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AN: three more chaps to go after this one... wohoo! enjoy.

chapter 8

He was lying on his bed trying to win back control over his feelings. Everything was going up and down, flying around, a mixture of indefinable feelings and emotions, some of which he hoped that he wouldn't have to feel them.

He wished that he could have asked her the question that was haunting him through his life ever since she had left him. Why?

Why hadn't she been able to continue to live her life with him in it. Together with him? Why?

Was it because of the accident?

It's just a usual day at work, that's what he thinks. They enter the old warehouse and soon reach the crime scene over a gangway. It's just like it always is.

Warrick is taking pictures of the scene while Sara is trying to get fingerprints from one of the iron rails. Grissom carefully watches Sara from the corners of his eyes. She's leaning over the balustrade and Grissom holds his breath, feeling his heart beating faster. He doesn't feel well with the thought that she is still working and now this, 'does she have to get herself into danger on purpose?' He thinks, leaving his place to walk over to her.

Suddenly there is a loud bang, the light goes off and there's a jolt running through the gangway. He hears her scream but he can't see anything. Then he hears a dull bounce and a soft groan from the groundtwenty feet below them.

"Sara!" he screams out in panic. "Sara?" He's shaking, he can't see anything, he can't move, the shock fills his body and he starts feeling completely numb.

Warrick is the first one who gains back his senses. He turns on his flashlight and the suspicion that Sara fell down to the ground becomes a bitter certitude when neither of them can spot her on the gangway.

"Call 911!" That's everything Grissom gets over his lips. He's still not able to move. He can hardly breath.

Warrick runs over to the ladder and climbs down to the ground. Grissom hears how Warrick calls an ambulance and then he sees the light of Warrick's flashlight under his feet. He is too afraid to look down. He is too afraid that he might see Sara lying there in a pool of her own blood. He is too afraid to see the love of his life lying on the cold, dirty ground in her own blood.

"Sara?" He can hear Warrick's voice. "Sara are you okay?"

Grissom prays that Sara will answer Warrick. But there's nothing but silence.

"Sara c'mon wake up." Warrick sounds nervous. "Griss, …Griss she's unconscious."

Grissom wants to answer but he can't speak, his throat feels as if it's corded up.

"Grissom?" Warrick calls out. "Sara! Sara wake up!"

He is shaking when he finally manages to move. He carefully makes his way to the ladder. When he reaches the ground he can see Sara lyingin the dirt.Seeing her like this is more than he is able to take.

"Sara?" Warrick whispers to her. And then she opens her eyes for a second.

"This hurts." That's all that she can say, then she looses conscience again.

"Sara you have to stay awake." Warrick is patting her cheeks. "Sara open your eyes."

It takes a while until she does so. "Where's Grissom?" She asks with weak voice.

"He's over there." Warrick tells her, not knowing why Sara asks after Grissom, how should he know?

Then the ambulance arrives. The paramedics run over to Sara and take care of her. Grissom watches everything from where heis standing,almost thirtyfeet away from her.

He can see that Warrick is holding Sara's hand and that Warrick is talking to Sara but he can't hear anything. It'sas ifnot only his whole body but also his senses went numb.

Sara is carried to the ambulance and it doesn't take long until it drives away.

…blue …darkness…blue…darkness… blue…darkness…blue…darkness… blue …darkness…blue…

He hears the ambulance drive away and the colors of the flashing light are fading, the darkness in the hall prevails again. He hears Warrick's steps behind himself but he doesn't turn around.

Did the accident and its consequences still haunt her?

Later he had been told that there had been a short circuit which had caused the gangway to move so abruptly. He hadn't cared at all about the reasons. All he had been caring about was Sara. And the doctors did not really try to get his hopes up. Sara had been hurt badly and had had several inner injuries. They had told him that her chances were forty to sixty percent.

Sara had survived but it had never been the same. This accident had changed their whole life and all their plans were shattered into pieces.

And then Sara had left him.

Thinking about all this hurt. This time it even hurt more than ever before. He started shaking and rolled on his stomach, burying his face into the pillow.

TBC