Chapter 14 of Last Chance

Drown the Memories…

Harry wanted him to remember so badly but he just didn't care enough

"Harry..." he frowned. "Please...listen to me...it's who I am. I am sorry, I tried to pretend that I could change when I was at the camp...but. I came home and...I can't." Draco rubbed his temple "Listen...we got to figure this out, but...not know, you're in a rage...I am messed up still. I'll get you the money

Silence shook the room. Harry's hair was still sticky, his stomach felt empty and all he wanted was to forgive Draco… to make it all go away. "I love you too, but if you love me why can't you change for me?" His thoughts just continued spilling out.

"Because...you should love me for me..." Draco's voice got a little louder and he looked away "And it would be like me asking you to take up a gun and kill people and rob. It's not easy to change..." he said.

"It's not..." Harry understood love was strange maybe it could work but the idea of hurting someone for something he had which was money. "I can give you a place to stay Draco I can give you anything...just please ..." his heart beat fast as he saw the sadness in his eyes. "Come here..." Harry beckoned to him as he sat on the bed. "It'll work out, just think about..."

Draco smiled and sat down "Let me stay here...I need to...just one last chance, one last time to prove I can fix my past..." he could feel his own tears forming "I have to stay with them. They are my family...but..." he bent over and kissed Harry's flushed cheek, tears running down his cheek "I do love you. And I will visit." he finished with a loud sigh.

"What?" Harry was astonished by his response. "Visit?" The word made him think he was a patient, sick from this boy's love. "Isn't this how we got separated before, is destiny against us?"

"No…It's just...hard to leave a life once you're sucked in." Draco winced as he heard Harry upset. Touching his cheek Draco whispered. "Please...understand..."

"It's fine...I'm used to it..." With that Harry stood up, he bent down to grad his jacket, Harry turned around tears coming from all corners of his deep emerald eyes. He had never showed so much expression towards anyone or anything.

Draco frowned and just sat there, he was lost in this conflict he finally closed his eyes. "I am sorry." he whispered, his words slurred by sobs.

"Yeah right..." Harry yelled walked out the door clumsily. "Ow..." he mumbled as he bumped into Victoria who was carrying a tray. "Bye..." He whispered awkwardly as he ran down the stairs and out of the door clutching his jacket as the cold wind blew. Harry couldn't feel anything the pain that he would just break that promise for a life of crime. "Why can't I just forget him?"

Victoria entered, and gave a weak smile "Its going to be fine...he isn't meant for you...he's...too different."

Draco looked away and nodded, "Right." he whispered and took the glass she offered, taking a sip of vodka, then shuddering at the memories it brought.

Harry walked following the perfect cracks formed in the sidewalk separating them perfectly. "No one's home, I'm so tired, all I want is…what do I want?" Harry clenched his fists. The wind blew into his ear, whispering how stupid he was.

Draco sighed deeply as he stood "Come on...we got a job to do." he clicked his gun and Victoria nodded.

"It's nothing...I'm fine..." Harry's sobbing stopped as she walked up the stairs. He ached and his whole body shook, he felt horrible. "Why did he do that to me?" HE asked himself sitting on the bed seeing some of the remains of the raid. "I hate myself..." Harry curled up into a ball tears soaking his jeans.

Draco hadn't expected it to go so wrong.

He had told his group to go the… the shed while he as usual watched the owner.

But the guy...

Well he wasn't who he expected it to be...

Now he lent over Kai's body. Breath ragged, gun still shaking, blood speckled his face.

Victoria came in and screamed, but Draco only looked at her and pulled the trigger, and she was cut of mid scream, then before the others came out he was gone, his mind broken as he ran to the only place he could think safe.

He found a car.

A few minutes later he sped for the only person he could tell eyes glazed over from death, hands shaking, gun in hands, god...what he had done...he had killed his sister...

Harry felt sick of sitting; he needed to see what was left. So he went outside, finding the courage to walk downstairs and out the door. His hands traced the door and the frame of the little window. "Here." He whispered his hand balling up into a fist. He wanted to punch or fight himself. This was all over. Rain drops hit everywhere slow at first, but then finally faster and faster like they were all excited to finally be released and poured into the earth.

"Damn it!" Draco yelled and drove faster, he needed Harry. "Please…God..." he whispered, licking blood from his hand and lips. "………Forgive me…"

At the same time Harry was saying his own pray as he watched the rain fall from the porch, the steps were soaking and so was the grass. He sat in the middle right in front of the steps. But no water hit him. "Please…God…I know...I know I'm not the best, but please…" He sobbed as he rested his head on his knees. "Let him be okay."

Draco sped to the house, even in the blinding force of the water slamming the windshield he knew where he was going. To him, to Harry.

The rain smelt so morbid, everything felt so tired. It's over, it's over. It felt like the rain was washing away everything. Harry wanted the sun to come out and retrace the memories and happiness. An engine, a car driving in the storm it sounded like an alarm. A sign that everything is different, an interruption of fate.

Harry got up and he saw who was in the car coming to his. He had to stop him, even though they would never be together again, he needed this. So the black-haired boy ran out to the road rushing he nearly tripped into the small river forming at the curb. He was soaking wet, nothing on him was dry. "Draco…" He whispered softly standing in the middle of the street. He licked the rain drops falling onto his face.

Draco barely noticed him until he blinked away tears, then pressed the brakes, sliding to a halt, then falling, well stumbling out of the car, gun in hand "Harry…" he chocked in a unusually hoarse voice "Harry." he said as he came closer.

. "What happened to you?" Harry walked up as slow as Draco was. Harry clutched his hand, the rain was pounding down and pulled the crying blonde in for a kiss blood mixing in with the sweat and tears and rain and pain and sorrow that filled their lips. They were both shivering and unaware of what was happening.

Draco closed his eyes, and then dropped the gun it fell into a puddle with a splash. "I killed him...I killed Kai...but I couldn't stop...I killed my sister...I didn't mean to...I need to change...help me..." he whispered, glancing into Harry's green eyes. They seemed like the only good thing right now. "Take me away..." he added, whispering into Harry's ear "Take me far away."

"No more..." Harry glanced down at his gun drowning into the puddle... "Come one Draco...I'll help I promise..." But deep inside Harry felt that he couldn't even keep his own promises. The clouds blocked the sun to from happiness, rain drained life out of people suffering from pain. "It's fine Draco...please he sat him in the back seat. "It's fine..." Harry took the wheel and jabbed the key into the ignition. Harry drove out of there, wanting to forget as the puddles splashed around the stolen car. The rain blocking the road making everything like a maze. He could deal with it, this certainly didn't feel new to him.

Author's Note: Yes, No Maybe so? If you don't like it tell me, if u do great tell me that too! Lol R&R for another chapter. Sorry for the time between updates! I had finals for the end of first semester…ugh but that's done and I get a 3 day weekend yaya!