Disclaimer: I don't own Narcissa.

AN: So this is the end, as in the last chapter. I will miss having my reviewers review, even if there were only FIVE reviews. Ahem.

All of these, in case I haven't said this, take place at different points in their lives. Like this one isn't all Narcissa's fourth year or something.

I really liked writing this one. It was fun. And to any questions or comments about Narcissa not being evil enough: I was trying to make Bella very evil, Andromeda on the side of the Muggle borns, and Narcissa torn between but eventually going to Bella's side. Narcissa still is unsure of her decision, but she can't back out now.

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Are we pure? Are we really? I'd like to think so, but I'm not sure sometimes. I've seen how Bella treats the Muggleborns at school and that makes me think that we aren't. But do they deserve to be here? Purebloods have had magic in the family for centuries going years back. But aren't some Muggleborns extremely good?

I don't know what to think anymore.

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Bellatrix is the beauty. She has always been. She has long dark thick hair and deep eyes. I wish I could be that pretty. She has lots of ambition. She wants to be one of the new Dark Lord's servants- the new Dark Lord that there have been whispers about.

Andromeda is the… smart one. She has always done well at Hogwarts. She's shy. She has long brownish-blonde hair and large blue eyes. You never would guess that we are all sisters. She doesn't think Bella has the right way of thinking. She doesn't think any of us have the right way of thinking.

I don't really know what I am. People say I am pretty, but I think I'm too skinny. If I wear green, which is often, since I am in Slytherin, I look like a weed. Or a stalk of grass. I think I am too pale. I have a friend with beautiful creamy golden skin. I have always wished for skin like that. My hair is almost white it's so blonde.

You would never guess that the three of us are sisters. And we really are different. The only thing that really brings us together is the secrets we share.

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I am friends with Sirius I guess. He's nice and funny and sarcastic. And handsome. Not that I think of him that way. Gross.

But he was put into Gryffindor. GRYFFINDOR! How could he? Our whole family has been put into Slytherin for centuries! And then he has to go and get himself into the worst House!

He is so arrogant sometimes. He thinks that we can only think his way.

He is sort of like Bella in that respect.

He'd kill me for saying that.

He hates Bella. I can see why.

But why?

I feel so hot. And my throat hurts. I think I have a fever.

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I did have a fever and missed three days of classes. Three days! That is a lot of homework. There is one person who can help me though. Severus Snape. He is younger than I am, but he is extremely smart.

I am smart in some classes, like Charms or Arithmancy, but with Potions and Transiguration, count me out.

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I have just found out that Sirius has been hanging with Muggle born people. How could he? We are not supposed to at all. If his mother and father found out, he would be beaten for his, um, rebuttal against them.

The Muggle born witch is Lily Evans. I hate her. She is so snobby, and stuck-up, and arrogant, and mean. She has red hair which is always tangled and dirty and bright green eyes. They make her look like- something bad. I can't think of it right now.

Why do I hate her so much? I don't really know.

I just do.

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Andromeda has been acting strangely. She has been sneaking out and then lying about it. I think it is about some boy. Bellatrix will tease her about him if she finds out, so she is keeping him a secret.

Wouldn't it be a laugh if it was Muggle born wizard?

Ha!

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Oh my goodness. It is a Muggle born. I mean, He is. I can't believe she's been doing that! Now she and Sirius will be beaten. Great.

I have to keep it a secret. If Bella finds out, she will tell Mother and Father, and Meda will be cast out.

I'll miss her if that happens. For all her odd ways, she is very loving and kind.

What is going to happen to her?

I hope nothing bad.

But hoping doesn't always work.

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I hate Sirius. I hate him. AS I write this, my cheeks are flushed, and I am shaking.

He just yelled at me because I was in Slytherin. He said, and I quote, "All you Slytherins care about is power! At least Gryffindor cares about something good! All you care about is yourself!"

I stalked away, shaking with rage. I cannot believe him.

At least we Slytherins aren't obsessed with saving other people and trying to look heroic when we are really just fat lazy stupid annoying gits!

I can't believe him!

I HATE HIM.

I will never speak to him again. Never. He is so stupid and dumb and all he cares about is getting girls to like him! He and his friends Potter, Lupin, and Pettigriew only care about themselves.

I am never going to even think about him.

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Bellatrix found out.

She found out.

And Andromeda is going to be cast out.

I have to do something.

But what can I do?

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I did it. I stopped her. I nearly used a horrible curse on Bellatrix, but it worked. She's not going to tell Mother and Father about Ted Tonks and Andromeda for a long time.

I'll make sure of it.

Oh yes, his name is Ted Tonks. How funny that would be if she got married to him. Andromeda Tonks.

Hmm…

Who will I get married to?

Bella thinks that Mother and Father are going to make her and Lucius Malfoy a couple. She is quite triumphant about it. She would be heartbroken if it didn't happen.

It wouldn't happen to Meda though. If it did, she would surely run away with Ted. That actually seems rather romantic.

What if it was me? What if I was married to Malfoy? I don't know him at all. He does rather look like me, with his pale skin and hair, but marriage isn't all about looks. For us, it is about being pure.

Us and pure. What is it with those words? I mean, Sirius and Andromeda certainly don't think we are. Especially Sirius. But what do I think?

Does it matter what I think? I am the youngest daughter, hardly worth anything. I am neither pretty nor smart, and I don't have any great attributes, like being a wonderful flier.

It matters what Bella thinks. She is the oldest, the one who dangles power above our heads. I don't know about Meda though. She is often in a world of her own dreaming dreams that will never come true.

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Oh no. No, no, no, no, no. It can't be happening.

I am going to be married to Lucius Malfoy.

That- that thing is going to be married to me when I have graduated! I have seen what he does to the younger children at Hogwarts. He makes them do all his errands and then bullies them to no end. I can't be married to a person like that!

But he is rather handsome I suppose.

And he is a pureblood, like it should be.

Bella is going to kill me.

She wanted so desperately to be married to Malfoy and now it is ruined. She wanted the powerful husband; she wanted to be the first to marry.

But she graduates before me, in the spring. One year after Malfoy does. They might very well have someone for her by then.

I have got to stop calling him Malfoy.

Lucius.

It sends shivers up my spine. It is a cold sounding name, like a great thick icicle ready to fall on your head.

Lucius and Narcissa.

Narcissa Malfoy.

I don't want it to happen, but I can't stop thinking about it.

Now Bellatrix will get back at me. Between the Andromeda and Ted incident and this, she will have her revenge.

I just hope it isn't too horrible.

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Andromeda is gone forever. She has been gone for three years now. Mother and Father cast her out of the family whn Bella told them.

I am going to be married tomorrow, in the afternoon. My dress is beautiful. There are diamonds sprinkled all over it. They glint and shine in the light. I have pale skin showing but not too much. Nothing of my chest stands out. That was my demand. If I was to marry him, he would not see my body until the wedding night.

I still can't believe it.

I don't want it to happen.

But I want to be pure.

I really do.

I couldn't stand to be sent away like Andromeda and Sirius, cast out of the family with nowhere to go.

So pure is the only choice.

My wedding day is tomorrow.

But I wish it weren't

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I have a child.

Draco Malfoy.

My dragon.

I lovingly caress his head as I write this.

It has been days since he was born, but I am still in shock. I wonder what kind of person he will turn out to be like? I wonder what kind of mother I will be?

Will Draco think that the world is pure or nothing? Will he be like Andromeda and Sirius and break the rules of purebloods?

I wish I was a Seer, so I could foretell his future and try to prevent the hardships he faces.

Even now, I still wonder if I made the right choice. It is too late to back out of it now.

I wonder what life would have been like if I had chosen not to be pure.

Fin