Chapter 5 It Grows Darker Still Hey guys. I'm SICK!! ahhhh see I have been having some really crappie heath problems. Bare with me I need to vent if you wish to save your self while you still can please feel free to read ahead. See I had a really bad reaction to my new heart medicine and I kept passing out and stuff and so I had to go to Colorado (I live in Wyoming) and stay in the stupid hospital for like 4 weeks so the could fix the damage that stupid pill did and just as I was getting better I got Strep!!!! Ok that was my sob story. So sorry to if this chapter is weird I've been kinda out of it. Any how hope you enjoy this. Robin hastily shut the door as soon as Starfire had entered the hall, then leaned up against it breathing a sigh of relief that she was gone. Once again left to the satisfying darkness. He walked over to where a pack of cigarettes lay resting taking one out and lighting it and began to pace the floor not caring what papers where wrinkling beneath his feet. He was deep in thought, the only sound was that of the rain beating on the window, and the occasional clap of thunder. To his surprise Robin's thoughts quickly faded from Slade to Starfire. He hated this. He hated how he felt every time he saw her smile. It was torture to him. ALmost like finger nails scraping a chalk bored to you and me. Yet he felt some deep, twisted pleasure in her happiness. Something had not felt sense the age of ten. He had worked so hard to destroy this feeling and here was some girl bring it all back. Why her? He had been completely fine before her. Then she just shows up and ruins everything he had striven for. He hated her for it. Robin stopped suddenly when a certain black book stood out against the mess on his floor. He slowly bent down taking the book in his hands rereading that haunting message she had left for him. Sighing he took the book to his desk where he sat down pen in hand and opened it to the first page. This was ridiculous yet he could found no will power to stop... ------------------------------------ Starfire climbed the stares leading to the roof of Titan Tower. It was raining but she found the rain never seemed to cease here so it was pointless to wait for a sunny day. Besides she needed to be alone. Starfire opened the heavy door and walked on to the wet asphalt admiring the magnificent view of the city. She strolled around taking the outlook in from various places and finally settled on the view of the ocean. She was already soaked from only a few minuets of being up here but didn't even notice. The young girl had other things on her mind. She hugged her knees tightly as she watched a ship trying to fight the waves caused by the storm, finally closing her eyes after making sure the ship docked carefully and safely. She sighed trying to relax her mind but it was no use. She had to many things to think about. Well only one thing, but it was a very complex subject, Robin. The alien sighed again, a million and one thoughts racing through her head. He was most confusing and hard to read. Perhaps thats what drew her to him. She was drawn to his secrecy, his pain sick as it was. He was everything she was not on the outside, but on the inside she did understand him. She too had pain deep inside of her. Secrets of her insecurity, how alone she felt. Perhaps Robin could understand if he gave her a chance. That was all she wanted. ---------------------------------------- Robin let the words flow through him with ease. It had been so long sense his thoughts were anywhere but his head. He felt a sigh of relief as he finally set the pen down. He had no idea how long he had been writing and didn't seem to care. He finally shut the book when he heard a knock on the door. "What" He shouted. "Perhaps you would care to join us for dinner?" Starfire's sweet voice entered his ears. This was ridicules. She had to go away like the others, maybe if he pushed hard enough she would. "Leave me alone Starfire" Robin yelled through his door. "But you have not eaten all day and" She was cut short by Robin's angry voice. "Don't you get it? I Hate you. I just want you to go away." He yelled lying to himself. The pain of knowing he had hurt her pumped straight into his his heart. This was best for both of them. Silence filled the hostile air before he heard her foot steps fade. It was the only way to numb the pain. 9:14. Robin Ôs nap had last over 3 hours. He rose to his feet scratching the back of his head, then walked over to the window to find it was raining, no big surprise there. The boy felt his stomach rumble with hunger as he realized he hadn't eaten sense lunch. He left his room and made his way down the hall thoughts on his snack, walking past each titans room until his thoughts were interrupted by crying coming from the one labeled Starfire. He halted to make sure he wasn't imagining things. Again the boy wonder herd a small sniffle. He shook hs head and walked only a few steps. What had gotten into him? Who cares if she was crying it wasn't any of his business. Yet he could not find the power to move. He was torn. He sighed realizing what he had to do. He turned back around and face the girls door raising his fist and knocking. "Who is there?" Asked a very upset Starfire. He should just run down the hallway. It would be best. So he did the opposite as usual and answered her question. "Robin" He told her almost ashamed of his own name. "I am sorry to deny you entrance but I wish to be alone" Starfire answered. "Damn it Starfire! Let me in" Robin instructed forcefully, again doing the opposite of what would be best. He weighted only a few seconds before his command was met and the door opened. The girl he was staring at was not the usual starfire. He hair was soaked and plastered to her head. A frown occupied her face. The most unusual was the tears in her eyes. "You may come in." She offered and stood aside letting him slip past her. He looked around the room. I was quite different than his. The theme seemed to be pink and purple. A wooden desk sat in the corner, papers neatly laying on it. Her bed was pink with a few purple through pillows. A large purple chair sat next to her window with a encyclopedia resting on it. It was comforting all in all. Robin sat nervously on the edge of her bed as she took the the lavender chair. "What brings you to visit me" Star began the conversation obviously not happy to have him here. "I uh heard you crying and I wanted to see if you were all right" Star wrinkled her brow in confusion. "You are so unpredictable! First you tell me you hate me, then you are worried for me?" She asked in a louder tone than she meant to. Robin stared at the floor not really sure what to say. A loud clap of thunder broke the thick silence, a sign of the worsening storm. Starfire looked out the window but was met with only a blurry wet window so she brought her attention back to Robin who was still deep in thought. "I'm a very unpredictable person?" he offered as an answer hoping Starfire would accept it. "I do not like these mind games you try to play with me" She shouted, shooting out of the chair. Lighting illuminated the room as Robin leapt to his feet as well, hands in fists by his sides showing his frustrations. "I am not as stupid as you take me for!" She continued yelling. "I never said you were stupid. I just wanted to help!" Robin fired back at her. Starfire fell to the ground in sobs. "Leave!" She ordered pointing to the door. "NO! Stop being a bitch and tell me what is going on!" Starfire erupted into another fit of tears. "Damn it" Robin scolded himself and walked near her and sat down on the floor. "Hey" Robin tried to confort her resting a hand on her shoulder which she pushed away. She looked tears sparkling in her green eyes. "Please I wish to be alone" She told him trying to hold back her anger. "I only wanna help" He reminded her. Starfire was fed up. Rarely did she ever want to be alone but this was one instance she did and Robin was not going to stand in her way. Starfire pushed him making him stumble backwards. Robin looked at her with disbelief. This was what he got for trying to be nice? Starfire's eyes grew with disbelief at her strange out burst of violence. "Fuck this" Robin whispered standing up and walking through the door. Behind him he heard her begin to cry again but this time he truly did not care. Well how was it? Now I am willing to bribe you for reviews. If you review me I am willing to read and review at least one of your stories. Scouts honor even though I was never a scout. But PLEASE TELL ME HOW I DID! any suggestions or anything you would like to see in the story are WELCOME!!!! REVIEW!