Disclaimer: I do not own CSI, sadly...
AN: next chapter, I hope you like it. I think there will be three more chapters... maybe four.
Summary: Now it's Grissom whom Gretchen tries to convince to make her a grandmother.
chapter 5
Grissom had told Sara to lie down in bed and get some rest and she had reluctantly agreed. He brought her some tea and sat down on the edge of the mattress, kissing her softly on her forehead. "How do you feel?" He asked after a while.
"Better. I think I just didn't feel well because of all the tension and… I was so nervous…"
"…promise me to go to a doctor as soon as the holidays are over." He softly caressed her cheek.
Sara rolled with her eyes. "I am okay." She insisted.
Grissom sighed and gave up. He knew that when Sara did not want to do something, it was impossible to convince her to do it. He stood up, leaned forward and kissed her softly, then he headed for the door.
When he opened it Muffin entered the room, running over to Sara, frantically wagging with his tail. He hopped on the bed and snuggled into Sara's lap. Grissom smirked and watched the scene for a moment, then he entered the living room.
Gretchen was sitting on the sofa and flicked through the pages of a forensic magazine. Grissom sat down next to her and she looked up. /I can't believe you're interested in this./
Grissom chuckled. /You will never stop questioning my reasons to become a scientist, will you/
Gretchen shrugged. /How is Sara/
/She says that she feels better but I am not so sure if she's telling the truth./
/Why should she lie/
/Because she wants to stay strong. She does not want to show any weakness but in fact this meeting with her mother is tearing her up./
/You never told me anything about her family. I stopped asking because I figured that maybe something was wrong… she is scared of her mother? Or meeting her mother… why/
Grissom sighed. /I did not tell you because I was not sure if Sara would want me to. It took her five years before she was able to tell me… Her father was abusive and both her parents had strong alcohol problems. When she was twelve years old her mother killed her father in self-defense. Sara had to spend a year in foster care, then she was sent back to her mother, what was even worse for her. When she was seventeen she got a scholarship at Harvard and could finally escape from the nightmare that she had to go through everyday at home. And since she left her hometown for Harvard she did not see her mother, until today. She finally managed to really deal with her past and she thought she was ready to meet her mother today, but… I am not sure if she really was./
Gretchen was really affected by what Grissom told her. /The poor girl./
Grissom nodded. /Life treated her really unfair… Mom do me a favor, please don't tell her that I told you all this. I will tell her when the time is right. And don't pity her, this is what she hates the most./
/Okay./ She sighed. /Is that why you tell her that you would not want to have children? Do you fear that she could not be a good mother/
/What? No! No… I think she would be a wonderful mother./
/Why do you not want to have children with her then? I mean…/
/I…don't think that I could be a good father./ He confessed. But that was only half the truth. He knew that Sara was scared of becoming a mother. He did not want to push her into something that she feared and he wanted to let her take her time until she would feel that she was ready for it. But he wouldn't tell this to Gretchen, because he knew his mother. She would run to Sara and would do everything to convince her that she would be a great mother and that she would be more than ready for it. And that would only cause more trouble.
/I think you would be a wonderful father Gil. I mean with giving up your job so that you could be together with Sara you showed how much you love her. Don't you think that a child would be the greatest evidence for the love that you two share? And do you remember Anne Parker's child? You took care of him so well./
/Mom, I was seventeen back then and had a crush on Anne, of course I wanted to be her son's babysitter./
Gretchen chuckled. /Oh well, that would be a great story to tell your son, don't you think/
/I doubt that. Listen Mom, I know that you are on a mission, you want to become a grandmother, I can understand that you really want this, but you can't force me and Sara to become parents just because you want us to. I promise you that one day Sara and I will have children, but I can't promise you that this is going to be anytime soon./ He had not planned to make such a promise. He cursed himself for it, but now he couldn't change it anymore.
/That makes me happy./ Gretchen smiled softly. /I think that… you know for me it always seemed as if you were searching for something that completed you for all your life and I think first you thought that this could be your work. But then you found Sara and she completed the biggest part of your life. There's only one part missing… and I think that a child would be that part./
Grissom did not want to believe his mother's theory. But a part of him thought that she might be right. One thing was definitely right, for a long time he had been thinking that is work could complete his life and then he had been proven wrong, he had realized that it was Sara who could complete it and since he was with Sara he was happier than he had ever been before.
/When I told your father that I was pregnant, he was so scared. He was horribly scared of becoming a father until the nurse handed you over to him. Then he held you in his arms and from then on all his fear was gone./
Grissom smirked. /Isn't it always like that? That seems to be the standard story that parents tell their children when they fear to become parents themselves./
Gretchen grinned. /I guess that's right./
Grissom pulled his mother into his embrace. /Thank you Mom./ He signed after he pulled away.
/Thank you for what/ she asked slightly confused.
Grissom shrugged and winked at her, a boyish grin on his lips.
TBC
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