Eptag for "Control" House POV. House/Cam.
This one is about House analyzing the day later, at home, with a scotch.
Not mine, just borrowing. I'll put them back once i'm done.
DO
YOU?
She stood there, watching me, analyzing me, daring me to
answer,
those few seconds felt like hours
i was fighting with
myself
i wanted to say yes, but couldn't bring myself to do it
i
wanted to make her happy.
I wondered what she would've done had i
said yes
Probably just smile and go to work.
I guess i'll never
know
I can't tell her. I can't let her in
It can't only
bring pain and she doesn't deserve that
Why,oh,why, couldn't
she like chase? They'd be a good match
Oh,god, what am i
saying?
Chase and cameron? That'd be horrible
They'd be
cuddling and kissing...how distasteful
Still, she'll probably
end up married to a doctor
One that's not me
People know
about this "thing". They love to talk
Cuddy,Wilson, even
Vogler knows
Chase and Foreman haven't got a clue, have they?
And
neither does she. Or doesn't believe it, i don't know
Somedays
she's like an open book, and other she's more closed than me
But
there's a difference.
She's willing to open up.
She has let
me in sometimes. Told me about her dead husband.
Sometimes i wish
i could do the same
But i'm too damaged.
There's no going
back.
I can't have her.
I don't know if i can have
anyone
Doesn't matter.
I don't want anyone else