this chapter was hard for me to write because i have never been where emily is so i hope you like it. i tried my best
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Ch 5
"Mommy"
When Monica heard Emily can her mommy she started to cry again. Even though she and Emily were close, Emily hadn't called her that
since she was 10 years old. Her voice sounded so scared, so lost.
When she looked into Emily's eyes she could tell that her prayers had not been answered.
"Hey sweetie how are you feeling?"
"My heads hurting"
"Well you hit your head pretty hard. I can have one of the nurses give something for it if you'd like"
"Yeah, sure" she as she tried to hide the real pain that she had been feeling.
There were so many things she wanted to talk her mother about but it just hurt so much, both physically and emotionally. Was it suppose
to hurt this much?
She never really talked to Monica about it. She figured that there was no reason to because she never really had a boyfriend and guessed
that they would about it when she was ready to be with a guy like that. But she was never given that chance. She was never given the
chance to talk to her mother about it; she never had the chance to decide if she was ready.
Emily heard foot steps outside her door and wiped her tears before anyone could see them.
Monica came back into the room with a nurse and the nurse gave Emily some medication to ease her headache.
"So how are you really feeling?" Monica asked her again knowing that Emily had lied to her the first time
" I don't know. I mean I hurt all over and I just feel so empty inside. I don't really know how else to describe it" Emily told her as she
started to cry again
"Emmy I'm so sorry. I never should have let you go to that dance" Monica said as she to start to cry.
"Mom it's not your fault, I would have went anyway"
Just then Alan showed up at the door way
"Hey how's my baby girl doing?" he asked as he fought back tears when he saw that was Emily covered in bruises
Emily started cry when he called her his baby girl. 'How could he call me his baby girl after every thing that
has happened today?' She thought
Later that day Emily's hospital room
Emily was suppose to be sleeping but instead she tried to process everything that had happened in the last 24 hours. She had tried to put
on a brave face for everyone but she hadn't fooled them. She felt so horrible yet she did not know how to explain the pain she felt, it was
like something she had never felt before.
She did not understand how she could feel so completely empty and scared about something. Everything that had happened today had
scared her. But what scared her most was those new feelings that she never really had before, she felt so violated, so used and disgusted
with herself.
She should have been able to doing something more to stop him, she shouldn't have let him take a way something that was so important
to her. But as much as she was disgusted with her self she was even more disgusted with who ever did this to her.
How could some one do some thing like this to her? How could someone just grab a girl off the streets and so with her what ever he
pleased? Did she do something to deserve it? She had so many questions but no answers.
She was getting tired but tried to fight the sleep off. She didn't know what would happen if she closed her eyes and she really didn't want
to find out. A nurse came in and Emily shut her eyes so the nurse would this she was asleep. She didn't want anymore medications and
knew that if the nurse realized she was awake that she would give her a sedative. The nurse checked Emily's vitals and by the time she
left Emily was fast asleep.
Emily slept peacefully for about two hours before she woke. She was fine until she started to relive the rape, she was afraid of doing that
so she had tried to stay up but she must have dosed off.
When Emily opened her eyes she saw Nikolas sitting on a chair next to her bed, looking at her concerned.
As soon as she saw him she instinctively moved away from him and crawled into a tight ball on the bed. She started to cry when realized
that she was scared of Nikolas and how stupid it was. Nikolas sat there and cried as he saw how scared and lonely she looked.
They just sat there in her hospital room, crying. Crying for would have been had she not over heard him and lucky, what could have been
had they made different choices and what they now believed never would be because of a misunderstanding that seemed so petty now.