Chapter XI

Mercury Tears

HDM: sorry for the long update but I was moving so...yeah I'm finally at my new house and now my computer is in my room so it's easier to write my stories without many interruptions. Love the reviews, keep them coming. This is back in Pepito's POV

Dedicated to my friends, because of them my insanity well will never dry.

I want to wipe away any lovely memories of him...

I had a bad dream last night. I was driving in my car and a fly hits the windshield. I push a button to get the windshield wipers going. I push it multiple times but the fly doesn't come off. Despite how many times I've cleaned it, the fly will not come clean. It starts to laugh, laughing at my futile attempts. I start to get angry at the horrible bug and I start cursing it.

Suddenly, Todd's head replaces the fly. He gives me a pathetic look and he starts to talk. "Why do you want to get rid of me, Pepito? I thought you loved me!" he whined. I start to get upset, feeling guilty I got mad at him. Soon, many flies start hitting the windshield, soon filling up the windshield. I cannot see anything but flies. All of their heads are replaced with Todd's. They all start to laugh in unison. I begin to feel light headed and I start to swerve. The laughing surrounds me, that's all I can remember vividly from the dream. That terrible laugh, so sinister and cruel that it would only come from a monster.

I woke up in a panic, trying to figure it all out. I wrote it down just in case I forgot any important scene. I read it over and over again through my head, trying to unravel it's code. Soon, my head started to hurt and I had to go back to sleep. I didn't want to experience the dream again but then again, I want to see it again to pick it apart, see what's the point.

Today is Friday, so maybe a night of getting high and my dick getting sucked will let me forget about that stupid dream and forget about Todd. I wonder what was Brie's problem the other day? Hm, I don't really want to get on her bad side, her being pregnant and all. I hope she chills because she could miscarriage, Father forbid. Again, I hope I can just forget about all of this for at least one night.

I look around in the school's hall to see if any teachers are on patrol before taking my midmorning cigarette break. I walk out to see the usual potheads and chain smokers for their mid morning high as well. I walk to the bleachers and sit down on the cold white bench. It's unusually cold and despite popular belief I do get cold. I pull up the hood of my jacket and pull my sleeves over my hands. I shuffle through the hoodie's giant pocket in the front for my cigarettes. I lit one and took it in deep.

"Hey Pepito..." I hear on my right side, "Want to warm up?" I look to the right and this girl named Lilly was standing there, smiling. She was a typical in-crowd goth...if there is such a thing. She wore a fishnet long sleeve over a skull bones black shirt and a pair of UFOs. Her makeup was 'vampire whore' if you can vividly picture that in your mind. I've been desperate lately...so yeah she went down on me from time to time.

I breathed out a puff of smoke and cocked my eyebrows. "My dear, you are such a slut..." I said casually while twirling the cigarette. She just giggled at my obviously insulting comment and came closer. She took my cigarette and ran her tongue along the end, thinking I'll bone on such a pathetic act. "Thanks, I better not catch whore because of you." I sarcastically replied as I took back my cigarette. "You know you want it, Pepito..." she purred.

She was right; I did want it...

We were so sneaky; I mean she did it right behind the bleachers. I bit down my lip, trying not to let out a moan. She was good; she could be a popular slut if she dressed the clothes. No one bothered us, they just stood in their spots and smoked away. I am a little angry that they don't care, but they are probably too high to know what's going on.

"Are you that desperate for head now a days or is it the new trend to do it at school?" I hear above me. I look up and I saw...Brie! I started to panic, why in the hell is she here! Lilly looked up and quickly stopped. I zipped my pants and started to go toward the top of the bleachers while Lilly ran off to her class. Brie looks pissed, she has the 'You're-so-dead' look all over her face.

Aside for the pissed off look, she looks really pretty today. Her crimson and mahogany coloured hair was down and it exemplified her aqua blue eyes. She was wearing a fitting top with a Ruby Gloom jacket. Her jeans were slightly ripped and hugged her hips nice. If she wasn't a friend...well you know the rest. "Look, Brie, I didn't want-" I was cut off by her fist meeting my face. I stagger and I hold my face. "WHAT THE FUCKIN' HELL?" I scream. "If I EVER catch you doing that, in school, EVER again, so help me I'll do worse than hit that precious face!" she yells.

"What's your problem? I didn't do anything to you!" I yell back. She changes from looking like the pissed off girlfriend to about to burst into tears. "What did I do!" I ask her, I don't want her to let loose the tears. "Pepito, I wanted to talk to someone about the whole...boyfriend issue and I find you like- THAT- and I just..." she stops and lets out a cry. I pull her in for a hug and she starts to cry harder. She wraps her arms around my waist and I wrap around her neck.

"What did he do?" I ask. "He...wants me to get an abortion..." she chokes out. I look straight into her teary eyes. "What? I thought you told him 'no'?" I replied. "No, he's telling me to get one done..." she whimpers and another wave of tears erupts. "What the hell! Is he that controlling!" I ask her, "Brianne, I will NOT let him abuse you like this!" I haven't called her by her full name in the longest time. She looks up at me, she now looks scared, like I knew her darkest secret. She started to tremble and shake.

"No! Pepito, you can't!" she yells. "Why the fuck not!" I ask her. She looks away and bites down upon her lower lip. I shake her slightly. "Brie! Tell me why!" I commanded. "He's already suspicious of us, Pepito!" she screams. Some of the druggies look over at us; I give them a death glare. They look away quickly and I look at her, confused. "Does he think you're...cheating with me?" I ask her in a hushed tone. She nods and starts coughing. I pat her back out of reaction and I just hold her.

"Why?" I ask her. She just shakes her head. "Maybe from talking about you he just thinks that I can't have a friend for a boy..." she says matter-of-factly. I stroke her back, trying to comfort her. "Brie, why can't I tell him we're not doing any shyt?" I ask her. We really aren't screwing around so why would he think that. She looks up at just stares and me. "Don't you remember?" she asks. I shake my head; what is she talking about? "I'll enlighten you..." she whispered harshly.

Flashback in Brie's POV (she's telling this to Pepito)

We were all at that kid Greg's house. His parents were arrested for selling coke and before he had to go to his grandma's house he threw this huge party where some of the shyt was around the house. Everyone was there...from the jocks to the geeks they all came to get some of the sweet shyt. My boyfriend they all Spork said we should all go. Back then you and him actually were buddies. You agreed and we went over at seven. I didn't want to but Spork said I'll have a good time.

We all had a bit too much coke that night. It was so blurry and everything was so distinct than usual. We got separated for a bit and I didn't know where I was or what I was doing. I started to shake and break down because I suddenly felt so scared. I ran into a room to only see Spork was getting head from some chick. I start screaming and throwing shyt around the room. He tried to tell me some excuse but I ran out, not knowing what to do.

You walk into me and look at me like I was an alien. You took me into another room and asked me what's wrong. I told you about Spork and you just held me. We were both still high and probably didn't know what we were doing because one minute you were telling me it'll be okay the next you were kissing me. At that point, I didn't care that you were on coke because I just wanted something that night, whether be from my boyfriend or my best friend.

End of Flashback

I look at her; she has to be lying. "You mean...we fucked?" I gulped. She nodded and pulled a piece of hair back. "The next day some guy told Spork that we...did it...but had no proof. He pleaded that I would take him back so I gave him a second chance. You and him obviously never were on easy ground after that, even if he didn't have any proof. You forgot in the matter of days because you just got another high." I try to speak but she put up her hand. "We were under the influence, it doesn't mean a thing..." she added coldly. The bell rang and we both leave for class.

That Night...

I left the house party early because even being drunk doesn't dilute any of the events today. I can't believe my fucking ears or believe fucking people! I didn't fuck her, I would've remembered that! Wait...I do remember the party and I remember the coke. I remember her telling me about her asshole boyfriend. Then, I just thought how beautiful she looked that night. She was so pretty, I just couldn't believe why I never asked her out. But...did we really go that far?

I took a swig of my Southern Comfort and I keep walking down the cold and dank streets of the city. Window shattering, car alarms, and people screaming ring throughout the gray forest of murder and suicide. "I hate everyone! Everyone has to fucking either be in my business or become part of it! Why can't I ever just be left alone!" I scream in the wind. I walk past Johnny's house, only to get more pissed.

"You! You think you're soo great, just because you think you know more than any other primate walking around!" I start to yell. He doesn't come out, he doesn't even acknowledge my presence. "You think you're better than me! I'm the Devil's Advocate; you can't ever be better than me! I can throw fireballs at your balls! You rely on man made weapons and even then you can't beat me!" I start to laugh at my own yelling. I take a rock and throw it at the door. Still, no answer...

I stagger to the next house. It was Todd's house. "You're no better!" I scream, "You think that you are soo much better than me now, you have your smutty girlfriend and you never need me ever! I guess you are attracted to sluts because I'm the biggest one yet!" I start swaying; everything starts to get hazy. I still take a swig of the SoCo but I drop it...shit. It shatters in a million pieces and some of the liquid gets on my pants...double shit. No one bothers to look who it is...I start to cry for no apparent reason.

No one wants to hear a drunken fool...

End of Chapter XI

HDM: wow, only two days...that's a record! O.O;;; Well review and all that jazz, I need a snack...