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A/N: This update will be one of the quicker ones because school is starting soon, and I'll be super busy. Never fear, though, if I don't update in a real long time after this you can throw food at me. ;) By the way, thanks to those who reviewed. Chapter 17 was the most reviewed chapter. Yeah!

"Turning It Around"

They watched from the window as Frank revealed himself to Alice as her secret admirer. Lily and Allie sighed happily as Alice threw her arms around Frank in pure joy.

Allie turned to look at Lily.

"Did you know?" she asked.

"About Frank?" Lily asked still looking down at her two friends.

"Yeah," Allie responded.

Lily nodded her head. "I gave Frank the idea of being Alice's secret admirer. He told me he liked her, but he didn't know how to confront her."

Allie leaned against the window sill. "I'm glad you did. I want to see them happy." Lily smiled and silently agreed.

"Do you know what this means now?" Allie asked her smiling. Lily shook her head.

"If they get married, Alice is going to be my sister-in-law!" she cried out in excitement. Lily laughed aloud making her friend do the same.

She looked down at the couple to see them leaning towards each other. Silently, Lily closed the window.

"We shouldn't disturb," she said to Allie.

"We'll leave them to confess their love for each other," Allie said winking. She then left the room. Lily went to lie down at her bed.

Silence filled the room as she looked up and stared at the ceiling, thinking. James had spoken few words to her, and vice versa, since they came back to Hogwarts, but it was a start. Her heart still yearned for his love, but she controlled her hormones. They had made it clear to one another that they would move on and just be friends.

James had succeeded. Why can't I?

To Lily it had seemed so easy for James to move.

Did I really push him that far? Was I too harsh?

Lily laughed bitterly at the thought. Back then she wanted to get James as far away from her as possible that she might have just pushed him over the edge. Now that she wanted him she felt like she didn't have the power or strength to pull him back over.

Slowly, tears begin gathering and silently fell on to her bed sheet, leaving small, wet stains. Tonight, Lily decided, she would relax by the lake. She desperately needed it. With that Lily closed her eyes and tried to forget.

…

LATER:

"Don't start, Padfoot," James warned.

"Prongs…" Sirius started.

"Padfoot," James warned again, "don't."

Sirius grumbled as he sat down on his bed.

"I know what you're trying to do," James said, "and I'm not falling for it."

Sirius stared at James. "Prongs, you're the closest thing I have to a brother, and I'm not going to sit here and watch you make the biggest mistake of your life."

"And what's that?" James asked.

Sirius sighed. "Don't pick Michelle, pick Lily. You know you want to. She's the one that makes you truly happy. She's the one for you, mate."

"I think I know who's best for me," James said rather calmly. "I'm staying with Michelle." Sirius groaned.

"I don't want you to regret later on," Sirius advised.

"Why would I regret?"

"You're not over her. Go after her before she gets over you."

"I'm over Lily. We're just friends."

"Is that really what you want, to be just friends?" Sirius asked him with one of his eyebrows lifted.

"I don't need to hear this, Padfoot," James said as he got up from his seat. He grabbed his invisibility cloak and left. Sirius sighed.

At least I tried. I'm sure Prongs will think it through now.

…

Lily wrapped her cloak and blanket tighter around her. She stared out at the dark, clear lake. Lily sighed, being outside by the rippling water always clamed her down. Lily closed her eyes and sharpened her hearing. Crickets and leaves rustling filled the air.

Lily began to hum and then slowly her voice surfaced. Her clear, soft, sweet, beautiful voice filled the air around her. Lily was beginning to feel a lot better about things.

"Lily?"

Startled, Lily stopped singing and spun around, her eyes wide and wand drawn. When she saw it was James she sighed.

"James, I thought it was someone else. Sorry." She dropped her wand and placed it in her cloak.

"You want to sit?" Lily asked, patting the ground next to her. James smiled and nodded. Lily turned around and stared at the lake again.

James sat down on the slightly damp grass and turned to look at Lily.

"You have a really beautiful voice," he complimented her.

Silence.

James glanced over at her and noticed a blush creep onto her face.

"I don't like singing in front of people," Lily finally said, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.

"You should do it more often," James said. Lily looked at him.

"Sing in front of others," he clarified. "You're really good."

Again Lily blushed. "Thanks," she said.

Silence filled the air as both of them stared out at the vast lake.

"What are you doing out here?" James asked her, curious.

Lily sighed, "I needed to get my mind off of something. Besides, it's beautiful out here."

"You don't expect me to let you have it all for your self, do you?" she asked jokingly. James laughed.

"It really is quite breathtaking, isn't it?" Lily nodded her head and took a great big inhale of air.

"Just spectacular," Lily said as she threw her hands up in the air and lied down. James followed.

"What are you doing out here?" Lily asked.

"To think." Lily wrinkled her nose at the answer.

"That's boring," she said.

James laughed, "Thanks."

Lily smiled and looked up at the stars. James turned his head and stared at Lily. Lily, feeling eyes on her, turned her head to be greeted by James'. She smiled.

"Do you think this is weird?" James suddenly asked.

"What?" Lily asked. James used his hand to prop himself up onto his side.

Staring down at Lily, he said, "This relationship." The sparkle in Lily's eyes disappeared.

"Friendship?" Lily asked.

"Kind of," James said awkwardly. Lily raised her eyebrows.

"Our relationship is more complicated then that, you know it."

Lily sighed, "I suppose, but I don't want it to be."

"Me neither," James grumbled. "It's so complicated and confusing." Lily remained silent and listened, but James didn't say any more.

Lily lied there wondering if this meant James…

Stop hoping, stop dreaming.

Lily sighed. She stood up and brushed the grass off of her clothes.

"I'm going in," she told James. James got up.

"Same, it's getting chilly."

Silence started the walk, but halfway there James needed to know.

"Lily?"

"Hmm."

"Is this really how we're supposed to end up?" Lily glanced at him for a second.

"I don't know. This wasn't really how I imagined it." James nodded his head understandingly.

"I always saw is together, happy," James confessed truthfully. Lily smiled shyly

"It didn't turn out that way," Lily said. James nodded sadly.

"Do you want it to?" James asked suddenly out of the blues. Lily looked at him; not expecting him to asked her that.

Of course she wanted that. She wanted them to be a couple and happy, but James wanted…

Why is he confusing me? We had ever thing planned. We were to be friends, and it was going just fine. Why is he bringing this up?

Unable to answer, Lily shrugged. "It doesn't matter what I want right now. What do you want?"

James stopped in his track. Lily stopped too. He looked at her; she gave him a small, sad smile and then went on her way. James just stood there watching her leave, again.

…

James' POV

What do I want? Did I really move on? Do I really want to live the rest of my life without Lily? I promised myself that I wouldn't let my heart be broken again. I promised myself Lily wouldn't shatter my heart again, but what if…

A/N: Okay, I need some feedback on this chapter. I'm feeling that this wasn't my best chapter, but it is important for the "blank". (Fill in the blank) ;). Hahaha, I'm so evil.

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A fan of this story: the title is French. It means literally, "Goodbye to Low self confidence" I felt like if the title was in English it would sound stupid, so I decided to make a French title. Titles that look or sound different attract my attention.

Important:

I am not doing a sequel, but I will be writing other stories.