Chapter 12
Shattered Feelings
Kira approached to what it seemed to be a very cheerful looking Fllay, he just stood in front of her. He awaited Fllay to begin talking
"Wow, Kira you sure had me fooled" Fllay stated. Fllay handed Kira a folder "So Kira, I'm going to make this short. You do what I tell you and you're little secret stays safe with me" Kira angrily took the folder from Fllay. He opened it, there was a blue print of a bank
"What do you want me to do with this!" Kira demanded
"I want you to steal money for me, what does it look like?" Fllay said innocently
"I'm not going to rob a bank!" Kira said angrily. Kira began to make fists, unable to control his anger
"Now, now, now I'm sure Kira Yamato wouldn't hit a girl now, would he?" A familiar voice said as he approached Kira from behind holding a gun to Kira's head, it was Shinn. Kira turned around and faced Shinn.
"You know Kira, if you don't do it we'll make sure Lacus sees those pictures. I can see it now, Lacus heart shattering because the person she loves can no longer be trusted" Shinn said joyfully
"Kira what do you see in her anyways, she's a Clyne, how can you be involved with a Clyne" Shinn said coldly
"If you have a grudge against Clyne, why did you join this organization" Kira said giving a death glare to Shinn
"I'm just trying to…uh oh, I almost let it slip" Shinn said. Kira remained motionless
"Let's just be clear, I want you to steal as much money as you're capable of, and I know you're a very capable person, Kira Yamato" Shinn said pointing the gun to Kira's face. Kira unable to endure Shinn's presence any longer Kira quickly, and skillfully grabbed Shinn's wrist giving Kira control of the position of where the gun was aiming. Shinn unable to control his movement any longer was punched directly underneath his chin causing Shinn to fall down unconsciously
Fllay stood there watching it all, she was a little afraid, Fllay was speechless unable to say a word. Kira turned around, and looked at Fllay directly. Fllay was terrified, the look in Kira's eyes were making her feel frightened and struck terror in her heart. Kira was in seed mode
"W…W…What the hell are you…" Fllay said nervously. Kira left the folder on the ground and walked away
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"Alright Mr. Yamato, it's done. Someone will be assigned sometime today"
"Thank you" Kira said. Kira walked out of the Clyne Faction official's office. Kira headed to his room,
It was still early in the mourning. Lacus was knocked out like a baby. Kira quickly gathered all of his belongings and called a transport to take him back to Orb. Kira went down to the limo driver and handed all his belongings to him.
"Sorry could you wait, I forgot something" Kira said. Kira made his way back up to where Lacus was
Kira rapidly shook Lacus until she awoke. Lacus quickly sat up and rubbed her eyes
"Kira what's wrong?" Lacus asked. Kira sat down beside Lacus facing his back towards her. Lacus could feel something bad happened "Kira, what is it?"
His back was still facing her, he was unable to look at her straight in the eye. "Lacus, I'm sorry" Kira said. Lacus tried moved closer to Kira to comfort him but Kira pushed her away gently "K…Kira" Lacus said. Lacus was starting to feel a little scared
"Lacus, I made you join this organization so I could impress you with my combat ability. I don't know why I thought like that, I don't even think like that"
"Kira…what are you talking about, you're not making any sense" Lacus said
"Lacus, why didn't you get mad at me when I lied about my identity" Kira said
"I…didn't really care. From the first day I met you, when I trained you, I could feel a connection that I had never felt before, I just wanted to be with you. As time passed my feelings for you become harder and harder to control…"
"How come you're like that, you didn't even know me" Kira said
"Kira why are you acting like this, what happened?" Lacus felt very confused
"I…don't deserve to be with you"
The words Kira said echoed in her head as tears began to form in her eyes
"W…What…are you trying to say…?"
"The other night, when you were out with you're father, there was a party being thrown for all of the members here…" Kira tried to keep his head up as he looked Lacus in the eyes
"I got drunk…and something happened between me and…this girl" Kira became extremely vulnerable, his eyes began to tear up
Lacus could sense where this was going; she was unable to say any words
"I arranged for someone to take my place, he should be here sometime today. Please don't leave until he comes" Kira said slowly getting up
"Weather…you want to take me back or not, which I wouldn't blame you if you didn't, I can't look at you any longer. Right now it feels like knives are trying to dig into my heart. I'm sorry…Lacus" Kira began to walk away when Lacus grabbed on to his arm
"K…Kira…" Lacus began to shed tears. Kira pulled away and walked out of the room. Lacus wanted to stop him but she didn't know what to say, she couldn't even gather the strength to go after him, she just stood there crying
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Kira got onto jet and headed back to Orb
Kira' POV
Damn it, how did it end up like this? Why does everything retarded happen to me? What did I do? I'm like an infectious disease unable to be cured. The ultimate coordinator eh? What's so great about me, I'm an idiot, I can't do anything right.
Maybe I was meant to die. That day I was cornered by Rau. Ever since that day passed, my life just got harder and harder to deal with.
Damn it why am I such a screw up
End POV
Kira arrived at Orb and immediately went to Athrun's office. He told him everything that had happened
"Kira…I don't know what to say, all I can say as that she's one big ass bitch" Athrun said.
"Kira what are you going to do from here on? Athrun asked
"I haven't figured it out yet. Athrun I'll see later" Kira silently left his office. Athrun put his hands over his head, he couldn't help but blame himself for everything that happend with Kira
Athrun picked up his phone and called Cagalli. Athrun then told Cagalli everything that had happened to Kira
"Don't blame you're self, it wasn't you're fault…" Cagalli said. Cagalli found it hard to keep herself together, she felt so bad for Kira, he was finally happy and now he's back to where he was
"But…you should have seen his face; it looked like the life was sucked right out of him. Cagalli I'm worried I've never seen Kira like that before, I think you should try talking to him" Athrun said
"Yeah, I have a good idea where he is" Cagalli said
"Really how would you know" Athrun asked
"Because every time he gets upset he usually sits by the lake" Cagalli said
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"Hey Fllay, Kira quit" Shinn said
"What?" Fllay said
"He quit yesterday mourning" Shinn said
"But why?" Fllay asked
"I don't know"
"Well, I don't really care, I don't want anything to do with him anymore" Fllay said
"Come on, let me just focus on getting Clyne for you, I don't want to deal with my revenge anymore, plus I already sent Lacus the pictures" Fllay said
"I see"
"I have just the plan to get Siegal" Fllay smiled
"Eh! R…Really!" Shinn said overjoyed
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Just like Cagalli said, Kira was sitting by the lake
"Kira" Cagalli said. Kira didn't turn to face his sister he just stood in the same spot "did Athrun tell you" Kira asked
"Yeah…Kira, it's not you're fault" Cagalli tried to comfort him
"Yes it is, I'm a screw up, I always was…"
"You're not a screw up, screw ups aren't genius' Kira" Cagalli said. Kira stood there silently
"Why…does everything bad happen to me?" Kira asked
"Kira, believe it or not you accomplished a lot then most people" Cagalli stated. Kira then attempted to change the subject
"Cagalli, did you know I wasn't born naturally?" Kira said. Cagalli knew immediately where Kira was going with this
"Kira, I know about you're birth, our birth" Cagalli said.
Kira was surprised to find out that Cagalli knew all along. She was told by her father when she found out Kira was her brother
"Kira don't just stay there continuing to hate you're self because you're existence was someone's dream"
"It doesn't matter how we come into this world. A life is a life, you're no different then anyone else, remember that Kira, I'm sorry about Lacus…but if you stand around hating you're self one day you're going to get old and realize what you wanted is to late to achieve" Cagalli said
Kira did something Cagalli didn't expect him to do, he embraced her "Cagalli you knew, I'm really glad I have a sister like you" Kira smiled. Cagalli smiled, it seemed like she got Kira back to his former self.
To be continued…