A little bit of a short chapter, but I hope you guys like it!

Purgatory

Chapter Ten: Horrible Surprises

Hopelessness:

1. Having no hope; despairing.

2. Offering no hope; bleak.

3. Incurable.

4. Having no possibility of solution; impossible.

The awkward silence made both Titans uncomfortable, but Beast Boy answered the question anyway. "I don't know how I fill for Raven," he began, "It's like, one minute, we're the best of friends; we can talk and understand each other. But then, she makes me so mad at times that I just want to shake some sense into her. Knock a bit of happiness in her."

Cyborg nodded understandingly as Beast Boy glared at his feet. "I know what you mean, man."

"What about you?" BB asked, "Do you love Raven?"

"I don't know anything about love, BB," Cyborg said, chuckling humorlessly, "I think I feel the exact same way as you do. I know I love Raven, but I think it's more of a brother-sister relationship."

"I think Raven feels the same way," Robin interrupted as he shut the roof's door and walked over to them.

"How long have you been listening?" BB asked surprised.

"When Cyborg told you what Jinx had said," Robin replied and nodded towards Cyborg, "Star told me you were looking for me."

"Yeah, to ask you about Rae."

"Honestly," Robin replied looking abashed, "I don't think I have any romantic feelings for her. I mean, I could defiantly see her as my sister, like Cy, but I don't think I could see us in a relationship."

"I could never see her as my girlfriend," Cyborg replied, and then as twilight settled around them they turned and stared at Beast Boy.

"What?" BB asked in surprise, throwing up his hands in defense.

"Man, you're the only one who hasn't admitted to seeing Raven as a sister!" Cyborg complained, exasperated.

"That doesn't mean that I have feelings for her. How would I know if I loved her if I can't even tell you how I feel about her right now?"

Sighing, Cyborg stood up, and Robin followed his example. "You'd better figure it out soon, BB." Cyborg whispered, turning around and walking back into the tower as Robin followed behind him.

Beast Boy glowered at the sky and then smashed the ground hard with his fist. His knuckles split open and blood began to pool out onto the cement, but Beast Boy only glared at his hand and then pushed himself off the building, flying away.

"Maybe we should try Mas y Menos," Starfire whispered stressing the word "should". She was curled up on the opposite side of the couch, watching Raven warily in case the Goth decided to snap at her again. Raven only shook her head, making her hood slap against the sides of her face. "It would not hurt to try," Starfire tried again.

"No," Raven whispered, "It would."

"But I think that if we just keep on trying," Starfire began tearfully.

"I said no," Raven bit off while standing up. The light bulb above her popped and shattered, Raven ignored it. "I'm tired of backing into dead ends. I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt by rejection," Starfire's eyes were wide with surprise as Raven kept ranting, "I just want to spend the last of my days with my friends and do normal things."

"You want us to give up!" Starfire cried. Raven didn't say anything, and so Starfire, sobbing, ran to her room.

Raven glided after her, but instead of heading to Star's room, she headed to her own. Once inside, she began to look at all her possessions, and wondered morbidly what would happen to them when she was gone. Would they keep them or throw them out?

Somewhere deep inside of her, she couldn't help but think they'd keep them, at least only to remember her by.

By the time Raven left her room, she realized two things. Either the boys had stayed up on the roof all night, or they'd come down and went straight to bed. Either way, she hadn't seen them.

By the time she did see them again, it was nearing two a.m., and the Titans' alarm went off. Loud beeping noises rang throughout the tower, and red lights were flashing. Any other person would have jumped out of their skin in surprise, but the Titans knew exactly what to do.

Robin, who was the quickest, was in the living room by the tenth ring of the alarm. He was already dressed in his Titans uniform and was checking the computer for the place that was in trouble.

"Hey, where are we headed?" Cyborg asked, walking wearily into the room and giving a nod of greeting to Raven.

"It's the Bank of Perez again," Robin replied as he typed something in to the giant monitor.

Beast Boy yawned and walked into the room, "I hope it's quick. I was having a nice dream."

Starfire shot in, "Yes. I was having one also," she said dreamily.

Robin coughed, "Come on, Titans. Lets go!" Everyone ran out of the room, intent on reaching the problem, leaving Raven to realize that their nice quiet vacation had been shattered by an annoying blinking alarm.

It wasn't two hours before the others returned, sporting various cuts and bruises. The beat Titans headed straight for bed, not bothering to say anything to Raven.

Meanwhile, while the Titans were gone, Raven had mulled over her future. Thinking about various things had made her antsy. Sitting here being patient wasn't exactly a Raven thing to do. She kept thinking about Beast Boy and the others: what would happen to them. In a sudden rash decision, which must have been fueled by her fear of Hell, Raven quickly got up and headed for Beast Boy's room.

She could have reached his room with her eyes closed; it smelt that bad. The musky sent of dirty clothes seemed to leave a trail from the living room to his sanctuary. As she reached the metal door, she called for him, just to make sure she didn't walk in on him in the buff. No one answered, so she tried again. Still, she could hear nothing.

Raven's brow wrinkled in confusion, and she easily slid her body through the metal. But Beast Boy wasn't snoring on his bed, nor was he playing an annoying game on his computer. 'Where was Beast Boy?' she wondered.

Sighing, Raven left the room and headed for the bathroom. Her previous intentions of finding Beast Boy were thrown out the window. Thankfully, logic had returned, but now, she was trying to find Beast Boy out of pure curiosity.

"Beast Boy," Raven called as she reached the boy's bathroom. Nothing happened, and Raven sighed. If she couldn't find him anywhere else, she'd just assume he was in there, but she sure wasn't going in to find out. Turning around, Raven began to search the whole house. Looking for him made her think of the children's game hide and seek, except she wasn't looking for BB to make him find her; she was doing it out of pure interest and boredom.

Finally, after finding him nowhere, Raven realized she'd have to search the infirmary. This she had avoided at all cost. It wasn't as if looking at her own body made her sick, like some people would as they looked upon a corpse, but it did make her feel funny. Especially in that ugly bathing suit!

As she got closer, she realized she could hear a sound, and when she was standing behind the door, she knew immediately what she had heard.

"I'm sorry I snapped at you, Raven," Beast Boy said as his voice echoed around the room. Raven jumped in surprise at being caught, if she could have blushed in surprise, she would have. Her eyes widened even more as Beast Boy kept talking. He hadn't caught her, he was just talking to her body.

"Cyborg talked to Jinx today," he explained, "She told him we should be looking at one of us three guys, to see if maybe one of us loves you." Raven blinked, and her jaw fell open. "Cyborg said he loves you like a brother, and Robin says the same thing. Of course Robin would think that, since he's so dopey in love with Star." He chuckled a bit, and then an awkward silence followed, making Raven hold her non existent breath in curiosity and wonder.

"How I feel..." Beast Boy began, but then quieted once more. Raven leaned in closer to the door to hear if he was whispering. Then, the sound of footsteps were heard suddenly, and Raven didn't expect the door to slide open, like it did, or Beast Boy's shocked, embarrassed, and angered eyes to fill her vision.

Raven swallowed in shame and guilt. "Were you spying on me, Raven?" he asked her in an angry tone, so unlike his usual playful one.

"No I, I," Raven fumbled with her wording. She didn't know why, but he had thrown her off her usual aloof attitude. "I was looking for you; you weren't in your room. Is this where you've been sneaking off to all those times?" she asked in suspicion.

Beast Boy turned a sick greenish red color as the blood rushed into his face. "Don't change the subject, Rae," Beast Boy snapped stressing the nickname to annoy her. It worked; Raven could feel the muscle twitch in her jaw as she unconsciously tightened it in anger.

"I wasn't changing the subject, nor was I spying on you," she replied coolly as her anger reigned in her guilt.

"No?" he asked, "Then, how long were you standing there?" he asked, smugly placing his hands on his hips.

Raven sighed, pulled up her hood, and thought over the truth, she would have blushed as she lied, "I just got here."

Beast Boy instantly knew that she was lying. How, she would never know, and she watched as his face crumpled in anger. "Why can't you just tell me the truth? Why do you have to be so doubtful and distrustful of us all the time?"

"I'm not distrustful," Raven replied sourly, "Maybe you haven't given me a reason to give you any trust. And why should I give people false hope when I know there isn't anything left to hope for?"

Best Boy glared hatefully at her, "No reason to trust me," he whispered, "My God Raven, you're more stubborn than a mule! Besides some people like to have hope in their lives, even if there isn't anything to hope for!"

Raven sneered at him, and Beast Boy left in a huff, mumbling something under his breath.

"Stupid Beast Boy," Raven whispered, entering the infirmary and runner her fingertips over the invisible barrier that kept her from touching the glass coffin. Her body still laid there: cold, pale, and slightly blue.

She jerked away in surprise as the alarm went off once again. Some other poor citizen in Jump City was in trouble and needed the Titans help. Raven juggled the idea of heading to the living room to find out what was happening, but decided against it. Both Beast Boy and her were still mad at each other, and it wouldn't do anyone an ounce of good by starting another shouting match in front of their friends.

So, she waited ten minutes before poking her head out to check if they were still there. It was empty. Raven settled down into her thinking spot, and waited for them to return.

Raven immediately knew someone was behind her. She didn't know how she could tell, but she could. It had been four hours since the other Titans had left, and the room had been strangely quiet since then. Maybe this was how she knew?

"Raven," Aida whispered softly, "I need to tell you something."

"Have you finally come to tell me who my someone is?" Raven asked humorlessly. "Because even I could tell you that it's no one."

"No," Aida said, her voice cracking slightly. Raven turned around to look at the little girl and was surprised to see her eyes red rimmed from crying.

"What happened?" Raven asked quickly, her voice still monotone but with a touch of panic.

"I tried to help," she replied, wringing her hands together, "but it was impossible, I couldn't."

"What happened?" Raven asked again, this time her voice harsher from the fear she felt.

"Beast Boy's in the hospital," Aida said. Raven felt her stomach fall though the floor.

"Is he all right?" she forced her stiff lips to ask.

"I don't know," Aida said, shaking her head and staring at the floor, "I don't know."

Raven shot past Aida and headed for the Tower door. "Where are you going?" Aida exclaimed.

"Where else, to the hospital," Raven replied impatiently.

"Wait, I can take you there," Aida said quickly.

"How?"

"Take my hand and hold on," Aida told her sternly. Raven did as she was told and watched as the world around her blurred for a moment before it became clear once more, and yet, it was still different, for now she was standing in a hospital corridor.

"Where are the others?" Raven asked, staring as a few nurses walk obliviously by them.

"Go down the hall," Aida said, pointing the way, "You won't be able to miss them." Raven began to walk down the hall, but then felt the air shift, like a breeze blowing though the still summer air. She turned around only to discover that Aida had disappeared.

Raven walked down the hall slowly, half because she was avoiding people's life energy and the other half was because she was in slight shock. She reached a fork in the middle of the hall and could hear voices drifting down it. One voice she recognized quite clearly; it was Cyborg's.

"He'll be fine," Cyborg told Starfire, who was weeping in a plastic chair, "He's not going to die."

"First Raven, and now this!" Star exclaimed. "The great glaborkist has taken no pity on our family!" Although her words were muffled from tears, Raven could clearly hear what had been said, and couldn't help wonder who glaborkist was.

Robin came walking around the corner that Raven had just turned from. He looked surprised at seeing her, but another wail from Star distracted him from asking her any questions.

"Here, Star. Drink this," Robin said, handing Starfire a white Styrofoam cup he had been carrying.

"What's in it?" Cyborg asked, watching as Star took a sip from it.

"Just hot chocolate," Robin replied, standing up, "Have you heard any news?" Cyborg shook his head no.

"How'd did you get here, Raven? How'd you know what happened?" Robin asked, turning towards her. Star looked up at the ghost.

"Oh, Raven, have you not heard? Our Beast Boy is... is…" Star cut off with another sob, and Cyborg tried to comfort her, even though the look he was giving the others told them that he was just as uncomfortable doing it.

"I transported," Raven said monotonously, pulling up her hood which had fallen down in all the excitement. Any further explanation was cut off as the doctor appeared from a room down the hall.

"How is he, doctor of Earth?" Starfire asked, jumping up from her seat and meeting the old man halfway there.

It was only then that the Titans realized the old doctor was the same one that had tried to save Raven. No one could decide if that was a good omen or not.

As the doctor's grim face peered over the small group, they couldn't help but whisper a prayer to the God in heaven. 'Please let Beast Boy be all right. Don't let him die;' and then, they listened to the doctor's explanation of why Beast Boy wouldn't be waking up.

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