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Summary: AU B/A - Angel Callagan was Buffy's brother's best friend. They grew up together, Angel being Buffy's first crush. When Buffy overhears crude comments from Angel about her she is horrified and disgusted at herself for being so naïve to see the truth. Six long years later they meet again, both grown up yet Buffy is still unwilling to let go of her grudge. Can Angel break through to her? Or will one foolish mistake long ago cost him more than he ever imagine possible?
Chapter 1
Angel Callagan and William a.k.a Spike Summers have been the best of friends since they can remember. Spike's little sister, Buffy had always tagged along, wanting to be apart of everything they did since she was a kid. Since Buffy was four years younger it was always a nuisance to have her around, especially when they were at their hormonal ages. To Angel, Buffy was never more than his best bud's kid sister.
On the other hand Angel was everything to Buffy since she was a child. She had the longest crush on him since she could even remember and always tagged along with them just to be with Angel.
As her brother Spike and Angel headed for college and her high school she became increasingly aware of their age differences and although her crush remained strong for Angel she couldn't help but feel jealous of the many women she saw that came within Angel's life and she wasn't stupid. Angel was well known for his notorious reputation of being an all time player. But even with all of that considered she couldn't help but still love him. She didn't see him as often when he was in high school but she saw just enough of him to still want him.
As Buffy reach her final year before college she sat there one day staring at all the acceptance letters she received from various colleges around the country. All her hard work for the past four years finally paid off and she basically could go to any school she wanted to. In the end she knew deep down in her heart there wasn't any place she rather go to then Sunnydale College which was close to home and more obviously close to Angel. It wasn't the greatest college especially with her standards but he meant too much to her to leave him.
Over the past year Angel couldn't help but notice the slow creeping transformation that Buffy started to become. He was increasingly aware of her beauty and felt bewildered he would think of anything of a girl he thought was a brat when he was younger.
One sunny day when Spike, Angel and the rest of their gang were in the family room in Spike's house they were lounging around, just chatting about the end of their college term. When Spike rose to go get drinks, Gunn, a friend was casually looking at pictures up on the mantle and noticed a picture of Buffy and Spike together.
"Hey Angel. Come here."
"Yea. What's up Gunn?"
"Take a look at Spike's sister, Buffy."
Just as Angel was about to reply to Gunn's questions, Buffy came home but was unheard by Spike's friends. As she made her way to the family room she overheard her name and stopped to listen.
"What about Buffy Gunn?" Angel asked.
"Take a look at her. My, she's been growing up hasn't she? A hell of a looker she's turning out to be."
Angel, a bit put off that his friend saw her that way tried as best as he could to sound like he didn't care.
"I guess. I couldn't see her in that light though. She's Spike's kid sister. More of a brat really. She clings onto me and Spike like a leech all the time and it's obvious that she's in love with me or something." Angel couldn't help but smirk at that thought that he knew Buffy wanted him. He couldn't blame her, all women did.
Buffy couldn't help but feel like disappearing off the face of the earth. Not only was she deeply humiliated but the things he said about her... Brat? Leech? Obvious that she was in love with him? She silently led herself outside onto the porch where she cried in agony at his words. She felt like she was being stabbed repeatedly at her heart.
She decided to walk to the park so that no one would be able to see the distress she was in. She sat at a nearby park bench until nightfall unable to cope with the harsh reality that sunk in. The man of her dreams – Angel, broke her heart and it was obvious that he probably wouldn't give a damn. She was so mad at herself to let herself love someone so horrible, so self- centered and certainly a bastard. How could she be so naïve for all these years? She thought bitterly, she should have known better after all, all players are bastards anyway.
From that moment on, she stopped crying and vowed to regain her composure and self dignity. He may have broken her heart but she knew she didn't need him. She didn't need someone like him who thought of her like a kid and of a brat that was swooning over him because he was older and almost done college. She couldn't believe throughout her whole life how much she did to be with him and was disgusted at herself for being so blind. Blind to the truth. He never did give a shit about her. It enraged her that she cared about him so much and that he never felt the same way. Even after all these years.
As Buffy started to walk back she was determined to start fresh. To make a new life on her own – Angel free. A dream that would be hers, and hers only not because it was motivated by Him. She knew how she would do it. She needed to get out of Sunnydale. Take a fresh start in a new city. Her parents wouldn't mind that much; she had free scholarships from many locations so money wouldn't be an issue. She decided Harvard was her best choice. They had a free scholarship entailed for her and the best program in the country.
When Buffy walked back to her house she noticed that Spike's friends were still there at her house. For once in her life she felt strong. She was confident in the decisions she was about to make and the life changing situations that were going to take place.
As she walked in she was bombarded by Spike, her brother.
"Where the hell have you been? It's 1:00 am! I've been calling everywhere looking for you! I gotten worried sick that something happened to you. Even ruined my happy day with the boys with college ending n' all worrying about your arse."
Buffy staring at the clock didn't even realize that it was that late. As she walked into the family room where all of Spike's friends were gathered she took off her coat and couldn't help notice everyone staring at her. She suddenly noticed she was a bit underdressed only wearing a tank top and a short leather skirt.
Before she would directly look at Angel to see if her outfit made an impact on him but now she couldn't care less.
Spike came barging in and yelled
"Tell me where you were and why didn't you call! I'm responsible for you do you realize that when mom and dad are away?"
Buffy simply replied while inching her way to the stairs,
"I was out walking. I had a lot on my mind."
"Like...?" Spike asked
"College. What I want to do with my life. Sorry about worrying you. I didn't mean to spoil your fun with the guys. I'm just gonna go up to bed now. Night."
Spike grabbed her before she had a chance to escape.
"Not so fast there Buffy. So what? That was all you were doing? Just thinking? And what? You haven't come to a conclusion although we all known your going to stay in town."
Buffy couldn't help but get mad. Was she that predictable? Maybe before, but she was going to learn from her mistakes. She wanted to make sure Spike and Angel and all his buddies knew that.
Buffy pulled her arm back and looked at him straight in the eye and said,
"No Spike. I'm not as predictable as you think. I've already made up my mind and I'm certainly not staying in Sunnydale for College. I wanted to break this with you and mom and dad as a family since your being a dickhead I'll just let you know now. I've decided to go to Harvard to pursue my degree in Business. I'll talk to you more about this when mom and dad get home. I'm tired. I'm gonna go up to bed. Night."
This time Spike let her go. He slowly walked back to the family room where all his buddies were listening intently. His sister, his baby sister was deciding to leave the family, halfway across the country which he knew he would barely see her while she was studying at Harvard. It came as a huge shock to him. It was so... unlike Buffy. He had never seen Buffy like that before. So fierce, so confident, so determined. He had no idea what brought the change in her and he wasn't sure if he liked it.
Angel was caught by surprised too with her announcements. Also with the outfit she was wearing. When she whisked herself in the living room and took off her jacket he couldn't help but feel a hitch in his throat when he saw what she was wearing. God she looked so good. He couldn't help but feel guilty at all the thoughts that came through his mind at the sight of her. As he was pondering about it, he noticed for the first time that she never looked around the room for him. Or noticed him or anything. She usually spotted him first and smiled or tried to make conversation with him. He shrugged it off, knowing that she had a lot on her mind to begin with.
The announcements of her college plans did make Angel's heart skip a bit. He was so caught off by her declaration. Everyone figured she would stay, because everyone knew she had a crush on him and that it would be close to home. He couldn't understand why he felt so lonely and a bit hurt when he heard her news. Angel tried to shrug it off; believing that Buffy was probably just joking and most likely would change her mind later. That's it. That was the one thing he kept on trying to reassure himself over and over again.
Well folks I've had this idea locked away for so long and now its time to unleash it. I think it can become a great story. Feedback is greatly appreciated whether or not I should continue it or not. Hope you like it!
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Summary: AU B/A - Angel Callagan was Buffy's brother's best friend. They grew up together, Angel being Buffy's first crush. When Buffy overhears crude comments from Angel about her she is horrified and disgusted at herself for being so naïve to see the truth. Six long years later they meet again, both grown up yet Buffy is still unwilling to let go of her grudge. Can Angel break through to her? Or will one foolish mistake long ago cost him more than he ever imagine possible?
Chapter 1
Angel Callagan and William a.k.a Spike Summers have been the best of friends since they can remember. Spike's little sister, Buffy had always tagged along, wanting to be apart of everything they did since she was a kid. Since Buffy was four years younger it was always a nuisance to have her around, especially when they were at their hormonal ages. To Angel, Buffy was never more than his best bud's kid sister.
On the other hand Angel was everything to Buffy since she was a child. She had the longest crush on him since she could even remember and always tagged along with them just to be with Angel.
As her brother Spike and Angel headed for college and her high school she became increasingly aware of their age differences and although her crush remained strong for Angel she couldn't help but feel jealous of the many women she saw that came within Angel's life and she wasn't stupid. Angel was well known for his notorious reputation of being an all time player. But even with all of that considered she couldn't help but still love him. She didn't see him as often when he was in high school but she saw just enough of him to still want him.
As Buffy reach her final year before college she sat there one day staring at all the acceptance letters she received from various colleges around the country. All her hard work for the past four years finally paid off and she basically could go to any school she wanted to. In the end she knew deep down in her heart there wasn't any place she rather go to then Sunnydale College which was close to home and more obviously close to Angel. It wasn't the greatest college especially with her standards but he meant too much to her to leave him.
Over the past year Angel couldn't help but notice the slow creeping transformation that Buffy started to become. He was increasingly aware of her beauty and felt bewildered he would think of anything of a girl he thought was a brat when he was younger.
One sunny day when Spike, Angel and the rest of their gang were in the family room in Spike's house they were lounging around, just chatting about the end of their college term. When Spike rose to go get drinks, Gunn, a friend was casually looking at pictures up on the mantle and noticed a picture of Buffy and Spike together.
"Hey Angel. Come here."
"Yea. What's up Gunn?"
"Take a look at Spike's sister, Buffy."
Just as Angel was about to reply to Gunn's questions, Buffy came home but was unheard by Spike's friends. As she made her way to the family room she overheard her name and stopped to listen.
"What about Buffy Gunn?" Angel asked.
"Take a look at her. My, she's been growing up hasn't she? A hell of a looker she's turning out to be."
Angel, a bit put off that his friend saw her that way tried as best as he could to sound like he didn't care.
"I guess. I couldn't see her in that light though. She's Spike's kid sister. More of a brat really. She clings onto me and Spike like a leech all the time and it's obvious that she's in love with me or something." Angel couldn't help but smirk at that thought that he knew Buffy wanted him. He couldn't blame her, all women did.
Buffy couldn't help but feel like disappearing off the face of the earth. Not only was she deeply humiliated but the things he said about her... Brat? Leech? Obvious that she was in love with him? She silently led herself outside onto the porch where she cried in agony at his words. She felt like she was being stabbed repeatedly at her heart.
She decided to walk to the park so that no one would be able to see the distress she was in. She sat at a nearby park bench until nightfall unable to cope with the harsh reality that sunk in. The man of her dreams – Angel, broke her heart and it was obvious that he probably wouldn't give a damn. She was so mad at herself to let herself love someone so horrible, so self- centered and certainly a bastard. How could she be so naïve for all these years? She thought bitterly, she should have known better after all, all players are bastards anyway.
From that moment on, she stopped crying and vowed to regain her composure and self dignity. He may have broken her heart but she knew she didn't need him. She didn't need someone like him who thought of her like a kid and of a brat that was swooning over him because he was older and almost done college. She couldn't believe throughout her whole life how much she did to be with him and was disgusted at herself for being so blind. Blind to the truth. He never did give a shit about her. It enraged her that she cared about him so much and that he never felt the same way. Even after all these years.
As Buffy started to walk back she was determined to start fresh. To make a new life on her own – Angel free. A dream that would be hers, and hers only not because it was motivated by Him. She knew how she would do it. She needed to get out of Sunnydale. Take a fresh start in a new city. Her parents wouldn't mind that much; she had free scholarships from many locations so money wouldn't be an issue. She decided Harvard was her best choice. They had a free scholarship entailed for her and the best program in the country.
When Buffy walked back to her house she noticed that Spike's friends were still there at her house. For once in her life she felt strong. She was confident in the decisions she was about to make and the life changing situations that were going to take place.
As she walked in she was bombarded by Spike, her brother.
"Where the hell have you been? It's 1:00 am! I've been calling everywhere looking for you! I gotten worried sick that something happened to you. Even ruined my happy day with the boys with college ending n' all worrying about your arse."
Buffy staring at the clock didn't even realize that it was that late. As she walked into the family room where all of Spike's friends were gathered she took off her coat and couldn't help notice everyone staring at her. She suddenly noticed she was a bit underdressed only wearing a tank top and a short leather skirt.
Before she would directly look at Angel to see if her outfit made an impact on him but now she couldn't care less.
Spike came barging in and yelled
"Tell me where you were and why didn't you call! I'm responsible for you do you realize that when mom and dad are away?"
Buffy simply replied while inching her way to the stairs,
"I was out walking. I had a lot on my mind."
"Like...?" Spike asked
"College. What I want to do with my life. Sorry about worrying you. I didn't mean to spoil your fun with the guys. I'm just gonna go up to bed now. Night."
Spike grabbed her before she had a chance to escape.
"Not so fast there Buffy. So what? That was all you were doing? Just thinking? And what? You haven't come to a conclusion although we all known your going to stay in town."
Buffy couldn't help but get mad. Was she that predictable? Maybe before, but she was going to learn from her mistakes. She wanted to make sure Spike and Angel and all his buddies knew that.
Buffy pulled her arm back and looked at him straight in the eye and said,
"No Spike. I'm not as predictable as you think. I've already made up my mind and I'm certainly not staying in Sunnydale for College. I wanted to break this with you and mom and dad as a family since your being a dickhead I'll just let you know now. I've decided to go to Harvard to pursue my degree in Business. I'll talk to you more about this when mom and dad get home. I'm tired. I'm gonna go up to bed. Night."
This time Spike let her go. He slowly walked back to the family room where all his buddies were listening intently. His sister, his baby sister was deciding to leave the family, halfway across the country which he knew he would barely see her while she was studying at Harvard. It came as a huge shock to him. It was so... unlike Buffy. He had never seen Buffy like that before. So fierce, so confident, so determined. He had no idea what brought the change in her and he wasn't sure if he liked it.
Angel was caught by surprised too with her announcements. Also with the outfit she was wearing. When she whisked herself in the living room and took off her jacket he couldn't help but feel a hitch in his throat when he saw what she was wearing. God she looked so good. He couldn't help but feel guilty at all the thoughts that came through his mind at the sight of her. As he was pondering about it, he noticed for the first time that she never looked around the room for him. Or noticed him or anything. She usually spotted him first and smiled or tried to make conversation with him. He shrugged it off, knowing that she had a lot on her mind to begin with.
The announcements of her college plans did make Angel's heart skip a bit. He was so caught off by her declaration. Everyone figured she would stay, because everyone knew she had a crush on him and that it would be close to home. He couldn't understand why he felt so lonely and a bit hurt when he heard her news. Angel tried to shrug it off; believing that Buffy was probably just joking and most likely would change her mind later. That's it. That was the one thing he kept on trying to reassure himself over and over again.
Well folks I've had this idea locked away for so long and now its time to unleash it. I think it can become a great story. Feedback is greatly appreciated whether or not I should continue it or not. Hope you like it!
Feedback feeds the soul =)