Thank you to everyone to submitted feedback, i admit the first part wasnt the best i hadnt written in awhile... oh and in this part, im sorry if some medical stuff if left out... im not much of a medical writer, as i dont know much terminology.

thanks again.

Part 2

As Cameron lays there on the operating table with blood everywhere , House cant believe that someone as beautiful and perfect as her could be here in a life threateningt situation.

'Damnit concentrate'

His brain was telling him otherwise he could possibly lose her forever and he could not go through that again especially she doesnt know how he feels.

Two Hours later, he came out of surgery without hope in his eyes. thankfully she was now stable and is fighting to live

'Strong willed, Knew she would pull through' But in reality he didnt, he feared she wouldnt survive he takes a breath that goes through his lungs sighing in relief then finally collapsing in a nearby chair in his office.

A few minutes later Cuddy comes in, obviously looking for him.

' How is she doing?' She asked him in a concerned tone, worried about her friend and employee.

'yeah, she is doing okay we got her stable eventually although it was a difficult procedure but what can i say, I'm good! she does have a fighting spirit we all know that and thankfully in this case she used it to survive" His smirk turns into a frown then continues.

'Even though she may be okay, physically but emotionally is not going to be easy to come to grips with, i cant even imagine how she must feel'

Sadness upon his face he turns away not wanting to show his emotion to anyone less alone cuddy so he turned himself into stone like he has done so many times without having to try.

'Are YOU okay?'

'I'm fine, why wouldnt i be?. I'm not the one who had to go through all that tonight so i ned to remind you?'

She gave him this look that she knew he was lying as he usually does as it goes with his saying that everybody lies' which they may for certain reasons and he has very good reasons for doing so, well to an extent.

' I know but i can se this has taken a toll on you and even though you may deny it i know you care for this girl its okay its easy to get emotional when something this terrible happens to someone you care about'

he continud to stare at her blankly, attempting to once again hide his true emotions but knew what she was saying it didnt mean that he had to do anything about it he knew he should but would he? probably not.

'Who me?. I dont like anyone'

Cuddy smirked at him knowing him as she does she knew that right now he couldnt deal with too many things at once, with Cameron like she is.. and his feelings for her it was too much for him to handle even though he wont admit it he is definitely too pigheaded and stubborn for that to happen.

He tended to protect himself and his heart from any emotional heartbreak and he felt that if he didnt express any emotion or feeling than he wouldnt be able to get rejected which he feels may happen and he couldnt handle that.

'Fine, be like that I'm going to see the patient to check on her'

With that she walked off leaving him standing there to think about what she had said, which he knew was the truth plain and simple.

The next day, House went into Cameron's room to check up on her, see how she was doing if there was any complications the usual but he did want to see HER most of all.

Walking into the room he notices that she was still asleep, its best that she does sleep, he pulls up a chair anc sits next to her just watching her sleep peacefully one of the great wonders of the world, sleep. Even with all the machines and tubes and everything she has never looked more beautiful, sure he always knew and felt she was pretty and attractive but until now he didnt realize how beautiful she is, inside and out.

Sighing out loud ' Oh Cameron, I am so sorry' he takes hr hand within his own and lays his head against her body.

' House?'

A groggy voice whispers as he feels her hand move, her fingers twitching and searching his face unsure of whether he was really there or not.

' Oh welcome back, how are you feeling?'

She half smiled and looked into his eyes.

' Eh, sore the usual .. but what can you expect right?'

He nodded in agreement, then he continued to talk some more .

'Well get some rest you must be exhausted i just wanted to come and see you were doing but ill come and check on you later'

He left the room unsure of what to make of these feelings forming inside him whenever he was around her, the next minute he looked up back into reality to see a bunch of nurses rushing towards Cameron's room , he got a bad feeling and ushered towards them opening the door once again to see doctors and nurses surrounding her.

'Whats going on here?'

They just looked at him and proceeded to tell him that she suddenly had a blood clot in her brain coming from nowhere but that they need to fix it at this moment before serious damage could be done.

'Oh no, please no'

With a horrid look upon his face he proceeded to help , not long later they had managed to clear the clot hoping it wouldnt occur again.

Just when he thought things couldnt get any worse, the worse was confirmed by 3 words that felt like a knife to his heart.

' Who are you?'

Cameron was awake, dazed and confused looking around the room like she had no idea who he was but how could this be?. It seemed she had amnesia termporary or Permanet he wasnt sure. It must have been caused with the blood clotting awhile ago

He couldnt believe this was happening, just when things might have stood a chance of becoming okay again, this happens.. just his luck.

'Uh, Cameron, I'm Dr. House... dont you know me?... remember me?'

She looked confused and scared all at once, house knew from the look in her eyes that she had no idea where she was or who he was which scared him to death.

'No, No I dont... You are scaring me can you please not look at me like that?'

She announced before turning her had away from him and went into her own little world.

'Im sorry'

was all he said before turning and walking out of the room, into the foyer full of people just sitting around, nurses walking back and forth.

'WHAT HAVE I DONE?'

He screamed at himself outloud in front of the whole hospital, bringing his hands to his face trying to hide his guilt and pain that clouded him at this moment.

What if something he did during her surgery brought this on, trying to find a reason to blame himself because in one way or another he was to blame for what happened to her.

'I'M SO SORRY CAMERON'

He yelled once again now everyone turned and looked at him, but he didnt care he felt like nobody was in the room but his guilt and him bound together.