When Nothing Goes Right

Vastulja Sata Menton

Chapter Ten: The Decision

It was late and I couldn't sleep. Quatre had left me after making sure that I was okay hours ago. To go and be with Trowa no doubt. Even after all of the stress, I still couldn't rest. I was worried about Heero and Wufei. Quatre had kicked them out for the night, but where would they go? Hopefully they didn't end up killing each other. I trusted Quatre's decision though. They would come back in the morning and I would have to decide who I wanted and what I wanted. I dreaded the idea. Someone was going to get hurt, and I was going to be the one causing the pain. Maybe that was what was keeping me up. I didn't want to heave such a heavy burden on my shoulders. I had to choose though, and be my own person. Even if it hurt me in the end.

(…)

The next morning, I woke to the sound of a light tapping on the bedroom door. (Yes, I had fallen asleep. After many hours of staying awake). I groaned, not wanting to wake so early in the morning. I turned in bed and called whoever it was into the room. It was Quatre, a bright shining smile gleaming on his face. Forever a morning person I guess.

"Wake up time sleepy head! Trowa has breakfast downstairs!" He chirped. I couldn't help but smile. "I expect you to be down in no more than five minutes. So chop chop!" He bounced out of the room, closing the door behind him. Food did sound good. I hadn't eaten since breakfast the day before after all. Quickly, I got out of bed and got dressed. On the way downstairs I brushed and rebraided my hair. I could smell the bacon and eggs even at the top of the steps. My mouth watered and I quickly rushed down the stairs. The food looked as good as it smelled. I prayed that it tasted just as good too. But as I scanned the table and its occupants, my appetite drastically dropped. Quatre and Trowa sat at the end of the table, looking at me. But I found Wufei and Heero there, glaring at each other from across the table. I could see that Wufei had a black eye and Heero a bloody lip. I wondered then what had happened when Quatre had kicked them out. That wasn't important though. I took a deep breath and took the seat at the end of the table across from Quatre and Trowa.

Once my presence was known by the sound of the chair, Wufei and Heero quickly turned their gazes to me. I looked down though, not wanting to meet their eyes. It would hurt too much and make things much more difficult. I was thankful when Trowa cleared his throat, distracting the two men from me. I too looked up and he stood.

"I hope that this is to your liking. Quatre says that I am very good at cooking and insisted that I make breakfast. I hope you enjoy." I smiled at him. He may be silent, but he was strongly spoken when need be. His cooking was good too. The eggs melted in my mouth and the bacon was crisped perfectly. The food almost made me forget about everything. Almost. But it was finished far too soon and taken away by the butler. With nothing before us to distract us, there was nothing else but reality. I did not dare look up; I didn't want to face any of it. The silence was very awkward.

Quatre cleared his throat and I lifted my head just enough to see him through my bangs. "I think maybe we should take this to the parlor," he suggested. There was no answer, but he stood and walked out of the dining room anyway. I stood quickly and followed behind him, not wanting to stay. I knew that I was going to have to confront both Heero and Wufei, but I wasn't ready just yet. I sat down in the same chair I had sat in when Heero had confronted Wufei. Quatre sat in the love seat across from me, and Trowa sat down beside him when he came in. Heero and Wufei sat down in chairs on either side of the room, staring at each other like they were going to kill one another. I looked at Quatre and he smiled weakly. I wasn't ready for this; I wasn't sure what I wanted. It had only been two days since the first confrontation. Couldn't I just get a little more time? To be alone and look inside of my self? I wanted to scream, to run, to die. Everything was just ripping apart my insides.

"Well, Duo?" At that moment and time I hated Quatre for a split second. He always had to say something first. Most of the time it didn't bother me. But now it did, because now I had to talk. Now I had to decide, and hurt someone. I took a deep breath and stole a glance at both of the men I had to choose between. They were looking at me, waiting. Just the thought of sharing my feelings in front of them both made me shiver. I had to do it though. I had to decide for myself.

I turned to Wufei first, but avoided his eyes. I knew I would be pulled in if I did look. "Wufei, I love you with all of my heart. You already know this. We have shared so many things with each other and you understand me." I turned to Heero, still not looking into the eyes of the one I cared so much for. "Heero. I love you with all of my soul; I have since the day we met. You're my best friend, and you too understand me." I took a deep breath, and faced Wufei one last time. "Wufei, I'm sorry. But I have to do what is best for me. I still love you and I hope we can still be friends. But what we have isn't what I need, want, or can handle. I'm sorry." I looked into his yes then, but regretted it more than ever. There was pain, anguish, and anger swirled into one. I truly feared for my life then. He did not lunge at me though. No. He stood, face set but emotions still showing through. He left the room, but moments later there was a slamming of the front door. He was leaving. No.

I jumped up, intending to follow him in a rush to stop him. Strong arms enveloped me before I could though, even as I shouted my ex-lovers name. I struggled against Heero's hold only to fall to my knee's in a fit of tears. I whispered that sweet name one last time before I broke down completely. Heero rocked me, whispering calming words in his native tongue. It was over, over. And I had to deal with the pain. But Heero was there, and so were Quatre and Trowa. It was going to be okay.

Owari

AN: It is finished. :sigh: Finally. Maybe some day I'll start another story that is a sequal to this onewith Heero and Duo together and all and like have Wufei come back or something. I don't know. For now though, it's finished.

Oh…and yes I know that I am a twisted person. Duh…I could have told you that. Mwahahahahahahahahaahahahahahah!

And Sancta, this story is supposed to be angst and OCC. You are right though. It is your fault for reading it. lol Thank you for your comment though :)

Thanks to all of my reviewers:

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