Disclaimer; Don't own lost

They talk about damnation

And I think I've hit it

No way, I know I've hit it

In one fell swoop, I lost everything, the respect of everyone around me, including her

Why did it have to be her?

What was I thinking? I should have known Eko wouldn't baptize the baby without Claire's permission

What the bloody hell was I thinking?

I'm not using and I don't want to

But everyone around me thinks I am, so what's the point

I passed the test, the island threw heroine in my path, and I didn't use

DO YOU HEAR THAT BLOODY ISLAND

I PASSED THE TEST

So why does it feel like I've lost

Sure I made some bad decisions

But I didn't use

What do I need to do

Tell me

WHAT DO I NEED TO DO!