She had just done the hardest thing in her life. After last night at least. All she wanted to do was run to him on the platform. She felt her insides not up so tight she honestly thought she was going to pass out. It took so much more effort than it should have to turn and walk away from him. She kept her head up and tried to enjoy the warm sunlight on her face. Anything to keep her from turning around.
She knew her parents wouldn't be there. They had left the previous night to the south of France where they would be vacationing .However her darling car was sitting out in the parking lot waiting for her.
She slid into the driver seat and turned the key in the ignition. Why was it so damn hard for her. She turned the volume on the radio hoping it would somehow clear her mind. She had just gotten out of the city smiling as the country side seemed to swallow her when it happened. She had fallen in love over the years with country music. She was happy to be on her own until one stupid song came on she didn't even know the damn song.
Postcards and letters And pictures made to last forever
To be boxed up and tossed away
Knickknacks and souvenirs In an afternoon,
they're out of here
They'll disappear without a trace But what they mean to me Can never be replaced
I can't unthink about you
I can't unfeel your touch
I can't unhear all the words Unsay all the things
That used to mean so much I wish I could unremember
Everything my heart's been through And finding out it's impossible to do Oh, it's no use I can't unlove you
Hermione pulled over on the side of the road and turned the car off. She left the radio on and pressed her head to the window to keep herself from hyperventilating. She hadn't realized how cruel she had been to him. She didn't realize it until she thought of her friends. They didn't even have the time to say goodbye to her.
They were too wrapped up in themselves to notice. Since the war it had been that way. But since Hermione had known them so long their opinions mattered. More than anything. However she remembered something she couldn't live life for others anymore she had done it through all of her schooling.
Interstates and old songs Like time they go on and on
I guess I could learn to do the same
I could wake up without you These two arms not around you
Tell myself it's meant to be this way No matter how I try I can't change
She remembered the good times she spent with Draco in the Heads Room just laying around. Learning things about each other. Things that Harry nor Ron at that had ever learned or cared enough to learn while they were best friends for almost 7 years. Not only did Draco learn but he noticed. Things Hermione wouldn't have even thought of herself. She was happy when she was around him. She even loved herself.
For once she was beautiful enough. Not the know-it-all they always seemed to like to call her. She was smart. For whatever reason however her mind wouldn't allow her to forget the good times and just move on. Because maybe for some odd reason her heart knew that the only other times she'd have like that would be with Draco.
I can't unthink about you
I can't unfeel your touch
I can't unhear all the words Unsay all the things
That used to mean so much
I wish I could unremember Everything my heart's been through And finding out it's impossible to do
Oh, it's no use I can't unlove you
The hardest part about acknowledging what she had to was to come to terms with loving him. Just the thought of not loving him hurt her heart. It was a feeling she didn't ever want to have to deal with.
That feeling all on its own was enough to override the uneasy feeling that settled at the thought of what Harry and Ron's reactions would be. For once in her life Hermione actually didn't care she knew what she had to do.
I wish I could unremember Everything my heart's been through
And finding out it's impossible to do
Oh, oh, it's no use I can't unlove you
Hermione turned the car back on and turned around and headed back towards the city. She didn't care if she got pulled over the police could follow her for all she cared. She just hoped she wasn't too late.
When she reached the platform again she felt like she had forgotten to breathe. She looked around and didn't see the head of platinum she was hoping to. Panic and bile rised both at the same time and she was shaking. She had to slow down or she'd surely loose it. She slowly walked around until finally she was about to give up.
She hung her head to take a breath and saw him. He was sitting against a barrier with his head down. She took a deep breath as she smiled and slowly and quietly walked towards him. The words of the song slowly echoed in her head.
I can't unlove you.