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Can I go outside?

Buffy looked out of the window from her room. It had been three hours since she woke in the mental hospital and Angel, correction, when Doctor O'Conner left. From her room she could see that the decorative gardens outside were filled with mental patients, doctors and nurses. She wanted to go outside herself and feel the grass beneath her bare feet, to escape this yucky room. How long has she been indoors? To not have the sun kissing her skin, warming with its touch.

Sounds like my sun has walked out, Buffy thought, Especially since he's allergic to it or not anymore or never was. Man this is confusing.

She suddenly spots him in the gardens talking to some doctors and nurses before he went onto another patient. It was strange to see in the sunlight, yet it some how suited him here with the tan. Where she remembered him he was pale, beautiful beneathe the moonlight. Now though, he was beautiful in the sunlight. Didn't he mention about not getting to see her in the sun? Irony had its way.

Buffy watched him approach another patient but he before he was even a metre away from them paused and then looked towards her direction. Inside she felt her heart clench as he smiled and waved to her. He really did belong in sunlight, like some ethereal being, and she waved back. Her mind noted the fact that the way he turned to her direction was as if he sensed her watching him.

Some things never change she thought wistfully.

He turned back to his new patient and began to talk to him. She wondered how long he was doing this and then it had struck here. I've been here for four years, she thought to herself, How did I end up here? The was a knock on the door before someone opened it, she didn't know why but she could tell who it was without turning around and face them.

"Good afternoon Buffy, I heard you were up and about"

"I want to go outside Amy" Buffy said, bringing out the old scared-of-hospitals-Buffy to see if she win her sympathy.

"You know my name?" Amy asked.

She turned around to face her, the little witch from her 'fantasy' and was a good friend of Willow's too, stunned as she held the tray of food "Of course I know your-" she spots Amy's nurse tag, A. Madison. How the heck would she know her name if it was A. Madison?

"How do you know my name?" Amy asked Buffy "Staff Policy is not to give out names unless its to help the patients memory"

"My fantasy world I guess" Buffy said "Must of made you an Amy and coincidently your name is Amy"

"So your coming to terms with your fantasy world then?" Amy asked.

"Yeah, I guess" Buffy said, she scrunched her eyebrows together as she thought about it, she looked back at Amy for a moment before she asked "Do you know how I got here? I mean like what the problem was for me to end up here."

"I'm just a nurse Buffy, I don't know why you're here" Amy explained politely. "If I did it would be against the Hospital Policy to tell, in case we accidentally trigger you back to your previous state of mind. But we will help you come to terms of what the trigger was and help you to prevent it happening again."

"Oh" Buffy said mulling it over for moment as she glanced at the floor then looked back her with a questioning gaze. "So can I go outside?" Suddenly a wave of whispers grew, Buffy turned around to try and find the source, only to look back at Amy and then it stopped. "Did you hear that?" Buffy asked.

"Hear what?" Amy asked as she looked at Buffy carefully.

Buffy looked at her bed when the whispers flew at her again and saw the straps there and the whispers stopped again. Like they were warning her. Probably to restrain people. I better keep my mouth shut if I wanna keep from being strapped down. "Nothing" Buffy smiled forcefully "Can I go outside?"

Amy looked at Buffy for a moment, checking for any hints of deceit before she smiled kindly "Okay, but eat this first" as she gestured towards the food.

Once again the whispers returned and left when she eyed the food "I'm really not that hungry" Buffy said "Can I have it later?"

"Alright then. Let me get you your dressing gown. Can't have you walking around outside in a night gown" Amy smiled.

I have no clue on the whole hospital proceture so this in my own little world of Bufftom. Thanks for the reveiws, BUT I still need them to survive so keep them coming people!