Rating: PG for mild use of language.
Disclaimer: Firstly, I want to say that I don't own any of the Harry Potter characters. They obviously belong to J. K. Rowling. I also do not own the "Turn back Time" lyrics (which I changed a bit). They belong to "Aqua" and their record company. If for any reason anyone tries to sue me, they won't get much out of it because I only have $4.79.
Note: OK! My friend read this before I posted it and said that it was a bit confusing, so I decided to write a bit of background info. Ginny hadn't seen anyone she know for 12 years because she ran out of Hogwarts (the reason is in the short story). Now, she decided to see how her lost love is doing… I know it might sound a bit confusing and all over the place, but it actually makes sense-oh, I think that it's pretty obvious who I made Harry's wife in the story--oh and stop telling me that that could never happen! I know that-this is Fan Fiction!
If only I could…
Ginevra sat on a bench between platforms 3 and 4 at Kings Cross station. This bench has been her bed for he past 3 months. Ever since she was thrown out of the bench between platforms 1 and 2, she had a difficult time finding a new home, but then she found this bench. She wouldn't have picked it, but it appeared special to her, because some muggle guy has tagged his name on it.
"Harry" it said in big bubbly letter across the seat.
'Harry.' thought Ginny, as a muggle song came over the announcement speakers at the platform.
Give me time to reason,
Give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
Where I cheated you
Suddenly Ginny remembered what had happened to her 12 years ago…
Flashback
Ginny still had tears in her eyes, when she felt Harry touch her hand. When she looked over at him, she saw him nodding towards the lake. She nodded and followed him.
"You know that I love you, Ginny." said Harry.
"I know you do." Ginny answered looking into Harry's beautiful emerald eyes. They have lost their sparkle. How could they not? Even Ginny's own chocolate-brown eyes didn't look their normal selves and were puffy. She really wanted to say "I love you" back, but she just couldn't.
"Ginny," Harry said. "I love you and that's why I must leave you."
Ginny tried not to look surprised. First Dumbledore dies and now Harry's breaking-up with her. This is the worst end of the term ever.
"Voldemort…" Harry said and Ginny took in a sharp breath, but Harry continued without noticing. "Voldemort has tried to get me through people I love. He used you before to do his bidding. I don't want to endanger your life any more than it already is. I want you to stay away from me as far as possible."
"I understand." Ginny had said. "You're famous, you have more than enough stress on you already. Plus, you're supposed to save us from Him-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. Just remember that I'm not the little girl that you saved from the Basilisk. I'm already old enough to understand the world."
She had sounded so calm and cool, but inside she was crying, and when she got to the Gryffindor common room, she couldn't take it anymore and ran up the stairs to the girls' dormitories where she locked herself inside hers and cried all through the night.
End Flashback
Ginny had felt that she had cheated Harry in some way, by not saying "I love you" back. She had bothered herself for the past 10 years thinking that if she had said "I love you" that horrible day, things would have been so much different now.
I will always have a cross to wear
Ginny pulled away her shirt collar which was very dirty and pulled out from under there a locket. She opened it. Inside, on the right side there was a picture of Harry and Ginny who were constantly looking and smiling at each other. On the left side there was an engraving: H & G FOREVER. They had gotten the identical lockets custom made during a trip to Hogsmeade. When they were still seeing each other, Ginny had always noticed Harry's locket around his neck, but in the sixth year, she never bothered to notice, but she just didn't see it anymore.
But the bolt reminds me I was there
'Famous Harry Potter.' Ginny found herself thinking. 'He was more than a crush to me.'
Flashback
It was Ginny's third year.
Cedric has come up with Cho. Krum had come up with Hermione. Fleur has returned alone, but still returned.
Harry was nowhere to be seen.
Ginny was sitting in the stands with Fred and George at her sides.
"Don't worry, Gin." said George.
"Yeah!" said Fred "He'll be fine."
Twins alone-besides Hermione-were the only ones who knew how she truly felt about Harry. Everyone else thought that she either had a crush on him, or was over him. Fred and good-old George knew that Ginny truly liked Harry very much. She had always daydreamed about going out with Harry and then getting married with him and live a nice long life with him by her side, with a whole bunch of little Harrys and Ginnys running around.
Suddenly Ginny felt herself sob and George put a hand around her.
"Don't cry, Gin." he said. "Harry will come out of there and everything will be fine."
Ginny calmed down a little and then she saw Harry coming out with Rom in one arm and Fleur's little sister in the other. Her heart filled with joy. She was so glad that he was alive.
End Flashback
So give me strength,
To face this test tonight
Ginny had it all figured out.
She had read in the newspapers that Harry's son had been accepted to Hogwarts. She knew that Harry would miss anything just to take his favorite-and only-son to school. He would be coming soon to send his son to platform 9 ¾. This would be Ginny's first time to see Harry in ten years. In fact, it would be her first time in 10 years to see anyone she knew.
If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would make it all alright
The song increase it's volume as it went into the first chorus. Ginny felt her eyes watering, but she shook her head and was back to normal. Without wasting any time, she grabbed her battered Jansport backpack and started making her way to platforms 9 and 10.
Flashback
"Full of muggles!" Mrs. Weasley said as she ran to keep up with Fred and George who were ahead of her. "It's the same every year."
Ginny's mother hated when the platform was crowded because it made it so much harder to get onto the Hogwarts Express platform.
First went in Fred, then George. Percy followed. Only Ron, Ginny, and their mother were still standing when a boy came up to them, pushing a cart.
"Excuse me! Excuse me!" He said. "can you help me? This is my first time and I don't know how to…um…" The boy said.
"How to get onto the platform?" Ginny's mom asked and the boy nodded. When he did so, his bangs bounced up and down and Ginny saw what was unmistakably the sign of the Boy-Who-Lived. She didn't know if anybody else has noticed, but she definitely had.
That whole year, and the summer after Ginny had a big crush on Harry and talked about him all the time. When he came to visit them at the Burrow, Ginny tried to stay clear of him, but she just had her feelings strengthen.
End Flashback
Ginny had never told him how she felt that time, but she really felt like she should've. If she did, things would've turned out different. Maybe Harry would be married to her and they would have a whole bunch of kids.
Ginny slowed down as she reached a bench between the platforms 9 and 10 where she sat.
Soon, she started seeing what were unmistakably Hogwarts bound children, who were disappearing through the wall, without muggles noticing.
All of a sudden, Ginny saw who was unmistakably her old friend Neville Longbottom. He was walking a boy and a girl who appeared to be twins. Ginny wondered who was his wife, but she got her answer soon when she saw a lady wearing shawls running up to Neville.
"Lavender, honey." said Neville. "Good that you're back." Then the four of them disappeared through the wall.
Over the next 10 minutes, Ginny had saw a lot of people from Harry's year and some older ones too. It's like they all decided to have their kids the same year. She even saw her brother Ron and her friend Hermione with the little Emma.
Of course, nobody noticed Ginny. After all, she looked nothing like she did in school. Her hair was all messed up, instead of its usual sleek shiny. She looked like a bum.
At times, Ginny wanted to scream out at the passing wizards and witches, but she held herself back.
Claim your right to science
Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you
Then Ginny noticed Harry.
She couldn't not notice him-or his spouse. Harry was pushing a cart with his son's trunks on it. Harry looked almost the same as he did the last time she saw him, but a bit different. For starters, he had a much better build.
'Probably from all those years for playing for Chuddley Canons.' thought Ginny.
Those emerald eyes stood out a mile, and even though it was covered by his bangs, Harry's famous scar was showing through a bit.
Harry's son was a copy of his father-except the scar. Little James didn't have one.
As the family passed Ginny, she caught a sight of Harry's wife and felt sick.
Sure, she knew who the famous Harry Potter married-it was all over the newspapers, but seeing her here, was a bit sickening.
Harry's wife had long, straight-curled an the ends-shiny hair that fell softly. She had big bug-like eyes and had a wand stuck behind her ear. The last time Ginny saw that wand, she was close to dying.
I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I seen it coming from the flash of your light
So give me strength,
To face this test tonight
Flashback
Ginny was eagerly waiting for Harry to finally get out of the Hospital Wing.
Harry has been very injured due to his fight with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, but he had won and was almost recovered now.
Harry was not release that day.
The next day, as Ginny was walking up to the Hospital Wing, she saw that Harry was allowed visitors. It was early morning, so hardly anybody knew.
Ginny walked cautiously to the hospital room door and peeked inside. She saw Harry pacing the room. It was so nice and quiet, that Ginny just wanted to walk up to him slowly and say "Welcome back to the land of the living".
Suddenly there were footsteps and the door on the other side of the hospital room opened up and a girl with long, blond-and somewhat wild hair ran in. She had big bug-eyes and a wand stuffed behind her ear. She held a copy of "the Quibbler" in her hand, but as soon as she reached Harry, she dropped it and hugged Harry.
Harry hugged her back, and the, lifting her chin up, he kissed the girl passionately. The kiss was long, and after they broke apart, Harry said "Oh! I thought you would never come. You're the best!"
Ginny didn't even realize that she had sunk down to her knees, and that tears were rolling down her face. She felt like she wanted to die!
End Flashback
Ginny had thought that after the war was over, she and Harry could pick up where they left off, but after she saw him kissing her-her from all the girls at Hogwarts it had to be that weirdo-she just felt her heart splitting in two.
If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time..
I would make it all alright
Sometimes, Ginny felt sad that she didn't intervene. She could've stopped them forever, but she just couldn't. Instead…
Flashback
Ginny raced down the corridors.
She bumped into little professor Flitwick and she just rushed past him without saying sorry.
"Ms.Weasley! Are you alright?" she heard the tiny man squeak, but she was already turning the corner.
"Voldemort is dead" Ginny gave the password to the Fat Lady who swung open.
Because Voldemort was dead and no longer a threat to the Wizarding world, nobody was afraid of saying his name out loud.
Without wasting any time, Ginny raced up the stairs and packed her trunk-very messily. She then went down to the common room and wrote a letter to Ron, Hermione, and a few of her other friends, and of course the twins. She even wrote a letter to her parents which she asked Ron to mail in his letter. In all of the letters it said that they would never see her again-ever.
Then, drawing out her wand, Ginny pointed at the walls as big lettering appeared there.
""I Hope Potter has good time snogging that Bitch!"
Ginny then took off.
She took her brother's new broom, hoping that he would forgive her, and ran out of the Gryffindor common room. Ginny raced down the halls pushing little kids on her way.
When she reached the front doors, she opened them and walked out into the grounds.
Outside, she made her trunk feather-light and putting in oh her broom, and sitting on it herself, she took off in no particular direction.
End Flashback
The bolt reminds me I was there
The bolt reminds me I was there
Ginny's eyes followed the young family as they disappeared into the wall.
If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would make it all alright
How many times had she wished that she should've done something different.
If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would make it all alright. Alright…
This was just one of those things she couldn't do over. 'If only I could get my hands on a time-turner.' Ginny thought. 'Too bad they were made illegal a year ago.'
If only I could turn back time…
Played softly as Ginny left the platform, tears rolling down her cheeks.