Demonic Desires

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Demonic Desires

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Kagome could not breathe as she sat under a tree. No matter how hard she tried, she simply could not breathe. Well, actually, she could. But not good, anyway. It was hard to due to the fact that her heart was beating so fast from fear. She could not stop thinking about how she had had an encounter with Inuyasha two nights before. He had kissed her so hard that her lips still hurt. And then, the next day, when she and Sango, Miroku, and Hatchi had ran to check on a nearby village, they had found Inuyasha's sit boy necklace laying on the ground, the beads strewn all over.

He was free. Totally free and unpredictable. And murderous. He was the one who murdered those people. It was a warning and Kagome knew it. She knew that, if she did not give herself up, that Inuyasha would kill more and more. He had made an example out of that poor village. And Koga as well, who was trying to protect her. Koga, who was now in Kaede's hut, recovering from his injuries. The injuries that Inuyasha had inflicted upon him. And he kept telling Kagome that, when he was completely finished healing, he was going to kick Inuyasha's ass.

Kagome had told him not to do anything and that she'd try to keep running. And then she told him what she had made Sango promise. To run whenever Inuyasha came. Run and never look back. Koga had not agreed to it at first, but soon, he just gave up and promised to do it. Sure, Kagome had lots of choices. But the consequences narrowed those choices down to pretty much nothing. She could:

1) Run home. But if she did, Inuyasha could follow her and murder her family and possibly everyone in the city if he put his mind to it.

2) She could keep running. But, other demons could attack her or her friends.

3) She could stay while her friends ran and let Inuyasha have his fun. But, she could end up pregnant with a demon baby and who is to say that, after he has his fun, he won't kill even though she had given herself to him? Or that he might turn back to normal and regret being near her and leave or kill himself out of misery and anger and self-pity?

Kagome, as she sat outside under the shade of an oak tree, sighed as she thought about these things. She was afraid and confused and in a way, felt a sense of hopelessness. She wanted to give herself up to him and beg him not to kill anymore and not to hurt anyone. But her friends would never let her do that. She knew that, even though they had promised to run, they were planning on staying.

And she knew that Inuyasha would not so much as hesitate to kill them like he had done with the villagers, leaving the village in ruins and bodies on the crimson stained ground, the bodies of animals and people in the burning huts being cremated.

She shuddered as a cold breeze blew past her, gently caressing her face and brushing through her raven hair. All she really wanted was for the real Inuyasha to return to her and for things to go back to normal. But that was just a hopeless thought and wish. It would never happen. Inuyasha would eventually catch up to her, rape her, and then who knows what would happen after that.

"Kagome, hey, Kagome!" Sango called from where she stood next to Kaede's hut, "Are you hungry?"

Kagome shook her head gently as Sango looked at her with a concerned look, "Are you sure?" Sango yelled back. Kagome nodded in response.

Sango turned and went back into the hut where she was, without a doubt, eating and talking with Miroku and Kaede.

Kagome looked around sort of uneasily at the cloudy sky and the trees that were swaying in the breeze. She had to come up with a solution. Stay and let her friends protect her, Run away home, Or give herself up to him. She sighed and felt a tear trail down her cheek. She reached up and swiped it away, trying to keep herself from succumbing to sadness and to Inuyasha.

Another breeze wafted through her hair and caused her to shiver. She pulled her knees up to her chest and felt tears sting her eyes. No, she thought, I can't cry. I want to be strong. I have to be strong.

But even as she thought these things, it did not help. Tears made their silent journey down her face, leaving behind a salty trail. She sniffled and felt very pathetic and vulnerable as she rose shakily to her weak feet. She had reached a decision at long last.

She began to stumble into the woods, walking unseeingly past trees and stumps and roots. She sniffed again as she pushed through vines and bare tree limbs as she continued to walked through the woods. "I'm here," She whispered in a hoarse voice to one person and one person only who just did not happen to be around.

"I'm here," She repeated a little louder, her voice still shaky. "Come get me! It's what you want, isn't it? You want me, so come get me!"

She stumbled and fell to the unforgiving ground. Something cold landed on her back. Then it did again. And something landed on her face. At first, she thought that she was crying, but after the little droplets of water continued to fall harder and faster, she realized that it was rain.

"Come on," She persuaded, sounding almost sick. The water had already soaked her clothes and hair as was dribbling down her face. "Come get me! I want you to come for me!"

The wind sent to trees wavy and whispering, as if conversing about the young woman before them who was clearly delusional. Each time Kagome heard the least little noise or crack of a limb or the rustling in the trees, she would jump and squeak like a little mouse.

Tears were still falling from her eyes, mixing with the rain the dropped onto her pale face. "Come on, Inuyasha!" She cried.

She just sat there on her knees, her whole body soaked from the rain, tears streaming from her watery eyes. She looked and felt pitiful as the time went by and there was a silence.

"Kagome?"

The girl jumped back a foot and spun around to find Koga looking down at her with concern.

"What are you doing out here, Kagome?" Koga demanded, looking perplexed, "Oh no…Don't tell me…"

"Koga, I….I was…." Kagome could not find words. She was too sad and suddenly ashamed of her actions. "I was looking for him…I wanted him to come and get me…."

Koga lifted her up to her feet and wrapped his strong arms around her, "Kagome," He said softly, both of them soaked to the bone, "Why?"

"I-I," Kagome stuttered, "I wanted it all to end. I still do…Oh, God…What can I be thinking?" She asked, mostly to herself, with a sob.

He stroked her wet raven hair and murmured comforting words as she began to cry once more. Her sobs racked through her body and he led her over to a huge oak tree and they sat down underneath it. It kept some of the rain out, but not much. "It's all right," He said, not sure if that was necessarily true or not, "I'm here now…"

After a few minutes, Kagome had calmed somewhat and looked up sheepishly at him, "I feel so stupid. How could I have done such a thing that was this ridiculous?"

"It's ok," Koga replied, "If I were you, I probably would've done the same thing."

"I-I just don't know what to do." Kagome said as she lay in his warm embrace, her head laying against his muscular chest.

"Stay with me," Koga suggested, "Stay right here with me…forever."

Kagome did not know what to say. Even though Koga had told her things like this before, those words seemed different somehow. And she was pretty sure that her heart belonged to Inuyasha. The real Inuyasha. She was blushing, the only color on her face. "I-I can't," She stammered, "I mean, you'll get hurt like you did last time and there's no guarantee that Inuyasha won't kill you the next time he comes."

Koga did not reply for a while, leaving an uneasy silence between the two of them as they sat, huddled together underneath that big oak tree. "You know I'll always be here for you." Koga said at last.

Kagome felt the same effect hit her like the last words he said. "Yeah, I know. But…I'm still worried."

"Don't be." Was all he said as the rain began to subside and he lifted her up in his strong arms and carried her back to the hut. Once there, no one asked questions. They knew Kagome felt horrible and probably embarrassed as well for her previous actions and Koga having to go fetch her. Kagome simply went to her sleeping bag and curled up inside and went to sleep.

She knew she would have to reach a decision soon, but she would deal with that when she awoke.

Author's Note: How was it? I know that it was short and uneventful, but work with me here! I am working on tests and homework and school and parades and…and…well, the usual. Including family disasters like my 3 month old niece who was in the hospital suffering from a fractured skull because her father neglected her. Ok, enough bout me! Review, please!

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