Gravitation
Title: Makeikasu
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation even though I want to so badly. I'm sure everyone else wishes the same thing.
Chapter 5: Change (Kawari)
Shuuichi's POV
The next morning, I woke to the sweet smell of breakfast. It smelled so good. When I awoke, at first, I forgot whose house I was in. Then the happenings of last night came to mind and I quickly remembered where I was and who I was with. Tohma came out of the kitchen and greeted me with a "Good morning. Did you sleep well? Are you hungry? I made us breakfast." I shook my head yes and headed for the kitchen and sat down at the table. I couldn't wait to eat Tohma's homemade cooking just for me. Again, the thought of last night came to my mind and I blushed at the thought. "Shuuichi? Is something wrong? You're so quiet this morning. Are you mad at me for last night? Did I do anything wrong? I hope not." Tohma sounded worried. "I bet you just thought, 'Damn, he still does have feelings for Eiri", didn't you?" Tohma blushed and looked away. "Awww. I didn't mean to sound mean." I walked up to him and lifted his face so he can face me. "Tohma. I don't have those feelings for Yuki anymore. He's all in the past now. I have you." I blushed. He put his arms around my waist and pulled me into a long passionate kiss. I love when he kissses me this way. Yuki never made me feel this way.
While eating breakfast, I began to realize that Mika wasn't here. Wait, Tohma's married and yet, last night he- This isn't good. He cheated on Mika for me. She's going to be pissed if she finds out. Not only because her husband cheated on her with me, but because I broke up with Yuki and went out with his brother-in-law despite knowing he's married. No matter who he is or how much power he has, Tohma can't hide his affair from Mika, atleast not for too long. Will he break up with me or divorce from Mika? I don't want him to leave me too, then I really will have nothing or no one. "Tohma, what about Mika-san? Is it okay for you to be doing this?" I asked nervously. I would regret it if I got the answer I didn't want to hear. But instead. . . "Oh, that's right. You were unconcious when everything changed." He put his cup of coffee down and I could see a deep sadness in his eyes. He quickly shrugged it off with a quick smile. He was going to tell me something bad and something good. Or atleast, I hope something good also.
"Shuuichi. Mika, well, she . . ." He paused. "It's okay Tohma, you don't have to tell me anything if it's to painful for you." "It's okay." He smiled and then continued. "Last year, Mika went to New York on a business trip. On her way home, the plane she was in, had a little accident. She didn't make it. She was also pregnant with what would have been, our first child togehter. But sadly, we never got to live as a family." I got up out of my seat and went over to Tohma. I didn't know what to say. "Tohma. I'm sorry to hear that. It's such unexpected news. I feel bad that you couldn't live as the happy family that you wanted." I pulled him close to me and hugged him tightly. I kissed him softly on his head and inhailed the sent of his soft silky hair. Poor Tohma. Even after losing his wife and kid, he still waited for me. I feel like I was being selfish. "Tohma. I'm really sorry. I wish I could have been there at the funeral and to be there for you the way you were there for me. I was being selfish. You had other things going on but I-" "It's not your fault. I know you would have been there if you could've. I bet she's happy though. To see you care so much. I'm sure she wouldn't mind us together. Mika didn't like the idea of you and Eiri together anyway because you guys kept hurting eachother. I bet if she was here right now, she would say something like, 'I told you so.'" he smiled at me and hugged me tighter, not wanting to let go. "Tohma." I said as he buried his head into my chest. I sat there, holding him just like that until he felt better. It was sad that Mika left us, but at the same time, I was happy because now he was mine. Later in the day, I guess I couldn't help it, and I cried for her because I wasn't there and Tohma lost everything dear to him. I will take good care of him, Mika. I promise.
After dinner, Tohma told me that Ryuuichi wants me to rejoin Bad Luck and he'll have Nittle Grasper rejoin. While I was unconcious, the two most famous bands were gone, but still very popular. Ryuuichi and Tatsuha lived in New York together but were going to come back here. Hiro finally proposed to Ayaka-chan and she gladly accepted. At first, they were going to live here, for my sake. However, Hiro ended up living in Kyoto thinking that I wouldn't want him to worry over me like everyone else. Of course, I didn't want everyone to stop their lives for me. At that time, I didn't care anyway. Suguru and Noriko had formed a band together, just the two of them. But now, they're going to disband and rejoin there old bands. K-san and Sakano-san were their manager and producer, I felt bad for them, mostly Noriko, having to put up with someone like K-san as her manager. Tohma focused mainly on being President of NG Productions. That's about it, I guess. I missed by best friends wedding and Mika's funeral. I felt so bad. Like the worst friend imaginable. But then again, I guess Noriko and Fujisaki wouldn't have formed a cool band. That was the only good thing to look to about me being in a coma for so long. Tomorrow night, they're going to preform their last song together and annnounce their disbanding and reforming of their old bands. Tohma's going to take me to their concert. I can't wait. My first date with Tohma. Heh.
That reminds me, I wonder how long Tohma can keep our seeing eachother a secret from the press. Eventually they would find out. I wonder what everyone will think, especially our fans. Will they allow it? I don't care if they support us or not. I love him and I want to be with him no matter what. For now though, I think the media is going to focus on Bad Luck and Nittle Grasper. They will also want to know how I am and if my relationship with Yuki will continue. Of course, the answer would be no and if Tohma's okay with it, I will respond with a, 'No, I'm with Tohma now.' Just thinking about it makes me so happy and excited. I hope that day will come soon. To think I would end up with Tohma! I'm so happy. It's a good thing I broke up with Yuki. It doesn't bother me much anymore. I remember thinking one time, 'It would be nice to hear Yuki say "I love you" at least once and propose to me.' But now I see that it was an unreachable goal. Now I want Tohma to be the one. Maybe he might.