reviewing, and ch 7 will come as soon as possible.
Happy Thanksgiving to all the American readers!