Gravitation

Title: Makeikusa

Disclaimer: I don't own gravitation but I do own the plot and the poem. This is what some of you have been waiting for: the return of Yuki! The poem is called Fadin' love in case you wanted to know. I wrote it especially for this fic, for this chap. I hope it goes well with it.

Chapter 7: Chijutsu Yoru (Faithful Night)

Shuuichi's POV

The next morning when I woke up and sat down at the table with Tohma ready to eat breakfast, he handed me the paper. "I told you the media was quick. They already put us in the news. I bet everyone knows about us by now." I couldn't believe it. Already? I wonder if now that Tohma's back to his regular self, if he regrets doing that and letting everyone know so quickly. But then again, he may not regret it since he did it to show Yuki that I belonged to him and now that we're in the paper, Yuki will find out for sure. "That's not all. It seems as though someone even caught us on tape." He turned on the news.

"Last night it seems as though our fans found out an interesting piece of news. As I understand, at the concert holding the final concert for the new and up coming band that Noriko Ukai and Suguru Fujisaki was holding, the two famous x bands were gathering for a reunion of some sort. Even Shuuichi Shindou of Bad Luck who has disappeared for quite some time now, was there. Tohma Seguchi has declared his love for Shuuichi. If you take a look, here's the footage." A reporter had most of what happened last night. I can't beleive it. How embarrassing. We were everywhere. "Shuuichi, don't be embarrassed. This is a good thing, they were going to find out anyway." "I guess so." I smiled. "The fans seem to support their relationship, but one can't quite help to ask if this means Shindou-san's relationship with Eiri Yuki is over? And for how long this new couple has been going out? One fan who was there at the concert last night heard Seguchi-sama say that they were dating for two years now and that Eiri Yuki and Shuuichi Shindou broke up and since then, they've been dating. How could we have missed such a-" Tohma turned off the T.V. "I guess things will be a bit busy and noisy for awhile now that they found out so soon." I sighed.

"Yea, but it'll be even more busier once they find out Nittle Grasper and Bad Luck are coming back. All this news happened all at once." Tohma laughed. "I think it will be too much for our fans to handle all at once." Well, one thing was for sure. It was going to be busy. We had to get ready for our press conference stating that we will be reforming our old bands again.

After the press conference took place, Tohma had to stay at the office in NG Productions for a bit, so I told him I would go on ahead and that I'll see him when he gets home. I wanted to get home the fastest way, so I took a shortcut through the park. I stopped for a few minutes to see the sunset. It was so beautiful. I wish Tohma were here to see it with me. "Shuuichi?" A familiar voice startled me out of my thoughts. A voice I knew too well. A voice that belonged to someone I still refused to see. I was so nervous to turn around and face him.

Yuki's POV

There he was. Shuuichi. He was just standing there. I know he heard me call his name, I was pretty loud and I saw him flinch, probably at the sound of my voice. "Shuuichi?" I asked again, hoping for answer. He turned around. Wow, he looks so different from the last time I've seen him. "You like like quite the juvenile delinquent." I tried to sound playful. "It's been so long. I've missed you, Shuuichi." I went up to him and tried to put my hand on his shoulder, but he jumped back. "What's wrong? Why won't you say anything to me? Are you afraid of me? Are you angry? Listen, I'm really sorry about what I've put you through and that nothing I say or do can make up for that-" "If you know, then why are you here? Why do you appear before me? I thought I made it clear that I didn't want to see you again." What? Were my ears decieving me? Shuuichi really did hate me. I thought he would never hate me, but I guess I took that for granted. But I guess that was expected after what I've done.

For the love that is slowly fadin'

For the broken heart that I'm aidin'

I want to give up my life

Because the pain I'm feeling is like being stabbed with a knife

"Shuuichi. I don't want you to hate me. Please, just listen to what I have to say. I love you." For the first time, I meant what I said. I really do love him. "I mean it. I realized how much I really loved you after I thought I was going to lose you forever. I hope that you can find a place in your heart to forgive me, to accept me again. I know I probably sound selfish, but I need you." I was practically on the verge of tears. I wanted him back so badly. I want to believe that what I saw and heard about him and Tohma were all lies, a nightmare. I didn't want to lose him to anyone. Why couldn't I see this before? My feelings for him. Now I might be too late, but I have to try with the little bit of hope I do have left.

Because I can't stand myself

Because I hurt you as well as my innerself

Feeling the dark starry night

I dream of our gold love's light

"There all lies. Everything you say are all lies. I don't believe any of it. And yes, you are being selfish. You got the nerve to ask me to come back to you after all you've done to me? After all those times I wanted you to come to me but you refused me? It's okay for you to turn me down, but it's not okay for me to turn you down, right? I hate you and everything you do. If it took me attempting suicide to make you realize your feelings for me, then I feel sorry for anyone else who ends up with you. You're going to put everyone through hell." He sounded disgusted. His words were harsh. I know what I did was wrong, but this, this was too much. He found the guts to speak up to me. Is this how rejection feels? This is the first I felt it and by the only person I ever really loved. This is how he must of felt countless times when I rejected him. It's a horrible feeling. The worst. I was so mean to him. I regreted everything I've done to him. I wish I could take it all back and we would be together. If only I would've known this was going to happen, I wouldn't have done any of those things. Now, I was crying. Shuuichi seemed surprised to see me cry, I guess because he only seen me cry once before now. "I'm. . . . Really sorry, please. . . . Forgive. . . . Me." I tried to beg for his forgiveness between chocked sobs. I didn't want to lose him. That's what I feared most.

"Yuki." I heard him sigh, in a more gentle voice than before. His voice was so cold, like ice but now it was softer. "I'm only going to tell you this once. I won't get you back for what you've done because I believe what goes around comes around. I believe you already know about Tohma and I? If you thought it was a joke, it's not, we're lovers now. If you want to, you can count it as payback, but I don't believe in that. I don't want to hurt anyone because I know that feeling to well and no one deserves it. I have no intentions of getting back together with you now or ever. I won't put myself throught that again." "Shuuichi, I've changed-" He cut me off. "I was speaking. It doesn't matter to me whether or not you've changed. At least it will be good for anyone else who tries to get together with you. They won't have to go through what I did and suffer such consequences. Right now, I know for sure that I will never have feelings of love for you any longer, but I'm not so sure if I should forgive you for what you've done. If I decide to forgive you, you should think of yourself as lucky. It will take a lot for you to gain my trust back. Try and show me how much you've changed but it will only go as far as friendship between us. No matter what, we will never be lovers again." His voice was gentle but his words were harsh, cold. I didn't want to hear those words. But I rather have him as a friend than nothing. I will continue to try even if it's impossible. He never gave up on me, so I won't give up on him. It started to rain. It was raining hard. Perfect weather for a night like this, after I just heard such hurtful things from the one I love most. But I deserved it and I knew it. I got up and moved closer to Shuuichi. I put my arms around him and hugged him. To my suprise, he hugged me back. I guess this is good enough for now. It's better than nothing. I pulled away. "So, it's true, huh? You and Tohma really are togehter?" I tried not to sound upset but I think I sounded a bit more disappointed than upset.

To the love that was ours

To the tears that fell through the hours

And to me, whose soul cries tears that rain like showers

I let this love of ours fade

For mine and other hearts that were played

"Yes, we are together, Eiri." Tohma was behind me. "Tohma!" Shuuichi's expression changed completely when he saw Tohma. "Shuuichi, come over here under my umbrella. You'll get wet and then you'll get sick. We can't have that. I thought you were going straight home. What are you doing out here anyway?" "I stopped to watch the sunset. I thought that I wanted to see it with you one day! Heheheh!" Tohma patted him on the head. "Is that so? Than maybe we will. How about tomorrow if the weather's nice?" "Really? Yay!" Shuuichi looked so happy around Tohma. He smiled such a sweet cute smile. He used be like that with me, but his face was never filled with that much emotion probably beause he decided to love me even though he was in pain. He will never smile like that again for me. Only for Tohma. I used to think no one could replace me in his heart, but Tohma did. It was bound to happen eventually. He could never love me like that. He always did like Tohma, because he was a part of Nittle Grasper. I bet Tohma will take much better care of him than I ever could, and knowing that hurts. Shuuichi was just too happy with him, now I didn't have the heart to ruin his happiness once more. Let them be togehter. I guess it was never meant for us to be, and if it is, then maybe one day, we'll be lovers again. I can only hope now. "If you will excuse us Eiri, we'll be leaving now." Tohma bid his farewells. "You should get home to, it's raining really bad, Yuki." I could only smile at him. I couldn't find my voice to say anything. There's nothing I could've done to make him stay anyway. I just watched him, walking further and further away from me. I missed him so much. I'm glad I got to see him, that he spoke to me. 'This park, it's where we first met and got together. Now, it was the place we met and broke up, probably forever. The place we got together and the place we broke up. This park holds so many memories, both good and sad. Shuuichi, I would defineltely miss you. Too think you would leave me. Heh. I won't date anyone, because I love you and I always will.' It was a thought that made me shiver because he was gone but it made me feel good. I just wanted to let him know that. One day, I'll tell him. I won't say this again, because it might cause trouble, unless we actually do get back together, but, "Shuuichi, I love you." They were out of my sight now. They probably got home awhile ago and is now sitting on the couch cuddling together. If only that were me and Shuuichi now. I looked up, it stopped raining, the sky was clear now. I blew a kiss in the direction Shuuichi walked away in.

"I'll aways love you, huh?" That's what he once told me. I know he meant it. Only now, his love was that of friendship. But I know I'll always love him as something more, no matter what. You better take better care of him than I did Tohma. I know you will. He's happier with you anyway. I walked away, into the night.

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Author's Notes: I think so far, this is my favorite chapter and my longest. It's kind of sad, but I hope you guys enjoyed it. Please review! Hehe. I finally made Yuki try to get Shuuichi back but he failed. I don't think he deserves him back. He's better with Tohma. Don't get me wrong, I like YukixShuuichi but I kinda like ShuuichixTohma more since it's rare and they look cute together. Anyway, this isn't the end of the story. I'm sure this chapter probably suprised some of you because Yuki was unusually nice, but the ending will be even more suprising, a little unexpected. Thankyou guys for supporting me...It's because of you and your reviews that keep me going!