I Don't Dream Since I Quit Sleeping

Chapter VI:

I'm Living In Lack

" It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves."
--William Shakespeare

Draco's POV

Potter had been staring at me all day. In fact, he's doing it right now. Perhaps he really is loony. I had always expected as much, all that fighting of evil has got to take some brain cells.

Potions class seemed to be dragging on forever. I felt something hit my arm. It was a note from Pansy.

Draco,

Have you figured out if we can go to the Halloween dance together yet or not?

Love,

Pansy

I sighed. Pansy was my close friend but I had never had the urge to take it any further with the blond girl. Besides, I wouldn't be attending the Halloween dance, not this year. I turn around to Pansy and shake my head. I notice her distain, but it's not my fault I can't go.

Father had told me an important meeting would be taking place Halloween night in the Forbidden Forest. I was to dress in my finest robes and all that. I figured that I was going to be initiated as a Death Eater. Well that is just fine by me. I mean, we all knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I'm Lucius Malfoy's son; of course I'm going to be a Death Eater. I haven't really put too much thought into the logistics of it, however.

I mean, I don't want to kill half-bloods or muggles; it's just one of those things in life. It's one of those things that people can't avoid. I can't avoid my fate; I can't change who I am or who I am meant to be. The way I see it, there is no reason to try and fight it.

All my life things had been thrown at me that I had wanted no part of. I was to befriend Harry Potter; I failed. I was to become a seeker to put Potter in his place; failure. I was to embrace the ideals of the dark lord; no way.

I never really considered Voldemort's ideals correct. Not that my opinion matters, I do what I am told. I'm just saying that he is nothing more than a radical politician. He uses his ideals to attract others and gain power.

That doesn't impress me much. But what am I to do? Fight it? Like that would ever do any good.

Harry's POV

Dumbledore had asked me to make a visit to his office. I was sitting in one of his over cushioned chairs looking around nervously.

"Harry?" The old man inquired.

"Yes?" I wasn't exactly sure what he wanted me to say.

"What is the last thing you remember from the past?"

"The future," I corrected him.

"Indeed."

"Well, Voldemort had been defeated. All the Death Eaters ran. It wasn't me that killed him though, there was someone else there. I turned around and I saw him. It was Draco Malfoy, he had saved me," I explained carefully as I watched Dumbledore's calm reaction.

"Was Mr. Malfoy okay?"

"No. No. He was dead when I got to him," I recalled painfully.

"Then what happened Harry?"

"I saw that he had a note in his hand."

"And what did the note say?"

"I don't remember…something about putting things right and how it wasn't meant to be this way. I don't know, " I tried to remember exactly when the note said but it was hard. Everything from the future was getting fuzzy.

"Did the note say anything else?"

"No. Wait. Yes, it said that I needed to go to the Forbidden Forest on Halloween night."

"Why Harry? Why do you need to go there?" Dumbledore was leaning forward in his chair now staring inquisitively at me.

"To save him. To stop the fire from getting him."

"Who Harry? Who do you need to save?"

"Malfoy," I spit out.

"Is that the last thing you remember?"

"No, there was a charm in his hand. It was this," I pulled out a silver charm necklace from my pocket. The charm of the necklace was a twisted arrow that gleamed dully in the poor lighting of Dumbledore's office. I handed the necklace to Dumbledore and he began to examine it.

"Fascinating," he mumbled.

"What should I do now?" I asked.

"What else can you do? You must go to the forest Halloween night."

"And do what?"

"You will do what your heart tells you Harry."

"Right now my heart is telling me to go hide under my covers," I sheepishly reveal.

"Hiding under the covers never saved anyone Harry."

"Yeah, but I bet it's saved a lot of people's sanity."