Chapter Six

Padre Knows

HDM: yeah...um I'm getting this done before I go to bed...happy VD to you all...sigh tomorrow I'm heading up to the cemetery...

It feels so right...

I don't find anything wrong being with him; he's so amazing to talk to and just to feel the love he gives off. I long for the taste of him again. I crave him like a pregnant woman craves for food. I need to embrace his goodness into my being; I strive for everything about him. He's a god compared to my lowly stature. I weep because I cannot give anything else to him. I want to be everything and give him everything and more to him because he's that great and wonderful. I want to relinquish all of my faults into a vase and smash it into oblivion. I want to never let him be hurt again.

I received a letter outside my window the other night with my name written in red ink. There is a scent of axe to the letter. I open the letter; I notice right away there is teardrop smudging to the text. It reads:

My forbidden Spanish Love,

I listen to the outside world from my window but all that comes to my mind is you. I cannot comprehend anything anymore; you cloud my mind like a thick but heavenly mist. I feel like something is actually right for once in my life. Everything was so bleak and pointless before you came along.

I- I want you know that you mean everything and more to me than you could ever comprehend. You keep me safe, you protect me from harm. You're my hero...you'll never realize how much I depend on you.

Tu aimes moi pour qui je suis. J'aime toi avec coeur et âme. Pourquoi? Pourquoi faites-vous aimer moi? S'il vous plait, tu ne quittes pas moi. S'il vous plait aussi, tu proéges moi...

Ton Amour,

Todd

I wept at the words of the letter. I openly cried my eyes out. Drips of blackened tears fall on the letter, splashing against the ink. I wipe my eyes with my sleeve. He begs me to protect him when I'm the one who needs him more...can he even see he's the angel and I'm the devil?

Today is another day... although it's a Monday I feel high as a kite. I feel like running down the street and screaming my lungs. Then again, I do have to pick up Brie and Todd in my car so that wouldn't be a good idea. I shuffled through my stuff. I sprayed on my axe and look for a shirt to wear. I settle for a T-shirt with the words "I can make you cry..." and black pants. I run down the steps to find Father reading the Daily Horror and Mother cooking. I grab a piece of toast and drank some water. "Son, you need to come down to do training today..." Father started. Myra walks in with her headphones and just tunes everyone out.

"I'm having some friends over Father..." I protested. He scowled but just shook his head. "After dinner then..." he gritted through his teeth. I rolled my eyes, he is so fucking ridiculous. I grab my keys and head out the door; I'm so fucking sick of his shit. Who the fuck cares about hell when you have high school to deal with? I started up my car; I grin at the sound of the purring motor. Yeah...I am not sixteen yet but I have a car...don't ask how the fuck I got away with that. It's an old Camero convertible I found awhile back. I pull out of the driveway. I can see Brie outside her house sitting on her front steps. She looks skinny with her baggy black pants; I just noticed this now. I honk the horn, half startling her...hehehe. After a few obscenities she hopped in and I drive to Todd's house.

Todd's house is near the bus stop but I don't want him taking the bus after the bully incident. I see him walking down the street so I decide to pull up slowly. He looks back and jumps about ten feet back. I cackled at his startle ness but his fist met the back of my head. I rubbed my head and pouted but I couldn't resist the grin. Brie moved in the back so Todd could sit in the passenger's seat. I forgot Brie has no idea about...anything. "Todd, did you return the bitch's calls" she asks to break the silence. "No...She's been asking for me and it's really annoying." he complained, making my cheeks redden. Brie gave a satisfied smile and went on her homework assignment. I could see Todd's smile from my side view. He looks uberly yummy today; it's such a bitch to keep this secret.

Brittany awaits for the arrival of her wonderful Prince Charming as we drove up in the parking lot. She lets out a horrific squeal when she sees Todd and hangs herself on him. Todd takes her arms off of his neck gently but firmly, affirming his personal space. "Toddy, why did you not return my calls" she whines"I wanted to hang out at your place yesterday..." she ran her demonic finger along his chest, making my skin feel red hot. I clenched my fists; I feel my nails digging into my skin. Brie elbows me in the rib cage, cooling my jets. Todd steps away from her, not even putting a hand up to her.

"Sorry Brittany, it's not what I want..." he states in a blasé manner. "What! But But Every guy wants me" she shrieks. "Her ass maybe..." Brie mutters. "Keep out of this you freaking Goth whore" Brittany spat back. Brie threw down her books. "Let's rumble bitch" she screamed while taking off her jewelry. I hold Brie back while Brittany backs off but keeps throwing insults. Students gather to see the fight take place. All we need is mud...I thought to myself. Hey, I still like girls...

"You wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for your tramp of a mother getting drugged up and having sex with a guy you can't even call father" Brittany spat. That was the last straw. I let Brie go at her and I didn't regret it once. One sock in the eye sent Brit down to the ground. Brie pinned her down and starts beating her fists into her face. "YOU NEVER EVER TALK ABOUT MY MOTHER YOU DIRTY FILTHY SLUT MOTHER FUCKING COCK SUCKING DICK MUNCHING MAGGOT EATING WHORE" Brie screamed. I finally pulled Brie off of her and lead her into school. Todd followed with a complex look. Brie is still shouting all of these obscenities. "Dude..." I started"That was AWESOME"

At home we just hung out in my basement, cracking jokes and basically goofing off. Apparently Brie was asked out by one of the salesman people at Hot Topic. We listened to random CD's in my stereo and had the T.V. blasting. It was fun, just the three of us. I had my best friend and my love with me in the same room in perfect harmony. No tension, no drama, just laughing and goofing off, the way it is supposed to be. "So..." Brie started"Are you two an item" I almost choked on my soda at the question. "Wh-what" I stammered. "Come off it Pepito, I figured it out after the phone call...so are you" she asked once more. I looked at Todd and we both nodded. She just laughed...not the reaction I was expecting but better than nothing.

"What's it like" she started to ask"I mean, like is kissing better" and other weird off the wall questions. I couldn't blame her, I would do the same thing if I found out my friend was with someone who's the same sex. Todd looked a bit nervous when answering the targeted questions, it was kind of cute. It was one someone would act if asked"Did you have sex" Before giving an answer her cell rings. It's her mother calling her home for dinner. She waved good-bye and headed out the back door. Now we're alone...hehehe...

"Seeing Brie beat the living shit out of Brittany gave me a great feeling..." I sighed while stretching my arms out. "What, being horny" Todd mocked. I threw a pillow at his head and then pounced. We rolled around the floor and we laughed our hearts out. I ended up on the bottom and he ended up on top, claiming victory. He rested on my chest as he looked down at me, his eyes glinting cheerfully. "Please speak French..." I whispered. He leaned down in my ear and cooed"J'aime toi mon amour..." It gave me goose bumps all across my yellow-tinted skin. He runs his fingers across my eyebrow rings and then on my lip ring. "I want your taste..." I breathed, closing in on my prize.

Suddenly...I hear a bang...

PEPITO YOU FUCKING BETTER HAVE A GOOD REASON FOR THIS BULL SHIT!

Lose It

Let your feelings come alive

Let the guardians be damned

Relinquish all bad feelings

Release all of that rage

Set soar your bad karma

And fly again...

Don't let others keep you here

Shackle you to this rock

Lose yourself and your enemies

Fly up and above the ground

And soar again...

End of Chapter Six

HDM: yeah it's my cousin's 9th anniversary since he passed on so I wanna go to a memorial mass sometime or another...I need lots of guidance and help bc my family is going through a tough time. Please review, and just hope my family will be alright, from one author to another