Gravitation

Title: Makeikasu

Disclaimer: I do not own gravitation no matter how much I love it -;;

Chapter 3: Protest (Kogi)

Tohma's POV

It was a horrible sight to see Shuuichi like that. He was covered in blood from head to toe. After he fell unconscious, I ran over to his side to see if he still had a pulse. He did, and I rushed to the phone and called an ambulance. The doctors said that he just missed his heart and they needed to give him a blood transfusion. He was alive, but just barely. Then they told me that Shuuichi is very weak and may not make it over night. Hearing this, I called all of his friends and told them what happened. They rushed over here so quickly.

We asked the doctors if we could see him, but they told us we should wait a little longer. "I can't believe... He would do this. If I had... Paid more attention... To him and... His feelings and not lost touch with him, I... Would've known how he felt. I could've stopped him. I let... My best friend down." Hiro said between chocked sobs. Everyone was crying. But the one I think who was affected the most was Eiri. He sat by himself on a couch on the other side of the room with his head in his hands. He was crying and just trying to hide it from everyone. He really does care for Shuuichi. If only he could've shown him that care before this happened.

"DAMN IT! That damn brat. First he leaves without saying a word and disappears and now he attempts suicide. This is all my fault." Everyone in the waiting room jumped when Eiri banged his fist on the wall and yelled something so unexpected. I couldn't believe my ears. He fell to the floor and put his arms around his legs and buried his face sobbing quietly to himself. I felt bad for Eiri. Seeing him cry like this. There was only one other time he cried like this but that was so long ago. I went over and tried to comfort him, but it didn't work. Eiri had only cried louder. "Tohma, don't let him die. I don't w-want him... To leave me... Alone. I promise... That I'll make it up to him." Eiri finally began to realize his feelings for him, but he might be too late. The first important thing Eiri ever asked of me, I may not be able to do. "Eiri, I can't promise, but I will do my best to help Shuuichi. We might be too late. You may not be able to tell him how you feel or that you're sorry. He may not make it over night. I'm sorry..." I couldn't do or say anything to help him.

The doctor came out and told us we can see Shuuichi. We couldn't be loud or excite him in any way because he was too weak. We all went in and saw him sleeping on a white bed with white sheets covering him. He was attached to so many machines and wires. This sight made Eiri whimper a little and caused him to worry more than before. We all took a seat somewhere in the room and waited for him to wake up. Eiri and I sat on opposite sides of Shuuichi. His eyes opened and he looked at me first, then to Eiri. "Where am I? What happened?" Shuuichi spoke, merely above whisper. His throat probably hurt too much to talk louder after cutting it up the way he did. "I brought you to the hospital after you threatened to commit suicide. Why did you do that? What were you thinking?" I was worried about HIM of all people. Maybe because it was hurting Eiri, but then again, I did feel bad for the singer. We had just started to get along.

"Tohma-san. I told you not to save me. Why did you save me? I don't want to live."He reached for the wires going in his body ready to pull them out. Eiri pulled his hand away so easily because Shuuichi hadn't enough energy to refuse. He started crying when he saw Eiri and turned the other way so he didn't have to face him. "Shuuichi. I'm so sorry about what I did before. I didn't mean for that to happen. I was really lonely without you. I-I love you-" Eiri stuttered but Shuuichi cut him off. "Shut up! I Don't want to hear your lies and false excuses. You weren't lonely without me. You think I don't know about her! I know you were going out with some girl. You were dating her for a month before I found out and left-"Shuuichi couldn't say anymore. It pained him. I couldn't believe my ears when Shuuichi said this. I thought that Eiri wouldn't do that to him because they were starting to get serious. I guess I was wrong. "Shuuichi, how do you know that? About her? I wasn't-" "I saw her talking about you to her friend. I know everthing so don't lie to me anymore. Just go away. You should be much happier without me anyway. You never cared for me and never will. I realize that now." Shuuichi buried his face in his pillow. I looked at Eiri with a questioned yet accusing face. He just looked away.

Shuuichi pleaded to me to make Yuki and everyone else leave because there were too many questions being asked that he refused to answer. Eiri refused to leave but when the doctor came in, he made everyone, including me, leave. Shuuichi asked me on my out if I can come back in later, alone. I promised him I would. I wouldn't leave his side. Everyone went home for the night and told me to call if anything happened to Shuuichi since I would be staying all night. Besides myself, Eiri also stayed even though he was refused by Shuuichi to come in.

A few hours later, Eiri had been sleeping peacefully on the couch in the waiting room. He was much more relaxed now that he knew Shuuichi was okay. "Seguchi-sama!" The doctor called. When I went over to him, he told me that I could see Shuuichi but to be quiet because he was sleeping. In my mind I kept saying to myself, 'Shuuichi, don't die. Don't die on us.' Me of all people worrying for him. To think I used to hate him and now that we're getting along well, he might die. I walked into his room silently and sat at his bedside. I looked down at him. He stirred in his sleep.

"Shuuich?." I said as I brushed a pink lock of hair from his eye."Tohma-san, you're here-" He coughed. "I told you I would be here. Try not to talk much. You need to save your energy. We're all worried about you. We don't want you to die. Why did you attempt suicide?" I started crying, the tears forcibly pouring down my already tear stained cheeks. Shuuichi was shocked to see me crying. But he couldn't be anymore shocked than I was. He gave me a gentle but weak smile. "Everyone went home?" "Everyone except Eiri and myself. He wants to see you and speak to you-" Shuuichi cut me off. "If he's going to tell me now that he loves me, he's waisting his time. If it took him too realize his feelings for me after I attempted suicide, I wasn't that important to him before." Shuuichi didn't cry. He was more, mature than usual. We were all so busy to realize how much he's grown up. I let the subject on Eiri drop for now and smiled at him.

Shuuichi's POV

I couldn't believe Tohma-san was crying for me. Why? I mean, we are getting along better now, but I didn't think it was enough to make him worry about me. I thought that no matter how much friendlier we become, there would always be a part of him that hated me. I guess I was wrong.He has such concern in his voice for me that it's unbelievable. It's like a dream. I suppose it's kind of nice to hear kind words coming from Tohma-san. I'd much rather hear kind words from Tohma-san than Yuki. Yuki's words are all lies anyway. I'll never believe him again. I guess since Tohm-san saved me, I won't give up. I'll live, for him. wait- What am I saying. Am I giving up on Yuki for Tohma-san. No, I can't be in love with him. Tohma-san of all people. He would never like me anyway so I should just forget that. But still. . . " Maybe, one day I will forgive Yuki but I can't guarantee I will return to him." I lied to him. "Just promise me that you won't let Yuki appear before me again. It's too painful to see him. Please, Tohma-san?" "I promise, Shuuichi. Now lay down and get some rest."

Tohma's POV Again

Flashback

Shuuichi had made it over night and woke up in the morning. He din't speak much. He had an extremely sad look in his eyes. He probably regreted breaking up with Yuki and saying he never wanted to see him again. I told Eiri that Shuuichi wished for him to never appear before him again, even though it was painful for me to tell him that. Eiri understood and thought he would give Shuuichi some time to sort out his feelings and whether or not he would forgive him. Eiri didn't want to rush things and make Shuuichi hate him anymore than he did and he didn't want to risk making the chances high for him to not forgive him. Towards the middle of the day Shuuichi started to feel weak again so I told him to lay down, but he refused. I was about to leave for a drink and some food but Shuuichi grabbed my shirt and pulled me back onto the bedside, shaking his head no. He held onto me tightly and didn't let me go. I put my arms around him and assured him that I wasn't going to leave. He fell asleep in my arms. I couldn't help but stare at his angelic face as he slept. I had to admit he was kind of cute. Eiri doesn't know what he risked giving up. I absent mindedly pulled our faces closer to each other until our lips were almost touching. I pulled away from him quickly when I realized what I was about to do. I can't believe I was just about to kiss Shuuichi. I can't do that. I'm married and besides I don't have feelings for him that way. He probably doesn't have feelings for me either. No matter what he says, he's probably still hung up on Eiri.

The doctor came in and saw Shuuichi sleeping in my arms. It was quite embarrassing. He asked me if he was okay. I told him that Shuuichi fell asleep like that a few moments ago. The doctor had a worried look on his face. He checked Shuuichi's pulse. "What's wrong?" I nervously asked, afraid of the news I might end up getting. "His pulse is slowly going back to normal. But. . . It's unusual for someone to sleep so much. He's growing so weak. I'm worried we may not be able to do anything more than what we have. It's up to his will now. I'm sorry." The doctor doubted him, but I knew Shuuichi wouldn't give up. He promised me he wouldn't. Shuuichi has a strong will to live, he won't die, I won't let him. I let him sleep in my arms all day since he wouldn't let go even in his sleep. I wouldn't have left anyway. Right now, it seemed that I was the only one Shhuichi could trust and rely on. It didn't look like he was going to wake up any time soon. I was getting worried. Then, I regreted telling Shuuichi to lay down and sleep.

End Flashback