A/N: Thanks to all my wonderful reviewers! I will start doing replies to all of them next chapter but right now I smell breakfast being made and I was to finish this chapter before it is done.

Usagi watched his fitful sleep. She was surprised he had actually given in to the sleep, he normally stood out over the balcony or on the roof lost in his thoughts. She longed desperately to stroke his hair and whisper how much she loved him. She longed to calm his thoughts, but he was so dead set on watching her death over and over again that he wouldn't let her intrude. She worried that he would be able to push her away the next he tried to kill himself.

……Flashback……….

Mamoru stood out on the roof, after a week Motoki had finally given him a few moments alone. Mamoru conjured a rose, knowing how quickly and easily the deadly rose would penetrate his crumbling heart. "Usako…I love you" he was ready to plunge the rose into his heart when she entered his mind, as Serenity, as she used to before he found out who she was. She held her arms out to him, tears pouring down from her eyes.

"Endymion, please you must live on. I could not bear this if you were to die. Please Endymion if you love me, live for me." Serenity's words were pleading and she fell to her knees and cried harder.

Mamoru tried to shake the thoughts and the picture out of his mind but he couldn't.

"Why won't you let me die? Why must I live in torment? I am not strong enough to live without you Usagi! Lets us be together in death, please Serenity. Do not ask me to live without you for I cannot." Tears fell from his cheeks as he even thought about trying to live a life without her.

The image in his mind became Usagi, looking up at his with desperate eyes. "Please Mamoru I don't think I could survive this fate if I lost you now. Please live for me." With a trembling hand Mamoru tossed aside the rose and watched it fade away. The image in his mind disappeared and he was left alone to cry out his tears on rooftop.

……End Flashback…….

She placed her hand on his shoulder gently, knowing he could not feel it and knowing if she pressed any harder it would sink right through him. But yet, it seemed to calm his tremors and Mamoru was able to sleep peacefully.

"Serenity." She did not even turn to see or answer the voice of the one person that could see her here.

"You hate me I know, but while I may not have been able to save you on Earth, I saved you enough to live some sort of life…" Diamond asked, for once being completely sincere. His time with Serenity had changed him, he was no longer as cruel or heartless as the bleak surroundings of the Negaverse had made him. He still longed to own Serenity, and he knew he would not stop until she was his, but still he felt something for the girl that went beyond lust.

"This isn't life, this is torment, this is Hell. I have to watch those I love suffer through life because of me. I long to ease his pain, but I can't let him die, he's the only thing that keeps me able to bear this existence." Diamond came closer to place his hand on her shoulder and Usagi needing some form of comfort turned and pressed her face into his chest. Trying to forget just who it was that had his arms wrapped around her.

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Mamoru awoke the next morning with a strong desire to reach across the bed and grab Usagi. But once his eyes opened he knew she wasn't there. She was gone lost to him forever, and yet for some reason she kept begging him not to join her.

"Usagi why must you put me through this pain?" He gradually pulled himself up from the bed, the thick black curtains pushing out any bit of sunlight, any bit of happiness.

"Mamoru! I've got breakfast!" Motoki called glad that he had pilfered one of his friend's spare keys. He began setting out the large pile of donuts and pouring out classes of milk while he waited for his friend to emerge from the bedroom.

"Mamoru Come On! Donuts! You're lucky Usagi isn't here or…" His throat closed upon the words. They were painful words to him, but to Mamoru…he couldn't imagine that pain. It has been a month, one long horrible month, and none of them seemed to be moving on. But he had Reika, who had moved down to comfort him, the girls had each other, Usagi's family had each other, but Mamoru….he stayed away from all of them. Motoki liked to think he was the one keeping Mamoru sane…but at the same time he knew Usagi was the only person with that power.

Motoki slowly made his way to Mamoru's bedroom and pushed the large door open. He was sitting on his bed looking at the picture of Usagi he always kept beside the bed. Motoki wondered how he could see the picture in the dark, but he also knew his friend had every detail of her face memorized.

"I see her die over and over again every night, I see how much she suffered. I don't even have the satisfaction of killing whoever did this to her. I don't even know why I couldn't stop it." Mamoru shuddered as he exhaled and slowly traced her face with his finger. Motoki decided to leave his friend alone for a few more moments.

Usagi sat beside him hating the fact that he couldn't see her or feel her touch. She hated to have him feeling so guilty for what had happened to her. She didn't blame him, she herself didn't know what happened. Pluto had just told her that destiny was leading her down a new path and that she must prepare for her own death. She never understood it but she also knew never to question Pluto. Only to discover once Mamoru had found the Senshi that it hadn't been Pluto at all. She had been just as surprised by her death as the rest of them.

For awhile she entertained the idea that it was all some grand plot by Diamond, that helped her avoid his advances and helped feed the hatred she needed herself to feel for him. She would never love him, but he was her only companion in the loneliness. The only person she could talk to and touch and be seen by. She knew that with Motoki here she should check on the girls, but she couldn't bring herself to leave his side.

"I love you Mamoru…I always will." She raised a hand to brush the hair out of his eyes, fighting back tears as her hand just passed through the strand without moving it. She felt a cry for help resonate within her and she knew the Senshi were in trouble. She had to get Mamoru to help them. She hoped he would allow him in her mind now that he was awake.

"Tuxedo Mask…the Senshi they need you at the pier. Hurry!" Mamoru instantly snapped out his sorrow and transformed and flew out the window. She smiled, at least through it all he still had his sense of duty to keep him going. She teleported himself out of the room and to the pier to watch the battle.